Hey, LJ is still here...
Hey, look, it's me.
Radio silence seems to describe my life these days. Not posting here, not blogging the homeschool blog... I manage short snippets on FB most days, but that's about it.
5 kids. Homeschool. Exercise (I've lost almost 65 pounds in the last 14 months). Scouts (Sarah's a Girl Scout now, too). Twins (2 3-year-old boys is a LOT harder than I thought, and the big kids are all still here with me 24/7, too). Money (doing okay, but trying to save for both major house repairs because they're needed and we'd like to move someday and the house won't sell as is, and to be able to take a vacation, plus paying for Scout Camp x 5 - Josh and Shane for 10 days, Nate and an adult for 1 overnight, Sarah for GS Day Camp - plus homeschool curriculum for next year and just whatever else pops up... one paycheck, even one really good paycheck, just doesn't comfortably stretch so far).
All of this adds up to one stressed-out me. Battling depression. And then hating myself for how I feel because I know how amazingly blessed I really am, but I can't seem to appreciate it or find any joy lately. Vicious cycle, much? Yeah.
I see the doctor on Tuesday. Just trying to hold it together 'til then. Even that feels like too much sometimes.
Radio silence seems to describe my life these days. Not posting here, not blogging the homeschool blog... I manage short snippets on FB most days, but that's about it.
5 kids. Homeschool. Exercise (I've lost almost 65 pounds in the last 14 months). Scouts (Sarah's a Girl Scout now, too). Twins (2 3-year-old boys is a LOT harder than I thought, and the big kids are all still here with me 24/7, too). Money (doing okay, but trying to save for both major house repairs because they're needed and we'd like to move someday and the house won't sell as is, and to be able to take a vacation, plus paying for Scout Camp x 5 - Josh and Shane for 10 days, Nate and an adult for 1 overnight, Sarah for GS Day Camp - plus homeschool curriculum for next year and just whatever else pops up... one paycheck, even one really good paycheck, just doesn't comfortably stretch so far).
All of this adds up to one stressed-out me. Battling depression. And then hating myself for how I feel because I know how amazingly blessed I really am, but I can't seem to appreciate it or find any joy lately. Vicious cycle, much? Yeah.
I see the doctor on Tuesday. Just trying to hold it together 'til then. Even that feels like too much sometimes.