Aerodynamically Curvacious

So I saw Avatar last night with Mike and Pierce. Wonderful movie. I really did like it. However, once shit started going down in the movie, I found I was having a hard time breathing. Then the chest pain. Then a full blown panic attack. I took a klonopin to calm down but I couldn't figure out what was wrong. Then I realized. This is exactly how America treats other countries, and this is exactly how Americans would treat another world if we found one. "You have oil -- er I mean weapons of mass destruction. We're gonna blow you up and take all your oil -- I MEAN WEAPONS OF MASS DESTRUCTION!"

How, how in the fuck do we, as americans, get away with this CRAP? I kept hoping that someone would step in and say no this isn't okay, from the higher ups. But the higher ups are the ones proposing it. Let's just go into Pandoria (Iraq), kill the savages ("towelheads") and take their unobtainium (oil). Nobody will care because their religious beliefs are just silly hocus pocus anyway, and they can relocate. It's not like they have years of history, religion, and family background on this exact location that we need to get under!

Fuck America. I really wish I could leave this shit hole. Or change it. But the difference is, I have a conscience, which means I'll never be voted into any political office, even if I wanted to.

So on failblog usually on any given item there's like 70 comments. On this one (http://failblog.org/2010/01/06/fie…) about a parent not wanting their child to go to a geology museum because they are creationists, there are over 2200 comments, last I checked. I find it amazing just how much everyone feels the need to get their own stupid opinion out there about a subject that will never be settled until science makes a breakthrough or the apocalypse happens. Stupid humans.

So. today is the day I change my life. Ive decided I dont like who I am anymore. I dont like who most of my friends are anymore. If I havent talked to you in a while, contact me. Lets hang out. Most of my current friends are putting me in this negative rut that makes me loathe who I am. There are a few exceptions but Im sick of people who want to be miserable and angry. Im changing and leaving those people. Im sorry if I fell out of contact with you. Its not because I dont like you its because my life has changed so much lately. The last two years Ive completely reinvented myself. please call me or text or IM. I despraetely want to find people again but I dont know who resents me.

I have also decided to start learning to cook. Like REALLY cook not just boxed dinners.

Also im pretty sure Im going to eventually just get carpol tunnel from this phone.

Luckily through all my changes I still have a stable amazing man by my side who loves and supports me. And thats something few people are blessed with.

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Go vote for me! And Bayla!

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On a nicer note, I took the dogs to the park with Mike, the one in winter park, about a month and a half ago. This woman was giving away this Jack Russel Terrier named Bella. They were feeding her CAT food, she was missing patches of fur, and a lot of her fur was missing anyway because of heat rash. She had been tied up outside, had a ring of red around her neck from the too-tight collar, and the fur around her tail was totally missing. Also she had what the woman said was ear mites, but turned out to be some kind of infection instead. So I felt so bad for her I took her and was going to find her a home. Well she fits in perfectly with the family, get along with the dachshunds and Sydney, and is all around an amazing dog. Needless to say we're keeping her. But the apartment complex has no idea. But that's okay, realistically they'll never figure it out so long as we don't prance around outside the front office with the dogs, or leave her in the apartment during the yearly inspections they warn us about ahead of time.

We renamed her Bayla (Bay-lah) which means "dance" (ironically the only trick she knew when we got her, she wasn't even totally house trained). It also, in another language, means the phrase "my god" so I thought it was perfect. She's got me saying that all the time.


Notice the tongue hanging out of her mouth as she's sleeping. She was napping in between Mike and I as we were playing WoW in bed on our laptops.


We were in the bedroom, I'd left my laptop in the living room burning an audio cd. I come back in the living room and she gives me this look like "no I wasn't on petsmart.com looking up comfy beds and fun toys. I was just.. watching your screen. Yeah, that's it"

i love this phone. i can update my livejournal on my cigarette break at work with a full qwerty keyboard. this thing is the shit! everyone talk to me on mobile messsenger on aim at itsallanillusi0n (that o is a zero) or text me! yyaayyyy! im so bored at work i want to murder someone. so yes text or im me. i have it auto forward so if you dont see me online ill still get it as a text. okay going back inside to work. :heart:

So it's been interesting. Uhm.

We switched to AT&T wireless service. My number is the same. So call or text me. Or IM me I have mobile messenger now. ON THIS SPIFFY AS FUCK PHONE.

We took our three doggies to the park the other day and there was this woman.. standing there. Sign said "free one year old jack russell terrier, Bella" and she was talking about how the dog could do tricks and whatnot. Dance, and ride a skateboard, woopdie do. Well I picked the dog up. She melted into my arms. I knew our friend was looking for a dog. And I felt so bad for her, I could tell she was neglected. So we took her to find her a home. Turns out she's about four, not one. She's a fox terrier, not a jack. She has ear mites, hear rash, a mark around her neck from where she was tied to the tree outside, and she has been chewing the base of her tail so much from stress that she's missing all the fur around her tail. She also is not totally housebroken. She understands don't pee in the house, pooping is a different story. Jolani is going to take the dog so that's great except he's going out on some medical stuff for the military for three weeks. So we're taking care of her in the meantime. She is an AMAZING dog. She's got so much personality I can't fathom how someone could tie her to a tree and forget about her. And we're working on the pooping thing.

