some wallflower

Oh how I miss this community, even though I was more of a lurker than anything.

Please tell me everyone is okay and still loving being a wallflower and feeling infinite.

Please do not forgot how amazing you really are. 

This has not been updated in ages, but I really just had one of those 2:30AM, alone with the music on urges to say to everyone that I hope all is well. <3

I want to drive until I find a long stretch of highway in the middle of no where, park my car in the middle of the road. Get out of my car and just scream.







Scream until I can't scream anymore.

I haven't read the book in a while, but I know I need to.
I just got married, and things are wonderful.
About 1 year and 6 months into our relationship, I told my honey that he HAD to read the book, or else.
He read it...In one day.
He even went through and highlighted the parts he liked.
We are on our honey moon now, which consists of us hanging out around the house, floating the river and me getting stoned, and all I can think about is Charlie, and how infinite he felt.
I'm so happy.

Keep your chins up, keep talking, keep writing.
Life happens, it is what you make it.

<3

walking through the parking lot with my roomate, I attempted to put into words how excited I was to see him.  to sit outside and smoke parliaments and [not] talk about anything.  and there he was.. walking towards me all smiles.  [fate]

here we are now with our desperate youth and the pain, we're awakening.  maybe it's called ambition.  you've been talking in your sleep about a dream, we're awakening... these dreams started singing to me out of nowhere and in all my life I don't know that I ever felt so alive, alive.  I want to wake up kicking and screaming.  I want to wake up kicking and screaming.  I want to know that my heart's still beating.  it's beating, I'm bleeding.
 
the concert itself was astonishing.  the song above made my heart skip a beat.  and for the first time in months, I finally felt alive.  

they tell you where you need to go.  they tell you when you'll need to leave.  they tell you what you need to know.  tell you who you need to be.  but everything inside you knows there's more than what you've heard.  there's so much more than empty conversations filled with empty words.  and you're on fire when He's near you.  you're on fire when He speaks.  you're on fire burning at these mysteries.



the "light show" during on fire was equally ahh-mazing.  that song always gives me chills.  I don't know what I've done [right] in my life to deserve moments like this but I never cease to thank God for them.

"I am priviliged to call so many people with scrapes and bruises my friends.  we are thrift store people.  we aren't new, we don't always function the way that we should, and we are quite unperfect.  our hearts have often been heavy and strained, but they never falter.  we believe in things greater than ourselves, and we remember that when life throws us aside leaving us unused.  you are scattered across the map.  some of you know eachother, and some of you will never meet.  but I love you all, know that." - sloan

I couldn't have said it better myself.  I don't need to pay some woman $95 a session.  I don't need rehab.  nights like last night are all I need to stay clean.  and alive.  thank you, friends.

we were born for this. 

I was just wondering if anyone can help me out because my best friend's cousin has my copy of The Perks at the moment. What were the gifts Charlie gave for Christmas? Any help would do.

Thanks.

I was reading the Weekly Dig yesterday while waiting to be seated at a sushi restaurant and learned about Goodreads.com. It's a lot like Last.fm except for books. I recommend those who enjoy reading and writers to join the site (you add your original works for others to read). Here's a short description of the site:

Goodreads is a free website that allows you to see what your friends are reading. You can add and review books that you are currently reading, going to read, or already read. You can also read reviews by people who aren't in your friend network.

If you join or already have an account, add me as a friend, please! I'd like to see the types of books other Perks fans enjoy reading.

Tonight someone made me think and remember that the little things that make you happy can help you pull through those times you feel like you can't. So keep that in mind.

I don't know if anyone else has seen or posted about this, but I was looking at The Top 10 Banned Books for 2006 and was completely shocked to find The Perks on it!

Anyway, since (apparently) it is National Banned Books Week...find a book on the list that looks interesting (or even the Perks again!) and read it this week or whenever you get the time.