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Good weekend. Moo and rashida came up on saturday and we just hung out and played some card games and a little pong. Moo and I were 4-0 haha. We played some DDR too, i kicked ass for whatever reason. That was also around the time that everyone passed out lol. We had this twisted tea stuff that was pretty good. Rashida and I planned on mixed drinks but more than half of our vodka is gone. We had 3/4s left of a $20 bottle and when we looked in the freezer we only had enough for a few shots. I doubt andy drank it but i'm sure one of his super cool and awesome friends thought they might just help themselves to whatever is in the freezer. yeah his friends are just great. i've stopped caring. 8 more months and i wont feel the need to lock everything that i dont want fucked around with in my room when there are people at my house. at least we have two rooms to lock all our stuff up in. Actually it's 6 months, and 27 days, but who's coutning ;o)
Sunday was eh, worked all day with jess and MJ i cleaned 4 the last four bays that needed cleaning this month woohoo! and I'm working almost everyday this week so i'll be able to get a head start for november.
Steph definitly got me sick with whatever she has. I'm so tired all the time. I usually can just work right through the tiredness but not lately. i've just sleeping all the time. It's a bad week to be sick too, i'm working til 9 everynight, i have papers due and tests/midterm other homework/group work. uhg.
ohh yeah i got my reffing schedule, i'm doing all modified matches, 62.50 per match biotch ;o) thats like 31.25 and hour. It is quite a difficult job though. Not so much at the modified level but at JV and Varsity and especially college it gets fairly stressful. I have no desire to ref college matches anytime soon. oh speaking of reffing i have to go email mary..

So the volleyball season is over, but they had a good season. My volleyball season is only just beginning, I passed the ref. test and i'll start reffing in november! 35 or 45 bucks a match. thats like working a 6 hour shift at eckerd, but i'm only reffing for an hour and a half, fuckin sweet! the money will be good because i need to start saving for ireland......

yep, i'm going to Ireland in the spring. assuming enough kids sign up for the quater course, which i'm hoping they will. My dad offered to pay for most of it, believe it or not, i knew he'd like my choice in country ;o). My dirty mick may go as well! I'm trying to convince her that it's worth the 1500 so she'll go with me. It'd be so awesome if we both went! oh, and for those of you familar with Dublin history, we're going to the Brazen Head a couple times ;o) 600 year old pub if i remember the stats correctly. 600 fuckin years old, and yep, i'm going to eat there!

What else is going on...oh! Met with the landlord last night at Erika's cute little house. We're signing a lease on tuesday ;o) Bill is going to write the ferrets into the lease so that we can have them!! If he got his wife to OK ferrets in this house then he must reaaally like us. I guess an elderly couple lived there that they were close with and the house has a lot of sentimental value, and it's just so cute! It's a one bedroom, but it technically has two bedrooms, the back room is pretty small (perfect for the babies). All the floors are hardwood floors, the kitchen is kind of a 50's or 60's style and is just adorable. The livingroom is pretty big and theres a hall/room kind of thing thats fairly big as well. The closet is going to be steph's room, because it's so big ;o) haha just kidding hunny. I'm sure i'll get shafted in there whenever i piss her off lol. It has a pourch, AND one of the best parts, it's right across from brietbeck!!!! We take the ferrets there all the freakin time and i'm just so excited. I wish it was june NOW! Well, maybe may, i'd like to go to ireland, then come back and move in haha.

hmm what else, i dont think much else is going on at the moment. Barry went home for the week so Jess is going nuts with lonliness, awwwww. Went to the mall with her last night, in the Benz ;o) SWEET ASS SUV, no shoes in the benz, def. no shoes in the benz, no food either. nope, none. never. haha. ack speaking of cars, steph's muffler broke :o( when i was driving it. She's hopefully getting it fixed tomorrow. Hopefully it'll be ok to make the trek home for thanksgiving. I don't really mind taking my car though if we have to. Oh yeah- we're going to NC again for thanksgiving! yay! We're stopping at Aunt Carol's on the way there :oD So i'll get to see some of the fam. I think we're sleeping there that tuesday night and then finishing the trip to nc in the morning, sweet!