Dexter is a wee bit jealous.

Wow is going good, too. We've started our own guild away from Priory. It's the best thing we've ever done. I'm sick of the elitest shit. I'm sick of HAVING to raid because otherwise you're treated like dirt. I want to raid when I want to goddamn well raid. So fuck you all. But yeah we've got enough members to be doing 10 man naxx now and it's going well. We got down almost a full two wings in about three hours last night. Spider wing went flawlessly. But that's the easiest one so I suppose it should. Still working on leveling Aeryth. Jenova is full up on tanking, I just need new shoulders (hence why I'm in naxx), I still have blues. I'm tanking raids and heroics with no issues whatsoever now. Which is great. Aeryth is still level 72, neglected. I got about half a bar of xp the other day, but she's sat neglected again. Oh well.

My shift is changing, I'll be working 9-6 now with weekends off. That's fucking amazing! I couldn't even imagine getting that shift, I didn't think in a million years. But I guess retention rate with AT&T employees is so bad that a year and a half tenure is enough to get the coveted shift. Plus this means next week starting I'll be working the same shift as Mike so we can carpool. So that'll be great.

That'll is not a word? That will. Wtf spell check? Oh well.

I had a major depressive episode so bad I couldn't get out of bed. I hate my job I hate my education level, everything was getting me down especially finances. BUT. We're finally in the clear, they put me on Lexapro. And I tell you what I recommend that shit to everyone. If you're depressed, go on that. Don't go on the other shit I'm sure they'll try to put you on. This is amazing. I'm so much better in just the span of a month. Nothing has changed in my life except the fact that I'm now on that. I can go outside again. I can take care of myself again.
The thing I understand about myself, though, is sometimes I go through episodes because of biological reasons. It has nothing to do with emotional reactions or life circumstances. It's entirely physical. Sometimes my hormones just get out of whack and I have to be medicated.

Realistically my life is going fantastic. Mike bought me a promise ring, I love it. It has my birthstone in it. I'll post a picture one day. My birthstone is citrine, by the way. It has a small gem because I don't like the big gaudy gems. I like petite gems. So in short, it's perfect and I love it almost as much as I love him.

We're talking about buying a house in about a year when we have money saved away. It would be a good investment and it makes sense anyway.

So I'm going to try to get my certification as a "Certified Nurse Aid" so I can become a mental health tech. I think it would be a much better job than call center slave. Ideally I'd like to work in a facility that has voluntarily admitted patients. That way I'm not working with people who've been baker acted, or working at Lakeside (which is a fucking scary place if you've ever been there), but I'd be working with people who feel they need help and are taking the steps to get it. There's this place over by Sea World that's beautiful, for a mental hospital. The atrium has this open glass ceiling so it lets in natural sunlight, it's amazing. The architecture flows, it doesn't leave you staring at a long winding tunnel of hallway, and it doesn't make you feel claustrophobic.

Mike and I, our two friends Chris and Victoria, and my parents went to Key West for Mike and I's two year anniversary on the 11th of last month. It was wonderful. Some pictures are on my myspace. I can't believe we've been together for two years. I mean I can, but it's amazing that much time has passed and I'm still just as happy as the day we got together. Relationships like this are made to last. And most people dread the future, getting old, having to be more responsible. I can't wait. I love the present and the future. And I love reminiscing on the past. (except Mike can't remember any of it because he has shit memory >.<)

Ahhh... okay I'm going to go do some laundry or something. Productive. Or level aeryth which is totally counter productive. I dunno.

ps if anyone wants to play with us we're on Sen'jin server on Alliance side. LOOKMEUP! Guild name Delectation (which means delight, or enjoyment, which is the total opposite of priory).

pps does anyone else have this stomach flu? it's fucking awful!

so I know everyone's posts lately have been about this but I'm gonna say it anyway so nyeh. I did watch the inauguration on Tuesday. It was amazing. The attendance estimate at the last inauguration was about 300,000. Estimated attendance at this one, 2 million. And that's just the people that stood in the freezing cold, that's not counting all the people who watched from their tv or their computers at home. Wow. Republican are already giving Obama a bunch of shit saying he's not going to be able to do it because he's so young. I personally don't know how old he is but the amazing mass of support shows that this country, despite it's hicks, is ready for a change, and is finally welcoming that change. Finally. This is like the abusive relationship, your significant other treats you like shit and you stay because you think it's right. Everyone tells you it's wrong, the signs tell you it's wrong, but you stay. And finally one day, after eight years of this relationship getting worse and worse, you leave and find a new love, and they treat you well, and even though you haven't been around long enough to really notice the change, yet, you're happy. You're happy and you're excited for the future. And that's America. We just found a new love, and we're already infatuated because we know we'll be head over heels. And it's going to take a while to build the structure back up that the other relationship has destroyed. But this new love is willing to do it and the time will be well worth the effort.

