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i hate my body right now. so muscular and thick. ive gained fat too. i want my control back.

today is my first day of work. which is cool bc then ill actually have money.

im at muggz right now so if youre my friend from ohio pleeeassee call me bc i lost everyones number and i am seriously bored. like really ya'll

¡he decidido hacer mi última entrada en el español! esto sorbe esto algunos de ustedes costumbre ser capaz de leerlo, pero lo que sólo significa que usted chupa. realmente. ¡entonces me gradué de la escuela secundaria de Long Beach y todavía trabajo en winn-dixie. soy ahora un sostenedor de licencia expirado orgulloso! y sí finalmente me registré de nuevo para el ACTO. he encontrado a tantas nuevas personas ya que el verano comenzó y ha sido loco, pero diversión. quiero alejar y ser sólo otra cara en la muchedumbre en algún sitio. ¿San Antonio con un cierto esquimal?: ¡) quién sabe!

i just returned from drug rehab.

i have an NA meeting today at four.

i fucked up again but i dont want to go into it.

now i have to start my 30 days over again i feel like such a liar and disappointment. i wish my family was as understanding as the people in my meetings.

been kinda busy lately- school , appointments, work work work! :sighs: i just wana get some coffee , relax and shop a little. is that so much to ask?

justin and i talked at 4:00am this morning bc we both couldnt sleep. it was a nice little conversation :)i almost missed the bus again.

i have to get braces. but its ok bc my dads willing to pay the extra moneyto get me the clear kind so i dont look like a complete retard.

my therapist said i looked thin... which i think is bullshit. but w/e

this semester is almost done yay!

i have to work today- blahhh.

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115 bitches!(it doesnt feel like it though) i never thought id be happy to say that bc its so far away from what i want to be but i know i can make my goals!! go me! i really need this for christmas.

so i got :
$350
iPod docking station
iPod transmitter (for car radios)
a coffee mug (it says kiss my tiara lol)
tjmaxx giftcard
gadzooks giftcard

last night i bought a coloring book and crayons to keep me occupied today. its a disney princesses. also im rereading wasted bc its such a good book. well i hope everyone had a merry christmas!!

nicole richie is the cutest thing ever!

ok so i had 3 doughnuts and i feel like a total heffer why did i do that? why? ive been doing so well. im still 116 which sucks ass but i WILL be at least 113 by new years. 3lbs is totally doable right? and then 110 by the end of january. then 105 before prom and ill be all done yay!

goin shopping with justin today woohoo!i need to get my dad and stepmom their gifts eeek! always last minute thats me.

is anyone up for a goal weight by new years? comment if you are.

i finished wasted ! omg so good.

i made a 90 on my impromtu debate today. i know i sucked ! i didnt really have anything to go on and i have a 96 in that class so im not gonna sweat it.

i totally filled out one of those angel tree things (not thinking anyone would actually pick me) and apparently someone did bc they gave me a sheet today in first period to go pick it up on saturday! i kinda feel bad bc i didnt lose everything but then again i dont bc we didnt qualify for fema money bc my parents make too money so this is kinda like getting a little fema check right? what do ya'll think? should i take what they give me or give it away? (god i really want to keep it!)

Nic is moving back to ms and he's on his way now yay! ive missed him! cant wait to chill.

my hands are so dry i need some LOtion.

i need new fUGGs .. the ones i have now are getting nasty like really.

its so fucking cold outside OMG OMG OMG OMG