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This Sunday will mark my 5-month single anniversary. I probably won't really do anything, but I think on my 6-month single anniversary I'm going to do something. It will also be marking that I've been broken up with Tyler for over a year, which I think is pretty awesome... I feel like superwoman by now. I am strong, independent, and fabulous. I have a great job, and I'm hella cool. The guys are lined up. I just don't think any of them are good enough. And I like being single bc I hate drama. And i'm uuber picky. I don't want to fall into a trap like I did with Tyler. But I won't. I'm done being naiive.
Poor Brad. I missed his companionship so I started running with him on a regular basis. That turned into twice a week, so I finally brought up the whole "do you still have feelings for me?" question. Once I heard him out and realised the magnitude of his misery, I realised that I was just prolonging it by keeping him around.
I'm not ready to be with him, and there's no point in leading him on making him think that I am. Man he really is a great guy, though. But he'll find himself a great little Christian girl to make him happy. It just won't be me. And I'm sick of feeling guilty about breaking up with him. There's no logical reason for me to feel that way, it's just manifested in my being. I want to bring nothing but joy to other people, and when I do just the opposite, it makes me sick.
Speaking of being sick-I don't vomit anymore. Not since May. Which is nice...
Holy cow. I just realised that my 6th-mo singlesville falls on Thanksgiving break, and I'm off work. I should totally go on vacation--my fam doesnt celebrate Thanksgiving, really. Maybe I should get Zach (who just recently became single) and make him skip Thanksgiving and go to Cali with me or something... lol
txting him right now!
Poor Brad. I missed his companionship so I started running with him on a regular basis. That turned into twice a week, so I finally brought up the whole "do you still have feelings for me?" question. Once I heard him out and realised the magnitude of his misery, I realised that I was just prolonging it by keeping him around.
I'm not ready to be with him, and there's no point in leading him on making him think that I am. Man he really is a great guy, though. But he'll find himself a great little Christian girl to make him happy. It just won't be me. And I'm sick of feeling guilty about breaking up with him. There's no logical reason for me to feel that way, it's just manifested in my being. I want to bring nothing but joy to other people, and when I do just the opposite, it makes me sick.
Speaking of being sick-I don't vomit anymore. Not since May. Which is nice...
Holy cow. I just realised that my 6th-mo singlesville falls on Thanksgiving break, and I'm off work. I should totally go on vacation--my fam doesnt celebrate Thanksgiving, really. Maybe I should get Zach (who just recently became single) and make him skip Thanksgiving and go to Cali with me or something... lol
txting him right now!
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LOL. fantastic.
I'm single. Which is what I needed. Because I am a complete basketcase and I need somene to slap me so I can stop sitting around feeling sorry for myself.
Sah-weet!
Updates! Lot's of them!
♥ Lisa is now in a relationship with Brad.
& Lisa made Carrot Cake Oatmeal <3
What else... Tuesday was FAT TUESDAY! And we saw RJD2 at George's and Brad bought me a CD. Then last night he came over and we cooked chicken and brussel sprouts.
Photo of RJD2:
Annnd I ran Lake Fayetteville and found an armadillo.
It was muddy.
We kinda had the "what is our relationsip status?" conversation. I'm pretty happy about it. I have a new boyfriend. He actually respects me. It's refreshing.
♥ Lisa is now in a relationship with Brad.
& Lisa made Carrot Cake Oatmeal <3
What else... Tuesday was FAT TUESDAY! And we saw RJD2 at George's and Brad bought me a CD. Then last night he came over and we cooked chicken and brussel sprouts.
Photo of RJD2:
Annnd I ran Lake Fayetteville and found an armadillo.
It was muddy.
We kinda had the "what is our relationsip status?" conversation. I'm pretty happy about it. I have a new boyfriend. He actually respects me. It's refreshing.
VALENTINES DAY!
VALENTINE'S DAY 2010 ROCKS MY FACE!
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So I definitely did SOMETHING right. I don't know what it was, but how else did I land such a thoughtful dude??? Seriously? It makes me wonder why I would ever settle for less! More pictures and the whole story ( Collapse )
Believe me when I say you suck.
I think I'm starting the "I hate my ex" phase. Absolutely despise him. Kinda hope he loses appendages.
There's nothing wrong with me. I'm an awesome girlfriend. He was just insecure. Feels like he needs strippers/hooters waitresses, etc. to get approval. That's gross. Also, he should see a psychiatrist for his porn addiction. That's just not healthy. If people find sick videos stored from your computer to your iPod, you might have a problem. Especially if you tell everyone that you're computer illiterate friends did it.
Maybe he finally realised he didn't deserve me, so he pushed me away. I was lied to WAYYYY too many times. It makes me feel like I'm really dumb... like I had on blinders and couldn't see the truth. I fell for every single "heartfelt" appology. And ALMOST every single lie. For every lie I caught, there were probably 20 others that snuck by me.
Nonetheless, I still hope he loses an eyeball.
There's nothing wrong with me. I'm an awesome girlfriend. He was just insecure. Feels like he needs strippers/hooters waitresses, etc. to get approval. That's gross. Also, he should see a psychiatrist for his porn addiction. That's just not healthy. If people find sick videos stored from your computer to your iPod, you might have a problem. Especially if you tell everyone that you're computer illiterate friends did it.
Maybe he finally realised he didn't deserve me, so he pushed me away. I was lied to WAYYYY too many times. It makes me feel like I'm really dumb... like I had on blinders and couldn't see the truth. I fell for every single "heartfelt" appology. And ALMOST every single lie. For every lie I caught, there were probably 20 others that snuck by me.
