The other day while I looking for something else (per usual) I found this old, poorly exposed photo of myself at BlogHer 14. That was 10 years ago but it all came back to me in a rush – the thrift store maternity dress (I was not pregnant, but it fit), the giant Etsy hobo bag with the too-long straps, my flappy bingo arms. And yet despite all my weirdness, there I was, looking happy with one of Luvvie’s tweets, probably the same day I met her and fangirled all over her for the first (but certainly not last) time.
It turns out today is Weird Pride Day! That’s a new one on me. Happy Weird Pride Day, people, my fellow weirdos. You know who you are.
Weird Then, Weird Now
I remember being at Mom 2.0 at some fancy hotel overlooking the Pacific and seeing all the beautiful mom-bloggers looking like glossy ponies with their perfect hair and curated looks, talking about their brand deals and thinking “Yeah, no one is ever gonna want me for that.”
Don’t get me wrong. I wasn’t really very jealous and it didn’t make me like them any less – it was just a club I knew I could never belong to. I have always been on the side of the weirdos, the oddballs, the quirky drama, band and literary magazine kids. And during blogging, I tended to fall in with those whose blogs exposed their oddness rather than built their brand, same as mine did.
Weirdness is a Superpower
Yesterday at jury duty, during jury selection, the judge asked if anyone had a reason that they would not be able to complete the 3-4 day trial. One man, who I had spent about 30 minutes chatting with in the jury room, said he was worried because he had panic attacks and just wanted the judge to be aware.
It’s pretty brave to say in a room full of 40 strangers that you have suffered from panic attacks, I think. During the next break, a small group gathered around him, talking about how panic attacks had affected them. A giant burly bald dude, a retired female nurse, a guy in a sharp wool suit. His bravery had given them the courage to speak freely about their experiences and to talk about what had worked for them (a peppermint inhaler, in case you want to try that).
That’s the world I want to live in. A world where the things we think of as oddities and weakness become our superpowers to connect people and show them that they’re ok, that we’re all ok if we’re doing our best and not hurting others.
Thank You All
I’m so glad for the weird bloggers I met back then and still love now. Too many to list. You took me under your wing, bingo arms and all, and showed me that, even if I weren’t a glossy pony, I was ok in your eyes. I owe you my thanks and my mental health. I am forever grateful.




