Destiel

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FYI: Christmas cards will be arriving after Christmas this year as I cannot afford postage right now. But they -will- come, I promise! Hope you're all well! I LOVE YOU!

If you'd like a Christmas card, feel free to message me your address. All comments are screened. Happy holidays!
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Dean

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Med check went well, got one of my meds upped.

Jesyka and I talked about it and she said we weren't healthy and that I should date other people. I know she's right and thinking logically but I'm thinking with my heart and it fucking hurts. All I wanted was to be her wife and the mother of her children.

I guess we all learn at some point that life's a letdown.
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Destiel

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First off:

DON'T PANIC

(Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy reference)

I'm okay.

I also have the best friend in the whole world.

Friday night, I accidentally overdosed on a host of meds - whatever I could get my hands on. I blacked out and don't remember much, but I was banging into walls, even crawling, busted up my bookcase falling into it. It could've been so much worse if Jay weren't there: thank you SO much, Jay. I love you.
Saturday is a blur that ended up with a short stint in the ER to get blood work and rehydrate me. My tests all came back fine and I was released.
Sunday is also a blur, as I slept through most of it.

The week's been okay, been having a lot of mixed states with my bipolar disorder. Saw my therapist today. Emergency med check Friday.

I'll try to keep you updated! Love you!
Destiel

Pick 3 So Everyone Can Have a Go!

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<td width="300px" style="border:1px solid #ccc; color:#666; background-color:#f2f2f2;" valign="top">01. My sexual orientation.
02. What I'm really bad at.
03. The one person whose arms I'd like to be in.
04. My best first date.
05. A description of my self-esteem.
06. Who my best friends are.
07. My favorite book.
08. Biggest turn-offs.
09. A description of my best friend.
10. My favorite animal.
11. Someone I miss.
12. The reason behind my last break-up.
13. What I did yesterday.
14. My greatest achievements.
15. My favorite songs right now.
16. A description of my last kiss.
17. What I find attractive.
18. All of the pets I've ever owned.
19. My favorite ice cream flavor.
20. The one place I wish I was right now.
21. The most cruel thing anyone has ever said to me.
22. All of the places I've lived.
23. Qualities that make me more likely to love a person.</td>
<td width="300px" style="border:1px solid #ccc; color:#666; background-color:#f2f2f2;" valign="top">24. My future plans.
25. One of my internal conflicts.
26. What I'm doing tomorrow.
27. My life's aspirations.
28. My most embarrassing moment.
29. Two of my insecurities.
30. What I would do if I won the lottery.
31. What I love most about myself.
32. My biggest pet peeves.
33. What musical artists I've seen live.
34. How many kids I would like to have.
35. My idea of a perfect date.
36. What I'm really excellent at.
37. My most traumatic experience.
38. Where I would like to live.
39. The nicest thing anyone's ever said to me.
40. Whether I like where I live now.
41. What I can hear right now.
42. My relationship with my siblings.
43. What's currently worrying me the most.
44. Something I've repeatedly wished for.
45. My relationship with my parents.
46. What I dislike most about myself.</td>
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