Sukecchi

I'm posting for no apparent reason. I guess I'm just a little can't deal, things are overwhelming right now. All the feelings, all the things. Got home at 4 am something like that, mom actually heard me, yelled because I didn't tell her all day where i was at. (Told her I was at my friends, really at boyfriends she'd have freaked).

I've stayed out this late before, but when I got a bf I suddenly got a curfew even though I am 21 fucken years old and do what I want most of the time regardless. I just usually don't get caught. She wouldn't have cared so much if I had said I was at jens earlier today, but I really didn't see her like all fucken day. Fuck her. I love her, but like I don't know. Sometimes...I feel like I have control over nothing in my life.

And I don't even mean her. Just...everything. Sometimes I feel like the days and weeks go by and I can do nothing about it and they all scramble everything together so that things happen I wish hadn't. I make my decisions too quickly, I fuck everything up. Well, not everything. Just the important things.

This is just another girl, complaining about her life. Just another statistic depression.

But I can't help it. I am this way, and I have no place to vent. I haven't vented in so long, I've basically resigned to the fact that soon I will never be happy because all the lies I've created will become uncovered over the summer. I just wish that I can at least have my summer. I have lied. But mostly to myself, and anything that came of it will only hurt my parents because they care about me.

What difference does it make?
If every other day never changes
What difference does it make?
If I always have to face this
What difference does it make?
If I throw it all away
What difference does it make?
If I don't face the world today

Wrote that probably about last summer, kinda fits right now.

Ohhhhhhh! It appears I had the urge to draw another on that site. Alas, I believe this came out a tad better!

Draco? A touching moment between the two. *g*

I have no idea why I put that as the title. I guess it's the pirate in me :) Hello. You can call me Sukecchi, or just Suke for short if you wish.

I'm actually quite mad because I went back in the browser and this all got erased. Whoever thought of that idea, anyhow? That pressing the back button could do that to a girl. I think we should go kidnap the guy and hit him over and over again with a bat. Or a shotgun. I'm pretty good with a shotgun. *fumes*

Ok. What was I saying?

Oh yea. This LJ. Right. I have no idea what I'm going to be using it for. I wasn't even gonna use it, except to leave comments for slash I've been reading because it's people like that that should be worshipped properly. *bows* And then they go and have amazingly pretty looking LJs as well, but that just makes me jealous. *makes evil plans of taking over while she is bowing*

Hmmm, but I may put up a Harry/Draco fanfic I started, heh, today actually. It's called Addicted, and I currently have the pathetic start of a chapter one at slashfanfiction.com, because they are nice and let you post up a story just about instantly. You don't even have to have it finished, and you can write it right in the little box...which is exactly what I did. I wrote it right at the second I signed up. I like it that way. Then, you can go back and edit it. Yum. *hugs slashfanfiction.com* Luv those guys.

I do have one thing to entertain you. I drew a very scary pic of Draco, here . It's this awesome site -- you have to go to it to understand, but you will actually be watching me draw it. Well, not *me* personally but. Just look. Of course, I got the site from a pic of a slash fic hehe called Starts with a Spin. I'm sure you've heard of it. The image sucks, because apparently me and computer art decided a long time ago not to agree to like one another. Hmph.

If nothing else, just drop a line or become my friend! Oh, and if you tell me about a HP community, I will love you forever. And be your friend. And maybe worship you like the slash writers, but only if I like the community enough.