Grr
So I sit down with a fun idea to try to write a monologue, I sit down and say this is going to be interesting. Write the first line, and read it back and its pure unadulterated crap ... man I wish I could write sometimes.
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Cleaning up the house
I think I am going to clean when I get home, I have let my room get too dirty. I should probably also make a run to good will, get rid of some extra clothes ... I have let my packrattyness get away from me :)
So .. blah
Blah blah blah.
That's kinda all I am feeling right now, there is nothing I want to watch on TV, I am not playing WOW any more, and every time I sit down to try to write I get a few lines of Blah blah blah then I loose interest.
I guess I don't have the big reserve any more, I am more likely to say what I think, and such, but sometimes I do miss it. Ya ya I know its very emo of me, but fuckit. I miss writing, Its almost like I miss being alone. I had gotten used to being miserable all the time, I don't really know how to cope when I laugh more then scowl. So guess what, I got rid of my most convenient excuse ... I accidentally got more comfortable in my own skin. There are of course a few negative side effects of this. I am more likely to say no, or give you an opinion that is less rationalized/homogenized. In short I am turning into a bit of a prick. This is a problem I ran into before when I got back from the Marines, I turned into a fuckhead. I am watching it this time to keep myself in check to some degree, but it does slip out every once and a while.
I am working now, on maintaining an acceptable level of duchebaggery, but I am not obsessing over every action and reaction like I did before. I let somethings go and just give an honest reaction ... I don't shy away from every bit of human contact. Sometimes I even initiate it. Of course I sometimes let things go a little bit farther but thats also because I am kinda learning the comfort zones of people ... you know the things that most people figure out in highschool, I am working on them now ... but at least I am making progress :)
That's kinda all I am feeling right now, there is nothing I want to watch on TV, I am not playing WOW any more, and every time I sit down to try to write I get a few lines of Blah blah blah then I loose interest.
I guess I don't have the big reserve any more, I am more likely to say what I think, and such, but sometimes I do miss it. Ya ya I know its very emo of me, but fuckit. I miss writing, Its almost like I miss being alone. I had gotten used to being miserable all the time, I don't really know how to cope when I laugh more then scowl. So guess what, I got rid of my most convenient excuse ... I accidentally got more comfortable in my own skin. There are of course a few negative side effects of this. I am more likely to say no, or give you an opinion that is less rationalized/homogenized. In short I am turning into a bit of a prick. This is a problem I ran into before when I got back from the Marines, I turned into a fuckhead. I am watching it this time to keep myself in check to some degree, but it does slip out every once and a while.
I am working now, on maintaining an acceptable level of duchebaggery, but I am not obsessing over every action and reaction like I did before. I let somethings go and just give an honest reaction ... I don't shy away from every bit of human contact. Sometimes I even initiate it. Of course I sometimes let things go a little bit farther but thats also because I am kinda learning the comfort zones of people ... you know the things that most people figure out in highschool, I am working on them now ... but at least I am making progress :)
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interesting
The bill I have been kind of tracking in Texas took a step forward today. Texas bill HCR 50 made out out of committee, so that's a very very interesting development.
If anyone is interested in reading up on the Texas bill to re-affirm states rights you can read up on the following link. Basically they are calling out the federal government for "violating states rights" and they are re-affirming sovereignty. As of right now its not a succession, but it is a move designed to chastise an overactive federal government ... at least that's their case.
http://www.legis.state.tx.us/BillL…
To me the big difference between this and the similar move made by New Hampshire earlier is that I don't know how NH could not survive on its own as a nation, but Texas is a completely different matter. I really don't want to see the disolution of our country, but we do need a reality check, as we have been drifting away from the concepts the nation was founded on ... and that goes both ways, to the left and to the right.
On one hand a strong & active federal government is usually associated with the Left IMO, and is in line with an eventual global government, which would be needed if we ever truly wanted to act globally instead of nationally. I agree with some of these steps, but not all, a program designed to care for a farmer in the central Midwest would have little to no benefit to a New Yorker for example. Managing that would require many levels of government, and they would all need to be very very active. However that would also require more taxes from the federal perspective.
Now conversely states rights, which were recognized in the 10th amendment viewable here
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tenth…
and its logical to me (I have no info to this point just my thinking which may be wrong) that this amendment was required when trying to consolidate 13 different entities, who just broke away from one power, into a new power. It would have been simple without this expressly made statement, to simply trade one overlord for another, I completely understand the reasoning for this at the time. I just don't know how it applies to modern day.