I also laughed that in his speech he said something along the lines of that this country has fallen into disrepair because of selfishness and greed on the part of some. Like that's not a blatant call out of Bush? "Oh here I am to take your job, by the way.. YOU SUCK." I didn't disagree, don't get me wrong, but I did laugh.

On another topic, in my Renaissance Humanities class we were studying the Bubonic Plague. I know I am a horrible person for thinking this but wait until I finish my spiel before you start passing judgment. 60% of the population died in those years of the bubonic plague. Sixty percent. That means look around you, if you're still alive, two out of every three of your friends is dead. Now this is horrible, yes? Yes I agree it was horrible. HOWEVER. Imagine, if you will, how overpopulated we would be if we had 60% more of the population breeding. See how overcrowded we are? Now double it and then some. Every generation there is some sort of crowd control. You've got the bubonic plague, you've got small pox. Ebola tried to do it in the 70's but now we're such germaphobes (with reason) that we fought it off, quarantined those who were already diseased, and burned those who were already dead. I don't believe in a god, per say, however I do believe that the world does what it thinks is best for it. In a rat colony, if there is overpopulation (not enough space, not enough food), the mother rat will consume her own children to keep population down. I think the world does the same. When we become so overpopulated it's effecting both the world and ourselves for the negative, the world sends out a virus (or something along those lines) to thin out the population. We're trained from the get-go to not kill those of our own kind, and we cannot stop breeding apparently, so the earth has to step in and make the decisions for us. The only problem is now we've gotten smarter. We have better ways to fight viruses and diseases. We no longer live with the rats and fleas, we have waste management systems for all kinds of disease bearing waste. When someone has a highly infectious disease, they are quarantined until the get better, or, sometimes unavoidably, die. They are not mourned in close proximity, infecting their loved ones. We're kept in a sterile bubble. And we always are. How many people in the world do you think regularly carry around hand sanitizer? Probably every soccer mom in America, and every germaphobe as well. This means two things. 1) We are no longer being exposed to as many germs to get us sick and thus, thin out the population, and 2) because of that, our immune systems are not as high, because they're not fighting things constantly. Its like a strong man. He's gonna be strong, and he could be the strongest guy in the world, but he's gonna get flabby and weak if he doesn't go to the gym. So now our immune systems are weak so what happens when an outbreak does occur that we can't contain? We're getting smarter, yes, but in that we're also getting weaker.

Really it's only a matter of time until the zombies come eat us anyway.

Or we eat each other, the way overpopulation is going.

Okay so that was a totally random rant, excuse me. It's just been on my mind.

I grow weary and tired of the internet. Not even being able to download a song without being confronted full on with some girl's boobs, nay, not even one girls boobs, we're talking like six individual separate sets of boobs. And I don't mean cleavage, I mean like whoah there's a nipple and everything else. I would like to blame men and their disgusting tendencies. Men say it's women's fault they put the content out there. I'd like to think the girls doing it are doing it for coke money, like strippers. But in actuality, the internet is filled with two types of people. Men who are horny shitbags and can't control themselves. And women who thrive on attention and will do anything to get it, including but not limited to, making their very own softcore porn for the horny shitbag men to look at. Women will do anything for that attention, even if they don't get anything out of it other than the satisfaction of knowing that some creep in his mom's basement is jacking off to her picture.

And the worst part of all is I used to be one of these girls who need that attention. I needed to know I was pretty. To a certain extent, I was one of them. I didn't post pictures of myself as a wallpaper, but my cleavagy myspace pictures didn't help.

Fuck. Wake up women. There is more to life than seducing other people's boyfriends. I think that cheating is probably at an all time high, because men are used to the idea that whatever they want they can just find online, anytime they want. So if their girlfriend's not doing it for them, they're already mentally fucking other people when they're surfing porn. Why not actually just go do it?

So whores, grow the fuck up and learn to get by on your personality instead of your fake rack. And men, go die in a fire and stop being so sleazy.

Every day, 25% of internet searches are pornographic in nature. TWENTY FIVE PERCENT. This includes all the kids doing homework, all the people doing normal things online. And still, twenty five percent of it is porn.

It's no wonder we're so goddamn overcrowded and yet, the only females that are "attractive" haven't had a meal in three days and have had more plastic surgeries than they can count. Yeah that's real fucking sexy. Maybe eventually it'll get to men's heads and we'll stop breeding so fucking much. Oh wait, no, men will just close their eyes and pretend its their favourite celebrity.

We're all fucked. Figuratively.

I'm so fucking negative lately.

Edit: second thing I hate about the internet. All the fat ads anymore? "I lost 49382934 pounds without dieting!" accompanied with a before/after picture with someone's saggy stretch mark ridden fat. I DON'T CARE, NOR DO I WANT TO SEE YOUR DISGUSTING STOMACH. That's worse than the boobs.

No shit, America. Get a clue.