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My father read
My proudest story, most close to
What I wish for, and he said

"It's good, but--"
"I like it, but--"
And stopped, and what he thought
I'll never know. I wonder though.
Have done, too long, and so

Out of that "but" I make a boat
And in it place a candle of my love, my hope
And lay it on the water and let go.
szzzt: Wufei the scholar is perplexed (wufei?)

Fannish meme questions for 2021/2022 (list stolen from [personal profile] umadoshi)


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Some kinds of horror are not real
Desolation of place is not real
No place ever came to the end of itself;
It changed, and stayed itself.
The grace that calls being out of unbeing, Be
Is inside all things, just now, still.
Outside our hearts desolation is not real.
I can't be sad about the end of stars or galaxies
We know so little, so little
And the people who lived in the first explosion of light
Were sad about our coming darkness too
it would be too lonely to bear
how could anyone live there.

I guess loneliness is real;
But this darkness is beautiful, I would choose it; and we do live here.
We do.
There will be places after our places
There will be people after me, and after you.

szzzt: Ash flips Eiji the bird but Eiji got there first (that one)
Post the last seven sentences of your latest project (meta, fic, any other writing). Tagged by [personal profile] dragonlady7!

To no one's surprise more than my own, some words are in fact actively flowing! But they're on a tiny WIP that I started, hmm, sometime before 2012 based on the filename, and in fact it is a Kingdom Hearts WIP and immediately it wants me to figure out the goddamn metaphysics of Kingdom Hearts, which is an impossible task, but the heart wants what it wants. I also have not the faintest recollection where this WIP was originally intending to go or even if I had a plan.

Cut for Axel & Sora interacting, i.e. a child in canon-typical peril )

I hereby tag anyone who sees this and is actively working on something and wants to share it.
szzzt: Wufei the scholar is perplexed (wufei?)

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Things that theoretically/ideally will happen in 2021?
What will happen will happen. No plans.
I guess I hope to make coffee more often -- the espresso machine feels lonely. I definitely want to keep arting often, for as long as the muse bites me.

szzzt: Wufei ready to find the knot and cut it (wufei)
Muahahaha, I used a ref from a delightfully bonkers library book I have now had checked out for roughly 10 months, and did an action pose! Piratical!! I tried to draw a basic spatha SO many times but I just can't do straight swords from any kind of angle at all. That's okay there are plenty of people Iolaus can snatch a cutlass from.

Grayscale  pencil-and-ink sketch of an irked Iolaus swinging from a tree branch by  one hand and one leg, sword in his free hand.Grayscale  inked sketch of an irked Iolaus swinging from a tree branch by one hand  and one leg, sword in his free hand.


First one includes the sketch layer, 2nd one has the sketch layer hidden and is just the inks. (It's really... really nice having a pressure and tilt-sensitive paintbrush tool... I might try later to explicitly copy the style of that guy who does all the Juuni Kokki illustrations.)



This effort wasn't cursed but the next one definitely was. I'm putting the good ones on DA but where should I put the terrible ones? Instagram??

I'm now a bit closer to my goal of drawing Iolaus in Hades style! hahahahahaha
szzzt: Wufei the scholar is perplexed (wufei?)
Been doing cursed sketches on the new slate most nights this week. This is like when Ursula Vernon recommends doing a horrible stick figure on the first page of a new notebook and writing THE CURSE IS BROKEN, except I prefer to just label each sketch CURSED and snicker about it.

Page of rough sketches of shirtless men, mostly labeled CURSED. In the lower left is a fully-inked sketch of Iolaus looking up and to the left, probably at Hercules being an ass, with a both fond and "'I'll get you later" look.

Iolaus is only half-cursed, though I confirm that the scene I paused to get a ref is very cursed indeed, and the rip is only like 140p so everyone's features are a smeared blur. Perfect for cursed sketching!

Photo of a reMarkable 2 e-ink tablet on a wooly pink blanket, zoomed in to a closeup of Iolaus' face in sketchy inks and grayscale.
szzzt: Wufei is appalled (wufei_noes)
Goals for today:
  • Stand at window with tea in hand and watch sun sink into a fogbank that will no doubt creep up from the water and gently chillily cover us in a few hours DONE this is ACCOMPLISHED
  • Cover bedroom window with the saran wrap, like I've been planning to do for a month or so while putting on more sweaters
  • laundry?
  • make stew
  • Get syncthing up and running on new phone, and also on laptop, for easy syncing of epubs between all the devices
  • get some workbook PDFs on the new eink tablet!
This week has been full of upheavals in my personal technology. My old phone died last week -- crashes before it can turn on all the way, so I probably won't be getting any data off -- and the new one came on Tuesday, I think, and it is certainly quite a thing to go from Android 5 or whatever to Android 11 in a single punch.

