Sumeragi

Watching tv series after tv series on Netflix brings me to only one conclusion.

There are far too many shows canceled before they can even get started: The Dresden Files, Terra Nova, Firefly, Life, Jericho. This leads me to yet another conclusive conclusion; people are fucking retarded and have absolutely no taste in anything. Especially considering that there are on-goings shows like 'the Bachelor/Bachlorette', Jersey Shore, I Didn't Know I Was Pregnant, Teen Mom, and whatever day time soaps have survived (considering that most are on [or have past] their 20th + season already).

Oh yeah, and another post so soon! But strife, you say worriedly, are you feeling okay?
Yes, yes, maybe a bit maudlin, but perfectly fine. If you must blame something for my continuous posting, blame society for a lack of Dresden Files episodes. I don't care what anyone says, I thought it was /good/.

happy early New Year and late Happy Christmas (for those who celebrate it or happy whatever holiday you celebrate).

I sit here slightly tipsy and hoping I don't enter drunk ramblings. End of the year, yada yada yada, don't post enough, tumblr, don't do anything with my life, loosing connections with LJ, everything's changing, life is moving on.

So instead of going on and on, I'll leave you with the song of my people;

wasn't inherently a bad movie, just the concept was bad. Everything else about it was pretty good. Good actors, good acting, bad concept but everything else worked around it.

Of course, this movie could have been better if they dropped the whole alien schtick and made it /Cowboys & Indians/. The whole movie could have been almost the same damn thing, just without the aliens. And in place of the aliens, slavers or some other invading force; I hear the Mexicans or the British are pretty hated during that period of time.

Now ignoring all that high tech stuff, Daniel Craig could still have been the handsome, stony faced, maybe-sort-of hero and Jessica (Alba? Biel? They're all the same to me, I don't really like either actress) could have still been SPOILER the girl undercover, but instead of being an alien, should could know or have been part of whatever evil/invading group. SPOILER END

The whole journey could have been the same. They could have all bonded at the same points during the course of the story. Except their would be no aliens and the plot would have been better.

On that note, I saw Suckerpunch a couple weeks ago and that movie has some /heavy/ ass shit in it for being a super exploding, girls-in-short-skirts action movie. I mean, the themes in that shit made my head spin.

Oh and the music was super awesome. Bought the soundtrack. I love the remakes of Jefferson Airplanes 'White Rabbit' and the Eurythmics 'Sweet Dreams'.

It seems like I only come on here to bare bad news. Well, it's not like I have other places to bitch about it. Talking to my mom only goes so far before I realize she doesn't understand and that there is some giant barrier that divides us in the terms of emotional understanding.

I should have posted about this earlier. I /meant/ to post about this earlier. But procrastination is just so easy and I am a lazy person.

Thanks to those who commented on my last post. Especially metamorcy1. You don't know how much talking to you helped calm me down and put it into perspective. You might not think you did much, but I really appreciate it.

So my tooth got better for a little while. Then it wasn't. The infection came back and this time it was worst, so we had to call up the dentist and make an emergency appointment with the surgeon and get more antibiotics.

There was a chance the tooth could be saved; a fifty-fifty chance. The dentists couldn't tell if the tooth was really cracked or not. Well, now we know. Today was surgery day and it had to be pulled.

I was surprisingly pragmatic about it and just went ahead and got it over with. The removal of the tooth took all of five minutes. Everything else took over 2 hours and reminds me why I fucking hate doctors, dentists, psychiatrists and all that shit because fuck over booking, but this isn't a post about how greedy our medical professionals are.

Now there is a giant hole in my mouth where my tooth used to be and I feel numb. Not just because of the numbing agent, though that is starting to wear off, but numb in the overall sense that I somehow knew that this would be what would happen. Some how I knew this would be the final outcome and I'm completely defeated so I just decided to give up and let it go ahead and do what it wants.

We haven't set the appointment for the bridge or implant yet. Have to align all our schedules, make sure the moon is in retrograde and Neptune is visible from Earth. I'm going to push for an implant, but I'll settle for a bridge if that's the only option. I just don't want an empty slot where a tooth used to be.

I suppose that I should put down some happier news. My dads company finally has a use for him again (instead of nonpaying consulting) and is sending him out on a job. And my sister is doing well in her second week of college. She was pretty freaked out the first week, being away from home, but I think she's getting used to college life. Her boyfriend is at the same college so they're probably all over each other.

As for me, I'm going to go mope in a corner with my green tea frap until my mom comes home and tries to cheer me up.

I had a really fucking bad day today. It sort of started last night (the 10th) when I was trying to finish up my perfect play through of the Mass Effect series to find myself locked out of some critical dialogue. I ended up playing again through several things I had done before to see if what I missed was in one of those places, but it turns out that what I missed was in the beginning of the game and to get that critical piece of dialogue, I have to start the game all over again.

That wouldn't have been so bad if the news I had gotten afterwords wasn't much, much worst.