well i better go scrape the rust off my gaelic, i should be needing it in may ;o)

so, well. i still live with slobs. Stephanie is making a genuine effort but i still have to tell/ask her to do dishes and what not instead of her doing them on her own, but baby steps. Andy does his own dishes right after he uses them, which is fairly impressive, i dont even do that all the time. But, neither of them are making much effort towards the communal parts of the house, living room, bathroom, laundry room, kitchen. Although the laundry room is my and steph's problem since the ferrets are always in there. I think the mentality now is that we're always so busy, we need to relax during our free time, we're never in these rooms anyway, why should we have to clean them. Which i can understand, however all this shit still needs to get done. the most i do in the livingroom on any given day is walk through it or sit on something if steph is in there. yet i'm still the main one cleaning it. We all use the bathroom so no one can fight that one. The kitchen...well if you make a mess in the kitchen you should clean it up, but that doesn't seem to happen too often. I'm considering making a chart that will have each of us cleaning a room once a week and we'll rotate rooms. Bathroom, living room and kitchen. and steph and I can rotate between our room and the laundry room. or just do it together. That way I can stop bitching about how i live with slobs and no one will be the only one cleaning on a weekly basis. i guess we'll see what comes of that. It sounds good in my head, lame, but effective. The bathroom and living room are gross right now, i didn't get a chance to clean this weekend cuz i worked an 11 and a 9 hour shift which yeah took up most of my weekend, i'll have to clean those rooms tomorrow though. i have a day off!

and eckerd. yeah...i still love working there, however... I think i just might hurt rob one of these days. He definately let the Tech 1 thing go to his head. He's bossy and gives a lot of attitude to EVERYONE and he blames EVERYONE for shit that he does wrong. He even is pretty rude to jess and ang on most days, which is a definate NO NO. You don't mess with jessica and angela, like..i'd be so scared if i really pissed one of them off. Rob doesn't bag right, he doesn't x the bottles, he can't do much on the computers yet and he tells angela to run on the register. BIG TIME NEVER EVER DO THAT! angela is so good with the computer she should never be on register. and Jon, well, jon is just an idiot. He doesn't do the call outs right, probably 50% of the call outs i did this weekend were ones that he missed. That may not seem like a lot to you but trust me, it's really quite bad. Rob thinks he's better than call outs now so he doesn't do them anymore, he was on yesterday and apparently it was pretty slow but he still didn't do call outs. Rob also thinks he's above the register now too, which uhh if he thinks he can tell ange to run register but he sholdn't be on it then he deserves a kick in the nuts. I'm really just waiting for the day that ange or jess blows up at him and he gets humbled. and i hope that i'm there that day.

Well stephanie has redeemed herself from the lazy slob that she once was. Before she even read my previous entry, she made the decision to clean the whole house, including the bathroom and doing all the dishes to surprise me when I got home from work. This is love people, this. is. love.

and just for the record (mainly for hers) this was her beginning of turning over a new leaf. She will no longer (taking baby steps of course) be lazy and avoid cleaning and leave dishes around the house. (anytime you forget that, read this entry or remember the times you forgot to clean the cage and how mad i got :oD

A clean house is a love that will never end <3

it's been a while. quite a bit has happened. yet i dont really have a whole lot to say. Eckerd is fun. I've finally met people from oswego that remind me of the good times i had at keuka, i didn't think that was ever going to happen. Volleyball is going well. we're placed 2nd in sunyac standings so thats something to be proud of, especially with half the team injured. 

my schedule is very demanding this semester, i've been working 30 hours a week with 5 classes, volleyball when i can, and homework and chores take up the rest of my free time. I'm the only one in the house who actually cleans, part of me wishes i had just stayed on campus and hoped for a single. Or commuted from home. I hate living with slobs.

Dad is sick. and i'm not refering to the flu. i'm going home for most of next week, its going to be a long week. When i get back i probably wont have time to relax because i'll have to clean everything in between work and classes. Now i know how every mom in america feels, unfortunatley, i'm not a mother, and i'm living with adults, making it more pathetic. oh well. lease is up in 9 months. start the count down now.

you know what i shouldve done, i shouldve stayed at keuka and roomed with brianne. she's not lazy or irresponsible, she doesnt bitch and moan about everything, she holds her own. yeah. regrets.

First i'd just like to say that i AM excited for harborfest.  what i meant in my last entry that i'm more excited about hanging out with everyone and seeing people i haven't seen in a while than i am about drinking. Drinking is not important to me and harborfest generally stands for drinking, which is what i meant by when i said i'm not entirely excited about harborfest, just the people.

Its been a long week. 
Reffing clinics are over until september when we have to take the tests. They really didn't do enough teaching. Jeremy and I should be okay but only because we've already been involved in the sport for years. It should be interesting to say the least. It'll be a good experience though. 

I got a letter from the Stonewall Committee today about volunteering at their booth for the state fair. I'm going to do two of the days, i think it'll be a good experience. Mom wasn't entirely exicited about me doing that though, she's also not entirely excited about me cutting my hair quite short tomorrow. She thought I just wanted the back shorter but when i showed her the pictures I was considering she seemed extremely turned off. Dad is going to be even worse, i dont really even want to tell him. We'll see how it goes i guess. Steph is excited about it so theres one supporter.

