My oldest and one of my dearest friends of the last 22 yrs is... dead.
I found out tonight, that my oldest and dearest friend Derek Brown committed suicide last Saturday.
He called me while I was watching a movie, but my cellphone reception was really bad, so I said I'd call him back. He sounded somewhat off, and told me that is was ok if we could not talk right then. I put my cellphone back on the table, and went back to my movie. I little later I noticed that I had a voicemail, people call all of the time and since my reception is so bad and it often never rings. I checked it around 2:30a, and it was a message from Derek saying something to the effect of "wrestling loose his mortal coil." Now since this sort of sounded like the same emo-goth crap so many people we know utter, I didn't think much of it and went to bed. I called him the next day, but I didn't get an answer... that was a week ago... and that message was the last thing he ever spoke to anyone.
Bad reception.... bad reception... I could have called him back... he was calling me for help, ME but I simply didn't pick up on it, I simply didn't pick up on it...
I know everyone will tell me that I cannot beat myself up over this, but damn, I've always been better than this...
I've known him since we were 12.... he truly was a wonderful and amazing person.
- dave
He called me while I was watching a movie, but my cellphone reception was really bad, so I said I'd call him back. He sounded somewhat off, and told me that is was ok if we could not talk right then. I put my cellphone back on the table, and went back to my movie. I little later I noticed that I had a voicemail, people call all of the time and since my reception is so bad and it often never rings. I checked it around 2:30a, and it was a message from Derek saying something to the effect of "wrestling loose his mortal coil." Now since this sort of sounded like the same emo-goth crap so many people we know utter, I didn't think much of it and went to bed. I called him the next day, but I didn't get an answer... that was a week ago... and that message was the last thing he ever spoke to anyone.
Bad reception.... bad reception... I could have called him back... he was calling me for help, ME but I simply didn't pick up on it, I simply didn't pick up on it...
I know everyone will tell me that I cannot beat myself up over this, but damn, I've always been better than this...
I've known him since we were 12.... he truly was a wonderful and amazing person.
- dave
sad
peaceful