The day after the 4th of July, I got this weird lump on the back of my tooth (above it, right on the gum line) and it made my tooth hurt like fuck. For a couple of days I was in really bad pain where it hurt to swallow and move the jaw; which caused me to develop an ear ache which lasted about a day longer. The pain actually went down after I told my parents and they told me to do a salt rinse (warm water and salt mixed together, then swish it around in your mouth, spit, etc) a couple of times then take an aspirin for the pain. We did that for about two days and while the pain went away (it only really hurt when I messed with it, but I could eat without hurting really bad), the bump was still there.

So they set up a dentist appointment for me today. I went. Had x-rays taken. I don't really have a 'usual' dentist, but there is one dentist I have seen at the place we go to more than the other ones; the guy I saw today wasn't my usual dentist, but a nice enough guy. He had looked over my x-rays before I got there and had thought he knew what the problem was. And if it was what he thought, it would be a pretty easy fix.

Unfortunately, it wasn't what he thought. The lump is between two teeth. One tooth that has a filling and the other that doesn't. Now from what he saw on my older x-ray was the the filling was pretty close to the nerve and he thought that an infection had caused the nerve to die. All they would have had to do is a root canal. I've had one before, so I know what happens with that. Not a big deal.

So he did some tests and it was starting to look like the 'other thing'. The other thing being that I had a 'cracked tooth' in the tooth without the filling. What a cracked tooth is, is exactly what it sounds like. The tooth cracks straight down the middle causing pain and a bacterial infection. The lump being the bacterial infection. Unfortunately, you can't see a cracked tooth on an x-ray because of how the tooth cracks (which is vertically which makes it impossible to see unless it's at the right angle, versus horizontally which would be much easier to see; but teeth don't crack like that).

And the only way to fix a cracked tooth is to remove it completely.

You have no idea how devastating it was to hear that. I take such great care of my teeth! I brush after /every/ meal. I floss, rinse, and I take extra care to clean my gums, the top of my mouth, and my tongue. I do this every time I brush. EVERY FUCKING TIME. I'm almost neurotic about this because I hate hate HATE the feel of food grime and bacteria in my mouth. I had the lingering after taste of food. I HATE it. So I fucking brush and I fucking clean and I STILL GET FUCKED UP THE GODDAMN ASS.

I'm 22 about to be 23 and I'm loosing a permanent tooth and I do all the right shit, yet I get fucked over left and right with problems with my teeth. If it's not a fucking cavity, then it's a fucking root canal. And now I have to get my fucking tooth removed.

My mom thinks that it's one of the medicines I take for depression/etc that causes all these problems with my teeth. She tries to look up information about it and the most she's found is that it causes dry mouth and shit like that. Nothing substantial.

I actually take several medications aside with the Wellbutrin, but if I stop taking them, or even lower the dosage of the Wellbutrin, it's going to get bad again. I already have bad days enough as it is /on/ this medication and it's at a dose where I can function with the basic of tasks. But if I remove just a bit of the Wellbutrin, I have no clue what'll happen. I don't want to fall back into that downward spiral where everything was bad and there was nothing bad sadness and I couldn't deal with it.

I can barely deal with it now as it is. I fell asleep right after coming home from that appointment because I just couldn't /deal/ with this news. I didn't wake up until about 5.30/6 pm when my mom tried to talk to me. And that's when I started crying and I just didn't stop. I haven't really stopped crying since then.

I just can't deal with this.

My dad talked with the dentist about what happened during my appointment and he was kind of in denial so he pushed for a two week treatment to see if it gets better. I don't see how it will get better if it really is a cracked tooth, but he still pushed for it anyway, just to be sure.

I don't really see any hope for this. I'm going to loose my tooth and I just can't deal with it. I do all the right things but I get fucked over. I am really tired of this.

It seems like all come on this journal to do I whine and cry. I never have anything good to say. I never have good things happen to me.

Today was my sisters high school graduation. For a while we thought she wouldn't graduate, but we are grateful that she did.

James flew in this morning [ie: 12] and will leave later today. At least he was able to see Becca cross the stage. [Even if he had to go out on a small job this morning and pissed mom off to high hell.]

Now people [ie: family] are over and I wish they would go.

And now I'm crazy bored. Insanely bored.

Originally posted by kingyo_mint at I'm not from the US, but this is meant to screw everybody from every part of the world.

Originally posted by draion at All U.S. Internet Providers will be policing downloads by July 12, 2012

Well, after about three weeks after the initial order, I'm finally going to get Devil Survivor 2 in the mail.

But what's truly killing me is not having enough money to order the limited edition of Atelier Meruru. It was hard to not buy the limited edition of Hyperdimension Neptunia mk2 (as now all of the second hand shops have them listed for sky high prices).

Why are all the limited edition NISA games only available through the NISA store?! I have Best Buy gift cards DAMN IT. I NEED TO USE THEM!