80S PARTY AT ST CRISPINS, 17TH NOVEMBER!
8-12PM!!!!!!
I'm allowed 2 guests....it's mah neighbours 40th birthday, it'll be excellent! WOOH!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yeah.......I just quit Surge of Hatred, LOL! It's rather soul cleansing....
If you all wanna know why, it's all written in this message I sent to Marc.
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Well...here goes, man...
I'm leaving Surge of Hatred and this time it isn't just me thinking i'm a shit vocalist, i'm a good vocalist in the wrong band. I have been thinking about it over the past weeks and I feel it's time for me to move on.
My reasons?...
First of all, it used to be fun...now look at it, it's just drama all the time. All we do is argue and bitch at eachother, none of us bind together....which leads me onto the second reason, the people we have in this band just don't work together. We sound like 4/5 people playing a solo at the same time, none of us want the same thing as the other and you can hear it in our music, you can see it when we play. Not to mention the fact that you and I are the only people in this band that actually want to play BM.
Also, I just...don't feel right in this band anymore, I feel that the message I want to get out is not the same as the one the others want to convey, like this band is just trying to be controversial for the sake of being controversial because it's the only thing keeping us together right now. I never wanted that.
Another thing is, I just feel ignored all the time, none of you give a shit about what I do, i'm sure you've felt that way too and both of us know damn well who it is making it that way. This band is just turning into, as i've put it before and will put it again...."Surge of Tony". I do like Tony but...it's that, that REALLY irks me about him and I just can't make music with him anymore. Plus, he's trying to change the band and what scares me, is that HE CAN! make the band change....us two are just ghosts in the room when it comes to our opinion. I'm sure you understand what i'm saying very well. It's changing because they are not in the right band, none of us are. Times have changed and I can't deal with only being noticed for chewing on animal organs rather than my talent. I feel like that's all I am to the rest of you, a tool to gain notoriety....it was fun, I do admit but I need something different now.
I'm sure you can see the reoccuring theme in this message.
Lastly, I want and need to do something different now. I want to expand vocally and lyrically and I can't do that in SOH, in this band i'm just surrounded by brick walls. I want to explore other genres that better fit what I want to convey and that I feel more comfortable in. Something that allows vocal experimentation. You know I can't do that in this band, none of you would allow it, not to mention the fact that it wouldn't fit.
That's what it boils down to at the end of the day, I don't fit in SOH. I never have. All those feelings i've felt before about not being right for the band all of the sudden seem so justified that it's screaming at me in the face. Those feelings are telling me to get out now and my gut instincts aren't something I can ignore.
Feel free to call me or something if you have any questions, i'm not coming back though. I can't, my body and my mind wont let me. I also apologise for sending a message to you on myspace....but, I needed to say all of this without interruption and NOW! Plus, we all know it doesn't come out the way you want it to in real life, no matter how much you plan it out in your head.
I wish you guys the best, i'm sure i'll be seeing you about playing plenty of gigs with a kick arse vocalist and all that jazz. You can be damn sure you'll be hearing more of me ;)
Tanith
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It all comes down to me wanting to retain my artistic integrety, which is an important thing you must NEVER lose.
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Bloody Metallers....GETTING ME DRUNK!
Last night was fun! ^_^! We all went to Ross' house to drink beer....I'll now be listening to JUST goth for a week now. NO MORE DEATH METAL!
Merv kept trying to take the piss out of me for being Goth......So I hastily embarrassed him by reminding him, that he went to Dropzone and DANCED! in the Goth room! In a tight T-shirt, WITH FLAMES ON IT! ; )! Like the biggest poofter on the planet! And there are pictures! :p That fucking shut him up.....MWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!
Ross met his match.
Ross: Goth
Me: Greasy metalhead
Ross: Hairdresser
Me: Yeah, but....you work in a factory.
Ross: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
*Tanith comes out of toilet and Ross is waiting to use it*
Ross: Do you wanna watch?
Me: Yeah, sure! *walks straight back in*
Ross: NO! GET OUT!
LOL!
I wish I could remember more...it was hilarious.
Ross is fun though, I love Ross XD! He's really sarcastic aswell...and this girl believed everything he was saying...even though it was blatantly LIES. He let me drink from a tankard YAY! Free beer is always fun.
God, i'm tired now though.
Tanith needs to konk out somewhere....
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But NEVER take paracetamol when you're drunk...yep! I was sick....it was MASSIVE! AND chunky....XD! I was impressed
I ranted to Alex about this...but I don't think I got the real issue out...
on GMTV Today...there was a guy with snakebites, a septum piercing, heavily stretched ears and a few tattoos...he couldn't believe his daughter got arrested for drawing rainbows and flowers on the pavement with chalk!
All my nan could say about the issue was how disgusting he looked...and said shit like.."look at him...it's disgusting isn't it!?"
I said to her...that was rude...and just made the excuse he couldn't hear her. That isn't the point. How can you say that, about someone who truly cares deeply about his daughter and an issue in the police department. He was making perfectly intelectual points....and all she could do was slate him for who he was.
How ignorant can you be!?...Someone is trying to bring up an issue which is very important...and all she can do is insult him.
It doesn't matter if he can't hear you, she was still making irrational judgements. Which probably disgusted me more than she was "disgusted" by him. It's people like HER that make people like ME and all of you amazing people I know, have a difficult time in life. All I try to do, is work hard and try my best, which i'm sure all you lot try to do aswell, depsite people not liking who we are.
Plus, LOOK AT HER!!!!!!!!! She doesn't need piercings, strange make-up and tattoos to make her look just...eurgh! disgusting. He wasn't disgusting.....all his piercings and tattoos were very well healed and complimented his face.
I can understand slating poorly healed piercings and tattoos...it shows that the person doesn't care about their body...but I personally believe, a well healed piercing or tattoo shows that the person truly cares about their body and whatever they do to it....they will try to heal it in the best way possible.
The final point is...infront of me, her granddaughter with a septum piercing, lip piercing and stretched ears....she says these things...I know she thinks i'm disgusting and horrible...but I never did it on purpose....I want my family to be proud of me, I try so hard to get as far as I can with the talent I have. I never hurt her on purpose.
It's another case of.....she's another one of those people who believe people like me shouldn't exist.
No wonder my brother is doing bad at school....if someone tells you that you're stupid enoiugh times....you start to believe it.
Hehe...this is my brother just before he want to his prom.....he looked fucking amazing, so, it's only right to share the picture I got of him.
BLESS 'IM!
I've been watching the Eurovision Song Contest for about an hour now....
All I can say is...WE'RE FUCKED!
that's all for now...
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amused