Distance was a huge issue before, where you may not know what was going on in the next state just because of how far away it was. Now in the age of information we trade that information with a simple click, and we are updated in real time. Elections are reported as the votes are counted by machines ... taking a long intensive process and doing it in minutes/hours. In the long run, the distance issue is no longer a valid argument IMO. It seems to me that enforcing a rule that that was made for a reason that no longer applies is stupid. Now I readily admit I am no scholar, and my thinking may have missed several arguments which are entirely valid. If you feel the need to educate me please do ... I am uneasy about this bill, and the ramifications it makes. Especially since OK passed a similar resolution, the bill got vetoed by the governor, but that happened yesterday, the bill passed the house by the margin 83-13 and the senate 25-17, which is 3 votes from a 2/3rds majority. Its a very very interesting time in the good old us ... I wonder if we will still have 50 states at the end of next year?
If anyone is interested in reading up on the Texas bill to re-affirm states rights you can read up on the following link. Basically they are calling out the federal government for "violating states rights" and they are re-affirming sovereignty. As of right now its not a succession, but it is a move designed to chastise an overactive federal government ... at least that's their case.
http://www.legis.state.tx.us/BillL…
To me the big difference between this and the similar move made by New Hampshire earlier is that I don't know how NH could not survive on its own as a nation, but Texas is a completely different matter. I really don't want to see the disolution of our country, but we do need a reality check, as we have been drifting away from the concepts the nation was founded on ... and that goes both ways, to the left and to the right.
On one hand a strong & active federal government is usually associated with the Left IMO, and is in line with an eventual global government, which would be needed if we ever truly wanted to act globally instead of nationally. I agree with some of these steps, but not all, a program designed to care for a farmer in the central Midwest would have little to no benefit to a New Yorker for example. Managing that would require many levels of government, and they would all need to be very very active. However that would also require more taxes from the federal perspective.
Now conversely states rights, which were recognized in the 10th amendment viewable here
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tenth…
and its logical to me (I have no info to this point just my thinking which may be wrong) that this amendment was required when trying to consolidate 13 different entities, who just broke away from one power, into a new power. It would have been simple without this expressly made statement, to simply trade one overlord for another, I completely understand the reasoning for this at the time. I just don't know how it applies to modern day.
Distance was a huge issue before, where you may not know what was going on in the next state just because of how far away it was. Now in the age of information we trade that information with a simple click, and we are updated in real time. Elections are reported as the votes are counted by machines ... taking a long intensive process and doing it in minutes/hours. In the long run, the distance issue is no longer a valid argument IMO. It seems to me that enforcing a rule that that was made for a reason that no longer applies is stupid. Now I readily admit I am no scholar, and my thinking may have missed several arguments which are entirely valid. If you feel the need to educate me please do ... I am uneasy about this bill, and the ramifications it makes. Especially since OK passed a similar resolution, the bill got vetoed by the governor, but that happened yesterday, the bill passed the house by the margin 83-13 and the senate 25-17, which is 3 votes from a 2/3rds majority. Its a very very interesting time in the good old us ... I wonder if we will still have 50 states at the end of next year?
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Ok so in the coming weeks and months I have a lot going on. I have had a lot going on already but this is above and beyond. I have movies, and concerts to go to, a gym to work out at, and a physical and financial plan to see through.
This is not going to be an easy spring/summer, but damn it I will make it a productive one.
I also have some personal goals I am working on, and I am making progress. I am not going into details but I will simply say that I am working on finding the medium between repressed and unrepressed impulses, its not a simple process, and I need to find my limits. Most people go through this crap early, but I managed to avoid it for so long it just makes it more difficult. I will be going to a doctor next month for a checkup, nothing hugely pressing, but I want to make sure I am healthy, I need to do some other medical things too, but that will follow.
I feel the need to say that problems ignored rarely go away, and eventually they pile up so much its easy to get discurraged from looking for ways to deal with them. I fell into that trap, but I need to say I am working on getting out of it.
This is not going to be an easy spring/summer, but damn it I will make it a productive one.
I also have some personal goals I am working on, and I am making progress. I am not going into details but I will simply say that I am working on finding the medium between repressed and unrepressed impulses, its not a simple process, and I need to find my limits. Most people go through this crap early, but I managed to avoid it for so long it just makes it more difficult. I will be going to a doctor next month for a checkup, nothing hugely pressing, but I want to make sure I am healthy, I need to do some other medical things too, but that will follow.
I feel the need to say that problems ignored rarely go away, and eventually they pile up so much its easy to get discurraged from looking for ways to deal with them. I fell into that trap, but I need to say I am working on getting out of it.
