I have finally had enough guts to go against my bf and stop my meds because they prevent me from restricting. I can't do it anymore, I feel like they rule my life and the weight is going to kill me.
I don't know what to do with myself, I eat, restrict, execise, drink and my mind keeps on changing and bouncing back and forth and back and forth, I cannot make any actual decisions outside of work.
I feel like I would rather not be here at all but I'm not suicidal, it's more like, I just want to run away.
Two great discoveries I am totally addicted to at the moment:
Tropicana Twister Zero- Comes in Fruit Punch and Lemonade. The fruit punch is my favorite-- NO CALS, and big taste! The lemonade has 10 cals.
Sugar Free Mountain Dew Energy- No suger and makes me buzz!
They are both so yummy and really hit the spot, especially ice-cold, with the hot weather coming. They both have aspartame, not Splenda, unfortunately.
eep. am STARVING. i mean i'm sooooo dizzy right now and i'm weak and i just want to EAT something. not anything big but i'm so confused about what would be acceptable this late @ night.... 10:50pm. total cal's today: 570
oh jesus. i really want a peeled apple :S but that would bring the total up to like 660! yikes! and it would be like my 4th fruit serving :S
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OR what about a glass of soy milk? it's 80 cal's, and 3g of fat.... that would take my total to about 660 as well, only it would be more vitamins and minerals and some protein. and haven't had any dairy servings today.....
please tell me your imput as i'm so hungry but i dunno what to do...or if i should even give in at all....except i'm kinda dizzy
I'm sooo happy to say that I've been hanging on so well since my brother left. I've been keeping it at 600 or below every day without even wanting more (unless it's an extra apple... damn sugar cravings). And I weighed myself today! 120, baby, hell yeah! 8 pounds gone in a week. I think a lot of it is water weight and muscle loss, but hey, loss is loss! It's so odd how full I've been feeling, though. I don't understand how easily restricting is coming back to me this time around. Maybe because school's about to end and there's little stress around (except about finals), and school-related stress is my main binge-trigger. And I think eating a can of tuna every day is keeping me going, too, because (even though it's sooo low-cal) it's almost completely protien, and keeping my body happy. I don't think I'm getting enough veggies, though. I usually have a salad for lunch at school but the salad bar hasn't been open for some reason (having me resort to an apple instead). Well, the loss was a good modivation, which I've been needing lately. I'm shooting for 110 by the end of June, which I think is possible. I don't want to visit my dad without being able to say I've lost another 30 pounds since the last time I've seen him. Oh, and I was wondering if anyone here gets back pain? Mine hasn't stopped aching in days, esp when I lay down. Any vitamins I could be lacking?
I'm not going to post in your thread, because if you are going to come to our community and ask a question, you at least should be willing to accept our answers WITHOUT screening. In your journal, fine.
If someone has a disease (we'll say, Creutzfeldt-Jakob disease, since I like to say Jakob..... Jakob) and rather than seeking treatment for this moderate, yet potentially deadly disease, they go find other people who also have CJD, and revel in the side effects, talk about what it's like living with CJD until they ultimately either die, or at least have some catastrophic event that pushes them to go seek medicine, would you, realistically, think they were doing something good? Would you be OK with a "CJD is AOK" center next door? Would you get the bumper sticker, and show your support for people who, rather than attempting to treat and overcome their disease, have decided to wallow in it? I only ask because everyone here seems to present the "It's a disease, we're just trying to feel solace in our misery!!!" argument, but diseases are inherently treatable.
As a psychologist, some points:
(1) Not everyone can financially afford professional treatment (2) Some people have tried professional treatment and it has not worked (3) Not everyone is in a position to get professional treatment (obligations, taboos) (4) Not everyone WANTS professional treatment (5) This is a form of treatment
An extremely relevant analogy is substance dependance and its treatment. Substance dependence and eating disorders have the following in common (and more):
* Isolation * Sense of loneliness * Depression * Health risks
Substance dependance treatment is largely treated in two ways:
(1) Treatment of physical problems
The treatment of physical problems approach realizes that some people will engage in these behaviors (use drugs/eat problematically), so unneccesary health risks may as well be minimized. In drug use this is done with things such as needle exchanges and pamphlets about various ways to reduce the spread of disease and other matters. In the ED community, this is done by exchanging information on various things that people have learned in their years of experiences with EDs. Communities like this are a great way to get out harm-reduction material.
(2) Treatment of mental problems
The treatment of mental problems such as isolation, loneliness, and depression are best cured with social networking and support. In drug treatment this is most commonly treated through a 12-step program such as Alcoholics Anonymous or Narcotics Anonymous. When people first join AA or NA, like in these groups, they discuss how the problem is evident in their lives. Over time some members of both groups put their disease in to remission, and then they ways in which the problem is evident in their lives changes dramatically, so they begin to talk about their recovery from it.
These communities ARE treatments for people with eating disorders, just as 12-step programs are treatments for other mental disorders. Even if they are not the best treatment, they are far better than nothing. Coming here and telling our members that all the crap you're doing to yourself right now is just not worth it is likely to discourage some people from returning, especially the newer members.
I don't know about you, but I'd much rather be a little overweight, happy, and STILL ALIVE!
I would rather that our members are underweight, suffering (or possibly recovering) from an eating disorder, but have an environment to feel safe discussing their conditions than having people be underweight, suffering from an eating disorder, and absolutely alone.
Hi, I know that doing certain yoga exercises helps your digestion process, but does anybody know whether this could help speed up your metabolism too?? Any other tips on metabolism would be great also; ive always found it rather confusing. Thanks :)
is it really bad to have both a serving of oatmeal [made with water], and a serving of beans [1/2 cup] in one day? is that too many carbs? my intake would be about 600 cal's once i include my vegetables and 2 fruit servings.
i'm worried only cause i've got that awful weight on my mind....but i'm thinking of safest ways to keep myself satisfied for the day cause mum and i are going to a nearby town where if i'm hungry, i could get very vulnerable because i'm emotional right now cause of that blasted weight!!!
please give me your imput....:S i can't have cereal cause we have no rice/soy milk in the house right now.
hopeful
tired