Again

So, is this the time it sticks?

I have half-decided to do Tough Mudder in October. I've taken up Historic European Martial Arts recently, and my school is going.

I am not unfit, but I am a big fatty (81.6 last night), and have little upper body strength (apart from a couple of little sword muscles).

Ran 5k last night, and limped 3 (Ankle got grumpy. Was hoping it would cheer up, but gave up after a km and headed home to give it a break. Seems okay today, hasn't happened before, shouldn't happen again.)

Being healthy today. So far.

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Am on my third day of being healthy.

82.2 this morning. No idea what I was on day 1. Probably about the same.

Have slipped up a little on each day, but less than 1000 kj worth, so a vast improvement on recent times.

Go.

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So, the festival is over, and I am the fattest I have ever been.

81.0

Here we go again.

Bright sides: I don't have much coming up in the next month, so I should be able to take a good swing at this.
Down side: Winter is starting and it's cooooold.

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Christmas is over. Time to lose 10kg. (Well, at least 8)

Went for a run. It was only 6km, as I haven't run for a month. Didn't go very well, but was better than not going.

Or so I am told...

Current weight 69.9

Yet another new beginning

Just so sick of thinking about being fat. I woke up at 5am this morning needing to go to the bathroom, and stayed awake for ages after I returned to bed just being depressed that I was such a fatty.

One of my besties has just lost heaps of weight and looks awesome. I am so proud of her.

http://simplyshrinking.tumblr.com/
http://perfectability.tumblr.com/
http://skinny-can-happen.tumblr.co…
http://onethinspodiary.tumblr.com/
http://suckkitin.tumblr.com/

Healthy recipes: http://making-it-out-alive.tumblr.…


http://www.losertown.org/eats/cal_…
Day Weight CaloriesUsed Your Calorie Deficit

29/10/2013 68.82 2135.21 1510.21
05/11/2013 67.46 2114.12 1489.12
12/11/2013 66.11 2093.33 1468.33
19/11/2013 64.79 2072.83 1447.83
26/11/2013 63.48 2052.61 1427.61
03/12/2013 62.2 2032.68 1407.68
10/12/2013 60.93 2013.02 1388.02
17/12/2013 59.67 1993.64 1368.64

Waking up thinner is worth going to bed hungry

You will be fat if you eat today

Only fat people are attracted to fat people

Is food more important than happiness with your life?

Thin people look good in any clothing

Saying “no thanks” to food is saying “yes please” to thin.

Don’t eat. Don’t fucking eat. You’re fat. You’re ugly. You control your body, so just don’t eat. Eat less. Your thighs shouldn’t touch. Drink water. Look at what you are about to eat. Do you really need it. You’re not that hungry, you can go without it. Think of how great you’ll look if you keep this up. You can do it. Put the food down. You want to stop hating your body, right? Do if for every time you’ve been disappointed in yourself. You hate what you see in the mirror. You can change it. Lose the weight. You’ll be able to fit into anything. You want to be as perfect as possible, don’t you? Soon you will see your ribs. You’ll be happy as long as you don’t eat, so don’t eat.

Because the mirror hurts more than hunger

Why bother eating when you’ll just get hungry again?

Hungry?
Have a bottle of water.
Still hungry?
Eat an apple.
Still hungry?
Too bad.

Goodbye, Food. Hello, Thin.

What you eat in private you wear in public

Hungry? Suck it up. Then you won’t have to suck it in.

I can’t eat today, because I am fat today.

You’re not hungry, you’re bored. Learn the difference.

Feasting on hunger

Skip dinner, get thinner.

You don’t need to eat yet – wait an hour.

I’m doing this, no more excuses.
No more binging or irrational eating because it only makes me feel bad about myself afterwards. I will make the necessary
changes. I’m going to get to my correct weight. I don’t care if I’m going tpo have to sweat like a pig or cut back on food. No more hating my body and filling it with all this crap. I’m going to treat myself right and teach myself healthy habits. I won’t hold myself back anymore.

You’ve come too far to take orders from food.

You will get fat if you eat today.

You don’t need food. Fat people aren’t welcome. You will be able to run faster without the extra weight slowing you down. People will remember you as the skinny girl. If someone is going to describe you, they’ll say “Oh, she’s that thin girl”. Starving yourself is an example of high self-control. You’ll be able to see your bones. Bones are real. Fat is something you add to your body, not something you’re born with. People who eat are selfish. Do you want pigs to like you, because you’re one of them? Everybody has inner beauty, but only the strong ones can show it on the outside. Thin people are graceful. If you hit a fat person, you can see their fat wobbling a long time after. Do you want people to say “You’re crushing me” or “you weigh nothing!”? You want to be able to be lifted into the sky bt a balloon. People only notice a fat person when they’re standing in front of a skinny one. Is food more important than being happy? Thin people look good in any outfit. No food is worth being a fatty for.

Look at what you are about to eat. Then think. Are you hungry? Are you really hungry? Could you go without it? Think of how great you’d feel. Think how great you’d look. Push it aside. Drink a large glass of water. Now. Right now. Halve the place. Throw one half away. Now look at it. Are you still hungry? Go and look in the mirror. Right now. List from top to bottom which bits you want to change. Write them down. Read it twice. Go and brush your teeth. Drink another glass of water. Do 10 sit-ups. Don’t you feel great? Yeah, look at you. Look at the food. You don’t want to heat that! How great do you feel? How well are you doing? Throw the other half away. Give it to someone else. Put it away somewhere. I bet you feel good now. Do 10 more sit-ups. Go and have a shower. Look at yourself in the mirror. That’s going to look better tomorrow morning. Think about what happens when you eat something. You chew it, you swallow, it goes into your stomach. Then slowly your body absorbs all those calories, all that sugar, all that far. Go and look in the mirror. Poke your belly. Squeeze your arms and legs. Have a glass of water. Delicious, refreshing, filling water. Free of calories. Super healthy. Now, think of someone. Someone you’ve seen, someone skinny and beautiful. You’re going to look like them. Now, think of someone far. Someone you’ve seen. You aren’t them. They envy you. They want to be you. Look at you, you are so beautiful. Get up. Stretch. Feel your ribs. Think of that fat person. Think of all the fat covering their body. Chubby. Fat. Chunky. Squishy. Gross. Obese. Tubby. Plump. Thick. Porky.
Still hungry?

Discipline, Discipline, Discipline!

Sure, you could eat that. But it won’t make you happy, nor will it bring you any closer to your dreams.

It won’t be easy. It will be worth it.

Because nice clothes are made for skinny people

Do not reward yourself with food. You are not a dog.

Greasy fries or skinny thighs?

Be strong and get skinny

I’m sorry, I can’t go out tonight. I’m too busy being fat.

Make yourself proud
When you’re struggling, imaging the outfits you’ll wear

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Fat

Fat

Fat

Fat

Fat

Hence: Need to re-learn self control.

Had a banana for breakfast. Hoping to skip lunch, as I have a dinner-date at a parma place. Will be able to fit an hour or so of gym in between, luckily.