Next week is harborfest. I'm not really super excited about it, just that Diana rashida and melissa are coming. I haven't figured out who else is really coming yet. I think richo, evan, nikki and craig are stopping by, probably jeremy too and maybe jessica. I hope they all come, they'd be fun to drink with. I'll have to make sure they plan to at least stop by.

After harborfest Diana and I are roadtripping our way to Ocean Grove NJ. The house is pretty nice, theres a trip to a near by six flags in the works too. It should be an good time. I believe i'm taking her to the airport on my way back here, asuming i leave the same day she does. I may or may not, it depends on a few things. 

Rashida and I are talking about IHOP.....i've never missed a restaurant so much before. Come back to us IHOP! We need you! :'o(

Weeeeellll nothing is going on really. I'm just bored. Tent sale thing at dicks, meh. Its annoying. Ooo, KP was in the store the other day, i haven't seen her in a year or so, it was cool to see her again. I also talked to Ashley today, sort of... we left each other messages lol. I hope she comes up for harborfest, or we at least get a chance to hang out this summer. It's been way too long since I've seen her. Christen and Aman too. 
I turn 20 on thursday, i dont really want to be 20, i can't blame anything on being a teenager anymore i'd rather just go right to 21. Richo's birthday was today and troys is wednesday, i wonder if anyone else at dicks has a birthday this week.  I'm planning to be extremely hung over if not still drunk when i come in at 5pm on thursday lol. I dont work wednesday and Andy has the night off so we'll probably celebrate our birthdays wednesday night. At least, thats when i'll be heavily drinking. oh yeah, Mom is coming up tomorrow! I'm excited, i miss mom! I think we're going out to breakfast at Wade's and then i dunno what. I hope she hangs out for a while. she'll be proud that i've finally gotten my room unpacked haha. She'll probably want to play with the ferrets too and meet the piggies. it should be a good day. 
Andy and I are going to see Lois on wednesday, i guess she got a gig at camp Hollis for the summer so we're going to go harass her haha. That will be awesome, Debbie came into the store the other day and i didn't quite recognize her but i had the urge to throw food at her. haha oh man, i do miss some things about the dinning hall.
well anyway, i guess i'm gunna go get ready for bed. yep.

my babies are just so adorable.
I found them sleeping in this drawer, luckily Andy had his camera in his pocket. Speaking of Andy, his ginnea pig (Guiness) scurried into his boxers the other day and andy had to strip to get her out and just yesterday kitty crawled up there a few times. I just thought i'd share :o)

So....I'm home for the weekend. The kittens got bigger already, they're adorable. I believe Sneakey is still avoiding them though. They are currently eating a plant and jumping at the window. Ahh Kittens... gosh they're so fuckin cute.

Dicks still sucks, surprised? Hannah's last day is next friday and Chris is hiring more people for clothing. Although, an old vball teammate of mine applied recently, i saw her application. If he really feels the need to hire more people, i hope he hires her. Jackie called in last night, that fucking sucked. Ashley had to cover the locker rooms, she lived though so i guess it wasn't too bad. I need to figure out when i can work at the Fair so i can be sure to put my two weeks in to Dicks on time. There will be a few people missed, but i just can't drive an hour to work 5 hours a week during the semester, theres no way i can afford that. Plus i'll be refing and hopefully working in oswego so i wont need Dicks. I will definately miss some people though.

PRIDE was this morning in downtown. I wish i knew it was happening, i wouldve gone. The Keuka Chapter of Gamma Sigma United added me as a friend on myspace. I dont know any of the officers except for Eric. I looked through a lot of Keuka profiles though, I do miss them. Many of my best college times were at Keuka and those will never be topped. I miss the family feel of college. I dont think I'd ever transfer back, and i dont regret coming to Oswego, but i do miss the keuka family. and KCVB. Erin and Pat..or at least Pat thinks OSVB is like a little family. yeah right. Nothing compares to KC. Oh well, hopefully Oswego will feel a little more like home this year. As much as I hate the dinning hall, I wouldn't have met Andy if i never worked there. 

So yeah I dont know. I think having the ferrets here fucked up my relationship with mom. She seems a lot more bitter now and always mention her disapointment in my ferret owning decision. She wasn't as happy as a mother should be when i got home tonight either. She uh, i dont know, just seems disapointed in me i guess. She always seems disapointed in me now a days, I dont know what I'm doing wrong. Occasionally I get the sense that she's faking happiness a lot. I wish she would just tell me what I'm doing wrong. Oh- yeah and I think i'm losing touch with dad again. Ever since I told him about my summer plans and that my living situation for next year is definate he hasn't called as much. I call and email as much as i remember to but I dunno, i feel like the effort is one sided again. I really dont think i can handle another 6 month silence treatment from him. But I still have hope that none of this is true. I miss the way things used to be, it seems like everything was better before they knew about me being gay. Sometimes i miss being in the closet, i guess the grass is always greener on the other side.