WTF Texas
really?
http://politicalticker.blogs.cnn.c…
I think you can tell from the link what this is about. To me this strikes a completely different tone then what New Hampshire did before. But Its worth discussing
http://politicalticker.blogs.cnn.c…
I think you can tell from the link what this is about. To me this strikes a completely different tone then what New Hampshire did before. But Its worth discussing
Day 1 of AM Workouts
GAHH how do people do this everyday :P
Jessie and I got up at 5 to head to Brick Bodies to do our work outs. We talked about it and it was the best way to make sure we got machines ... but damn waking up at 4:45 smarts . I ended up doing upper body today, I worked my bicep, tricep, pecs, shoulders, back. I did two sets of 10-14 reps each, trying to get a feel for the machines. Then I closed out the session with about 25-30 minutes of Cardio, I really think I am going to feel it, I can already feel it actually ... oh it burns it burns :P
I think that I am going to have to turn into one of those people who wake up at 4:45 everyday ... its probibly healthier :)
Jessie and I got up at 5 to head to Brick Bodies to do our work outs. We talked about it and it was the best way to make sure we got machines ... but damn waking up at 4:45 smarts . I ended up doing upper body today, I worked my bicep, tricep, pecs, shoulders, back. I did two sets of 10-14 reps each, trying to get a feel for the machines. Then I closed out the session with about 25-30 minutes of Cardio, I really think I am going to feel it, I can already feel it actually ... oh it burns it burns :P
I think that I am going to have to turn into one of those people who wake up at 4:45 everyday ... its probibly healthier :)
GAHH
ok, that was a waste of time, basically I just went down and got my measurements. On the plus size I know more exactly where I am, on the down side I was actually expecting him to say, OK lets see what you can lift so we can figure out a weight range for you. I can get all that crap from the internet, I wanted a physical training session, not a session with a secretary.
OK rant done.
On paper I am right in the normal range. 15.3% body fat, which is great for a man my height, but when the calipers came out it was looking at more like 21% body fat. so I am going to consider myself having the reading that came from the calipers instead of the fancy smancy machine and its voodoo. I told the guy I want to get in good cardio shape before I start working on muscle mass, and I do, because that's the base you build on. so I am going to start going to the gym every morning to do cardio, then come back in the afternoon to do weights. That's my plan at least.
My fitness goals include (with a goal date of July 15th
being able to run at a consistent speed for 3 miles, and complete it in under 20 minutes.
to gain 10 lbs, preferably muscle
to eat more veggies
I also need to eat more healthy foods, and cut down on the crap. So I am going to probably get some protean shakes on Friday, which I am sure are going to be delicious.
I am also going to start weening myself off sweeteners in my coffee ... which should also help me reduce my coffee intake.
I also ordered a book which has basic nutrition guides as well as a basic exercise regimen which should help me plan my workouts. oh one other thing I ran into Matt and Jo while I was down there too, I guess they are going to start doing morning workouts, so I may end up seeing them more often :)
OK rant done.
On paper I am right in the normal range. 15.3% body fat, which is great for a man my height, but when the calipers came out it was looking at more like 21% body fat. so I am going to consider myself having the reading that came from the calipers instead of the fancy smancy machine and its voodoo. I told the guy I want to get in good cardio shape before I start working on muscle mass, and I do, because that's the base you build on. so I am going to start going to the gym every morning to do cardio, then come back in the afternoon to do weights. That's my plan at least.
My fitness goals include (with a goal date of July 15th
being able to run at a consistent speed for 3 miles, and complete it in under 20 minutes.
to gain 10 lbs, preferably muscle
to eat more veggies
I also need to eat more healthy foods, and cut down on the crap. So I am going to probably get some protean shakes on Friday, which I am sure are going to be delicious.
I am also going to start weening myself off sweeteners in my coffee ... which should also help me reduce my coffee intake.
I also ordered a book which has basic nutrition guides as well as a basic exercise regimen which should help me plan my workouts. oh one other thing I ran into Matt and Jo while I was down there too, I guess they are going to start doing morning workouts, so I may end up seeing them more often :)
Wii fitness coach is EVIL
she is a sadistic bitch, and made me work for half an hour ... grrr
seriously tho, good workout, I was having a hard time moving my arms for a bit in the middle .. I guess I really really do need to work on my upper body.
boy .. is this going to hurt tomorrow :P
seriously tho, good workout, I was having a hard time moving my arms for a bit in the middle .. I guess I really really do need to work on my upper body.
boy .. is this going to hurt tomorrow :P