Nonetheless, I still hope he loses an eyeball.
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I definitely ate lunch at 8:00 this morning cuz I've been up since 3:45AM. I taught Body Pump in Lowell to 25 people this morning at 5:10. It was pretty amazing, actually. Great way to start the day :D So I guess I'll have dinner at 1. And go to bed at like 5? lol!
I went to bed at 9 last night for the first time since I was... I dunno, 8 years old? I went tanning, got a free chai latte with protien, and bought a "suck it" t-shirt from Tabitha. I still smell like a tanning bed. Gross.
Jeremy texted me last night at about 10:30 saying "What's your ex's last name??? Please call me as soon a you get out of class tomorrow!" I got freaked out thinking maybe he died or something. If he died because I wished it, then I would feel guilty forEVER.
Finally I called Jeremy and he was like "your ex had sex with my ex." It happened summer 2008. Jeremy is gay, so... I probably have aids. Awesome.
Good riddance, dirtbag.
I went to bed at 9 last night for the first time since I was... I dunno, 8 years old? I went tanning, got a free chai latte with protien, and bought a "suck it" t-shirt from Tabitha. I still smell like a tanning bed. Gross.
Jeremy texted me last night at about 10:30 saying "What's your ex's last name??? Please call me as soon a you get out of class tomorrow!" I got freaked out thinking maybe he died or something. If he died because I wished it, then I would feel guilty forEVER.
Finally I called Jeremy and he was like "your ex had sex with my ex." It happened summer 2008. Jeremy is gay, so... I probably have aids. Awesome.
Good riddance, dirtbag.
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oh! I'm totaly obsessed with cupcake bakeries at the moment.
& (secret) Brad is really awesome. I'm gonna follow-up with a super cheesy friends-only entry.
(p.s. smokin aces 2??? really? eugh!)
staple it together
--and call it bad weather.
Jersey Shore is the dumbest show in the world.
New Year's was redonkulous.
Mi hermana is moving in with me manana! 8:00AM. I'm not sure what I'm sposed to do with all the crap in the closets of those rooms. Ugh.
Going to Little Rock tomorrow. I gotta figure out what to get Marlea for her birthday TOMORROW. Eeep! I guess TJ Maxx?
Jersey Shore is the dumbest show in the world.
Mi hermana is moving in with me manana! 8:00AM. I'm not sure what I'm sposed to do with all the crap in the closets of those rooms. Ugh.
Going to Little Rock tomorrow. I gotta figure out what to get Marlea for her birthday TOMORROW. Eeep! I guess TJ Maxx?
Atmosphere - Modern Man's Hustle, Shrapnel, God Loves Ugly
I'm having a blast from the past in the music department. I just downloaded a bunch of old artists that I used to listen to. I miss them: Copeland. Rooney. Switchfoot. Atmosphere. Head Automatica. Marc Broussard. Frou Frou. Jack Johnson.
sO MUCH fun.
I've been really enjoying conversations with Brad. For some reason I haven't been able to even attempt to fall asleep before 2:00 A.M. I have to say, I'm pretty pumped that Brad is anti-cheater and anti-liar. I don't know him that well yet, so I am being extremely cautious as far as progressing the relationship. I know there's something there, but I am in "careful mode". He seems like he won't hurt me, but I don't wanna be naieve. Naeive? spelling.
Today he said "I really enjoy talking to you!" :) Awwww. He has been spilling his guts telling me about his family. Which is almost as corrupt as mine. [I should download some Quasimoto.] Hmmm... I am not in a hurry to get into a new relationship. But I really don't want to freaking waste a bunch of time on Mr. Wrong. I really don't like the fact that he smokes. I feel like I should look past it because he seems like a great person. We'll see. I have lots and lots of options. Interested guys aren't nearly as hard to find as I thought they would be. Not to brag but I'm actually a pretty dateable gal. I will never "settle" (sorry, tyler. you would have made me miserable for the rest of my life.)
I can't decide if I should go to Little Rock this weekend. I don't wanna miss my long run this week, because that will really suck running by myself for 12 miles. My calves still hurt from running last week. Booooo... Maybe I'll get Marlea to run part of it with me. I'll have to hook up my GPS or just try and run for an hour and a half or something. Gross.
sO MUCH fun.
I've been really enjoying conversations with Brad. For some reason I haven't been able to even attempt to fall asleep before 2:00 A.M. I have to say, I'm pretty pumped that Brad is anti-cheater and anti-liar. I don't know him that well yet, so I am being extremely cautious as far as progressing the relationship. I know there's something there, but I am in "careful mode". He seems like he won't hurt me, but I don't wanna be naieve. Naeive? spelling.
Today he said "I really enjoy talking to you!" :) Awwww. He has been spilling his guts telling me about his family. Which is almost as corrupt as mine. [I should download some Quasimoto.] Hmmm... I am not in a hurry to get into a new relationship. But I really don't want to freaking waste a bunch of time on Mr. Wrong. I really don't like the fact that he smokes. I feel like I should look past it because he seems like a great person. We'll see. I have lots and lots of options. Interested guys aren't nearly as hard to find as I thought they would be. Not to brag but I'm actually a pretty dateable gal. I will never "settle" (sorry, tyler. you would have made me miserable for the rest of my life.)
I can't decide if I should go to Little Rock this weekend. I don't wanna miss my long run this week, because that will really suck running by myself for 12 miles. My calves still hurt from running last week. Booooo... Maybe I'll get Marlea to run part of it with me. I'll have to hook up my GPS or just try and run for an hour and a half or something. Gross.