Ok, I kinda stumbled into this community and honestly I really like the feel of it.
I am a soon to be 21 white irish descent male who has had a whole lot of sex. It was only with a number of people I can still count on my hands without using my toes, but the number of times Ive fucked is endless.
What Im getting at here is the fact that I've never had a woman dominate me, and this really dissapoints me, I dont know whether it is just the kinda of women I meet, the kind that is attracted to me, or what, but all of them have generally had self esteem issues of some sort and didnt really have the gull or backing to just throw me on the bed, rip my clothes off and ride me like a stallion. The more I think about this the more I want someone to force me to lick their pussy dry only to have it gush with more flavor, I want a woman to force me to do her bidding.
Any help here anyone???
Hello to everyone from yet another swirling morass of desire and gender misidentity ;)
I really hope this community is still in existance...?

Hi All! I'm Jezahbelle and I've been with BT for about 9 years; we were friends for 2 years before that. Below is a cross post from my journal. In put is great.
For probably the last 2-3 weeks BT has not been doing well. I found why one night when, while eating dinner, I noticed that he had remnants of eyeliner and lipstick on. We began talking and he told me that he was having serious gender issues. This was not a surprise; I think much of what has attracted me to him is that he has a feminine sense about him. And over time this has been more physically expressed. He already had long hair when we got together, but then he started dying it; he wears women’s underwear fairly often; he does his toenails and waxes his eyebrows; recently, he shaved off his goatee. But I guess none of this feels like enough. So, he is going to go see a therapist who specializes in these sorts of issues. I hope she can help him. He is so sad and unsure of what he wants. It kills me. And scares me. I mean, all of the things that I have listed above don’t bother me, although some took a little while to get used to. But how much more? And will that even make him happy? It makes me feel so uncertain, and I know it makes him feel that way too—afraid that he will need something that I will be unable to accept and it will end us. In the meantime, I have no one to talk to about it. So strange. I set out to live my life with honesty; I thought it would be the one thing that saved me. But really, everything that matters is secret now. Just the opposite. But maybe secrecy will be my savior. So, we talk and cry and yell and talk and cry some more.
i usually think of a switch as someone who can "switch off" a certain part of their broad sexuality depending on the situation. but what about those who find it difficult to repress parts of themselves in this way? those who just want everything and everyone all the time? if somebody (like me) is just constantly attracted to queer people in general -- girls/boys, feminine/masculine, top/bottom -- and never really to one or the other in particular, does that make them a switch or just indiscriminate?
and on a similar note, is it possible to feel toppy and bottomy at the same time without one canceling out the other?
when i put a light switch in my house right in between "off" and "on," the light flickers and the switch emits nasty little crackling sounds. that's kind of what i feel like lately. i'm gonna short out dammit!
I live in SW washington and I am always hella horny, I am not hot, but I am not super ugly ( least I don't think I am) I am good with my tongue and can go for a few hours or morew usually... any women about that are close and willing?
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