Thank you

I can't take it, it's come to me.
That this life wasn't meant to be.
As I take this choice and let myself go.
I think to myself, how you'd say no!
How you'd hold me close and tell my you care.
It's just too bad you couldn't be there.
It's not your fault, at least you tried.
Now all you can do is sit there and cry.
Remember the times we shared.
Remember I always cared.
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What could have been

Forever feeling her life is dying
But the doctors keep on lying.
“Your client will be fine,
Just give her some time.”

But she wasn’t okay
Because your baby girl took her life today.
She couldn’t keep running
And she wouldn’t stand living.

Her silent plea’s for love
Left her heart on black doves.
“I’m in pain”
Her innocence cut, her pride slain.

Her cries fell on deaf ears
So no one realized her fears.
No one saw her fatal change
Until her heart was out of range.

She wrote out letters
Saying her life would be better.
She laid the pistol on her heart
And blew her body apart.

Her guardians cry themselves to sleep
And all her friends weep.
They loved that girl well
And left her alone in Hell.

Maybe her soul can be free
And everyone will see
The lost life of one teen
And the love there could have been
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    home

I'm lost

  • I no longer know what I want out of life.
  • I seem to be getting worst instead of better
  • life is no longer an option
  • Why was I born?
  • Did I cause them to rape me?
  • Am I a bad person?
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    hell

I'm Dead not physically but emotionally


I feel like my soul was taking away from me over and over again. These are the things that I lost....My life is no longer my life it’s like the whole world is living it and just shut me out. I wake up every morning taking orders from others and go to sleep taking orders .I am a prisoner of this world and I just want to leave (I don't care how just how soon)I'm so tired of this shit(Please help me)Life has taken me and destroyed my soul...........please help me ............

1. I lost the ability to see what the others could see...
2. I lost the ability to feel what others can...
3.i lost the ability to taste the things others can taste.

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    Just like a pill

Dear,Love

never got to say goodbye when  I lost the ability to love anyone/anything.I was only nine when I  lost you and I  always wondered if you would return.Nine years have passed and  your still not here with me,Why?I'm begging you to come back so I can have a life worth living for.Drugs and alcohal has replaced you but they are killing me slowly.I've longed to feel your warm present in my heart.I know sometimes I abuse you but it's only because I miss you.I will give and do anything to have you back in my life.

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I can't stand the pain that I'm feeling right now .I don't know which one is worst the physical pain or the mental pain.I miss my family so much but I'm too stuborn to let them know how I feel.I haven't talked to my grandma since the week before christmas(she didn't even call and wish me a merry christmas).

I miss you

I can't even begin to explain how my life is going!!!!!!!!!!!! I am slowing losing my mind,I am confusd about my sexuality or maybe I'm ashamed to tell my love ones bause they might get mad and not talk to me. I just discoverd that I have a bad eating disorder(I throw up after all my meals)And i take enemas every chance I get). please help me someone!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
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this is my sign sexy & sweet

I'm losing the love of my life

I heard church bells ringing
I heard a choir singing
I saw my love walk down the aisle
On her finger he placed a ring

Oh, I saw them holding hands
She was standing there with my man
I heard them promise "Till death do us part"
Each word was a pain in my heart

All I could do, all I could do was cry (cry, cry, cry)
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All I could do was cry (cry, cry, cry)
I was losing the man that I loved
And all I could do was cry (cry, cry, cry)

Yeah and now the wedding's over
Rice, rice has been thrown over their heads
For them life has just begun
But mine is at an end

All, all I could do, all I could do was cry (cry, cry, cry)
All I could do was cry (cry, cry, cry)
I was losing the man that I loved (cry, cry, cry)
And all I could do was cry (cry, cry, cry)
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I GAVE HER MANY OF CHANCES AND SHE GAVE ME MANY OF DISAPPOINTMENTS

I haven't spoken to my biological  grandmother and a couple years and now she wants to show up and be a part of my life.I gave her many of chances and she gave me many of disappointments, If I have a basketball game coming up and don't suspect her to come I won't get so upset when she don't come. where was she when I needed her like the time when my  biological mother died when I was four ,she could have taken me and my brother but instead she siad she couldn't be tied up with kids. It's her fault that me and my brother haven't spoken in 14 years .I'm 18 now I didn't have a clue that my life was on the road to hell.
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