Overall Im feeling a lot slower these days and a lot happier, through all the insanity - there are brighter days ahead
currently working my butt off, trying to stave off attorney bills for as long as possible, getting an unneccessarily expensive drug test this week, finishing moving the studio, and counting the days until I can see David and Elaine again
the only thing that is really hard to deal with is David's anger toward me but it always subsides and I know that someday he will understand why I dont live with him, though it might be along time as he has told me a few things his mom and granddad have said about me to incite his anger.
I hope Amy does better, and finds whatever it is she needs but one thing is excrutiatingly clear that person/object/pet/place was not me...
The top 10% economically in the US own 80% of wealth in the world
3 billion people live on less than $2 a day 1.3 billion live on less than $1
at the current rate of wealth hoarding in 30 years 5 billion people will live on less than $2 a day or slightly over half of the worlds popualtion
the net worth of the median American household fell 10 percent between 1989 and 1997, declining from $54,600 to $49,900. The net worth of the top one percent is now 2.4 times the combined wealth of the poorest 80 percent (and growing)
Ive been thinking a lot about the industrial/political scandals and desparities that we read about in turn of the century America (19th/20th century) and wonder what people will talk about this part of history as these desparities have grown to astronomical proportions - will it take a world war? or just a complete economic collapse to correct the situation?
sometimes it gets a little too heavy to have an ounce of reality and know that Im not a solver of the world's problems only a hypocritical consumer
I am at the root of all the pain, hunger, death, and despair that humans have to offer each other
at this moment I would like to trade skins with another species
if you look on google maps sao paolo in brazil can be seen from outer space, so can the tokyo metropolis and countless other sprawling wastelands - its eerie - these uber cities look like litte grey cancer spots on an otherwise green and tan backdrop
I cant believe I exsist at this point in history
www.vbs.tv is amazing and informative, gritty and real
I was informed today that apparantly there is a band called " le tigre " this wouldnt be a big deal except they are apparantly from new york, they arent french, and they dont suck actually its pretty groovin 80's chick rock Im probably going to get really annoyed by people saying "Le Zebre thats like Le Tigre right" so Im dropping the "the (le)" and Im going with just Zebre which now Im going to say is a soap (if anyone asks) despite this irritating news and that someone told me there is an image in "Pan's Labryinth" (which I still havent seen yet) similar to something Ive been working on for almost two years, AAAAHHHHH!!!! (when will people stop taking my ideas when Im not finshed with them) practice otherwise was awesome today - I finally have a drummer who fits - and a possible a fifth who if works out will be incredable
I notice I talk a lot about my band crap on here but you know what Ive been waiting for this project to happen for a decade now and it is finally blooming so shoot me with pillows and other soft objects
in other news : Elaine is awesome , talking and suddenly a little kid David is going to school next year which means he is REALLY a kid now and I am suddenly old and gaining weight
Carter (Ben 2) helped me rearrange Zanzibar now what was once facing North is facing West what was once facing South is facing East and the rest of this Island is jumbled together in a more orderly fashion check your atlas its completely different
Jesus left a message on his machine that said he was out crucifing and would call back in three days
today I de-froliced the FROLIC ZONE in front of my house with the nasty de-frolic machine (lawnmower) I felt sad for the ZONE but I know I will FROLIC once again in weeks to come
crushed