I've gone back to Moon+ Reader. Sorry Cool Reader. *shakes fist at Moon+ Reader* I STILL HAVEN'T FORGIVEN YOU but you'll sync my reading position between phone and tablet via Gdrive but I STILL HAVEN'T FORGIVEN YOU

No real worries about data loss, at least -- my WIPs are auto-backed up six ways to Sunday, and a year or so back I set up syncthing to automatically copy photos, music, and epubs between my phone and tablet, in both directions. This was great when my tablet required factory reset and the phone saved it all, and now it's great when the tablet holds the Repository. I need to get that back in place. There's nothing quite like tapping that Download button on AO3 in the sure knowlege that you can do it right now, on this device, without waiting, and it'll trickle over to your other device when you want it there. I think the only thing I lost, and it is a small but real loss, are a bunch of audio files I'd made back over 6 or 7 years to record snatches of melody and harmony when it was in my head. They were somewhere deep in the file system in a weird format, so probably not included in the music sync rules. Anything I'd worked up into a full song is written on a scrap of paper in my mandolin case, haha.

The OTHER upheaval is that a new eink 'paper tablet' slate, which I had been awaiting for several months, finally arrived! And it is both great for the immediate drawing and note-taking aspects that I wanted it for, and a bit annoying to get connected to anything else, even to get the drawings off. I have various nonfiction workbook PDFs that require, to some extent, writing in the book while you read it -- the slate should be great for those. But first I have to fire up the laptop, download the DRM'ed file from Google Play Books, load it in Adobe Digital Editions, load it in special hotrod version of Calibre that can strip DRM, and then finally use the slate proprietary cloud or a 3rd party ssh wrapper to actually get it on the device. Enh. At least I can do that for a bunch of workbooks at once, and it's not like studying them will be quick.

(In the meantime I've put most of LtLJ's historic Hercules/Iolaus fic on the slate, just to tide me over. It would be nice to switch to reading mostly on eink, but I think for ease of file access and page turning, the phone will still be my main reader. A curated selection of epics, longfics, and favorite rereads certainly have a home on the slate, though.)

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I have been feeling #soblessed by all the casefics in the Untamed fandom right now. Casefics! I love them! A perfect packet of plot and usually some h/c and loving characterization! Non-Western magic and wild ghost monsters! Competence, badassery, and character-relevant amounts of angst about both those things! Anyway yes I may have pulled 2+ accidental all-nighters in the last few weeks just because I was enjoying the stories too much to stop.

And I'll definitely be fired from the internet if I say such things without linking a few, so here are few in random order.


Wearing Down Every Bone
GROUNDHOG DAY CURSE! WEI WUXIAN WHUMP!! TEMPORARY CHARACTER DEATH! aaaaaaaa this is maybe the only post-canon fic I've read that rivals canon for trauma potential, because groundhog day scenarios are so whumptastic, but there's a happy ending!


build me no shrines
Conflicted badass WWX! Slight body horror curse! Whump! Sexy addressing of self-esteem issues that was *fans self* very nice

anyway, here's wuji
Is Lan Jingyi the perfect man? this fic and sequel has convinced me the answer is yes
Did I notice him while watching the show, even once, even as "that one sweet kid's sarcastic friend kid"? no, and I don't remember what he looks like, but that doesn't matter. This fic is all I need. And not only is it a coming-of-age vocation story, it's a *really good casefic* too!!

Still in the Water
WWX gets possessed! Spiritual objects becoming semi sentient! Jin Ling bravely deals with feelings, and it's terrible, but he's very brave! Casefic!!! All the adults mobilize in a very competent way that is nevertheless not enough!!!


hills and rivers are waiting
LtLJ! LtLJ! LtLJ!! Fight scenes!! Jin Ling regrets everything! WEN NING, BEST HEAVY HITTER! Wei Wuxian, quite reasonably unsure whether he's going on a family vacation or being lured by his family into a deadly trap, again! LAYING THE BETRAYED AND MURDERED GHOSTS TO REST, LIKE YOU DO
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I have rooted through the fabric stash looking for stuff for masks. Found:
  • Two reusable grocery bags made of the non-woven fuzzy plastic stuff. Now in the wash pile!
  • A bunch of patterns I had forgotten about. I REALLY wanted to make PJ pants.
  • A pants pattern I immediately want to make. Sorted separately.
  • Old tiedye t-shirts needing armpit mending, stuffed in random spots everywhere.
  • A work-in-progress brown and orange wool jacket. I think all it needs is the zipper?
  • A work-in-progress gray and orange fancy wool jacket. Still lots of pinned pattern pieces, I think I got to the hard parts then carefully packed it away. There is a tiedye t-shirt tucked in with it.
  • An old red wool shirt that I wore as a jacket for years until the elbow holes got too large.
  • Curtain cuttings that turned out to be mostly polyester; rejected
  • Curtain cuttings that are 100% cotton, though awfully thick and loose-weave. Stared at pensively, repeating "Surely I washed these. Look, they're a little wrinkly. That's from washing?"
  • No sheet cuttings from when I remade 3 flat sheets into a duvet cover. I was sure there would be sheet cuttings! Where are they?? I used one of the sheets just to add a strip of width to the other two, most of it should be left!
  • A brown flat sheet that is the least nice one remaining; the other two remaining are slated for a duvet cover someday.
  • A lorge tie-dye t-shirt that I used as a nightshirt, which has such an advanced case of armpit hole that it is past mending.
     
I'm pretty sure any masks I make will have tiedye outsides. Maybe insides as well; I'm sort of reluctant to cut up that brown sheet just to get a couple square feet of fabric. Maybe housemate has got some old clothing item she'd like to sacrifice for lining.

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