summer_shiver

Ugh, I hate the world!! Fuck!
I had to get my wisdom teeth removed on Friday. I have never been more miserable. Not only have I gained 3 pounds from being forced to eat out by my parents (for my sister's b-day) twice last week, my face is swollen, my jaw is stiff, my head is pounding and I feel like I got hit by a truck.
In regards to the 3 pounds, I tried fasting yesterday and on Friday, but it didn't seem to do any good. The 3 pounds is still there. Fuck. I guess I'll see what my weight is later on this morning, at around 6 am-ish. Maybe it'll be down a bit? Hopefully, but somehow I don't think so. Fuck, this makes me mad!! I was doing so well too!
I hate my life.

The 27th was supposed to be our 8 month. He forgot. Typical. I hate men. Dammit.
My birthday's in less than a month. He'll probably forget that too.
Work in 3 hours. 4-8. Might go out later. Dunno. Probably not. We'll see.
Today started out good... going down hill more and more with each hour that passes.
I hate the world.

Hmm... Okay, I guess I'll start with an introduction. 

Well, to start off, my name, much like my life, is quite unremarkably normal: Jade. I'm 18 years old, and my life, as I mentioned before, is unremarkably normal. Devastatingly so.

I live with my parents and my 13 year old sister, who is your stereotypical teenage girl. She spends hours on the phone, has and unhealthy obsession with boys and spends too much time in front of the mirror.
My boyfriend, Nick, and I have been together almost 8 months now, although we broke up back in September for about 2 months, but now we're back together and quite happy, I think.

I'm short, probably one of the shortest in my grade, with shoulder length reddish-brown hair, and eyes that can't seem to make up their mind between green or grey.

For 3 years I've been battling depression, and an eating disorder for 5. Anorexia is probably one of the most difficult things I've ever had to deal with in my entire life. In the past couple years, I had hope that I had finally beaten it, but the last few months have proved that anorexia never truly goes away.

I work at Zeller's where I've been a cashier for 6 months now, and I'm currently in my final year of highschool, and if all goes as planned, I'll be graduating in June. After graduating, I plan on going to university to study psychology in hopes of earning a degree and of going on the become a professional psychologist.
So... I think that's pretty much me. ^^