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sorcyressI'm at ESCape and I'm pretty happy about it!
The moment that it all really hit and crystalized and clarified was just before I rushed out of my cabin to the staff meeting, hanging up my flag outside Kitty Alone, and just feeling...home. It was real good! It was _real_ good, to have that moment of stillness, that song in my heart.
Here are some other moments I have liked!
*Last year when I arrived for ESCape, my cabin was utterly _covered_ in hangers, as a brilliantly executed practical joke from me-at-LCFD dropping a suggestion saying "more hangers in Kitty Alone plz". This year I didn't have anything quite so ridiculous, instead I had an orange light-up spiderweb, plus two giant spider decorations, carefully festooning the interior of the cabin. I am _so thrilled_ and immediately texted my crew-sweetie a thank you, only to later learn they weren't from her.
"It's a bit of an unexpected answer", she told me when I made some other faulty guesses who. I did later learn, and oh boy, it was unexpected but totally in character and very very lovely. I dearly love my spiders and will obviously be keeping them up for all of camp! (they will be easier to dodge than the hangers).
*A small bittersweet moment, at staff meeting I introduced myself with "my role at camp is this is my tenth, and final for a while, year of teaching the beginner SCD" and Chloe from the committee throwing her hands over her face in gentle despair that they're gonna need to find someone else. It was very flattering! I've had several people describe or talk about me to my face as "very good at SCD[/teaching]" and that's also extremely flattering.
(why am I stopping my favourite job I've ever had? Because it will be better for the community as a whole if ESCape has a rotation of _different_ excellent SCD basics teachers, and is not just "the thing Kat does only". I don't plan on doing anything else that week, ever, and I am of course immortal and going to live forever, but it is healthier for the community to not lock institutional knowledge away and instead spread it out. I am increasing the week's bus number, and ugh, I hate it so much and next year will be _so weird_ if I get in off the waitlist.)
*Oh, directly related to the above, a friend of mine from contra who is a beautiful dancer told me that I am the dancer they watch when they are looking at the SCD floor! Again, extremely flattering! That felt super nice to hear!
*I liked going down an ECD line and being able to say to each member of Torrent in turn "I like your outfit" and get back some variety of chipper "thanks, did you see my bandmates?!". The three of them matched, and it was extremely cute.
*I experienced a just _beautiful_ moment of consent practice today and I want to file it away and try and do this for other people in the future. After staff meeting, I was very briefly touching base with Arthur, who is MCing SCD this year, and I mentioned I'd love to get a quick check in with him at some point before I teach tomorrow afternoon, just to confirm his program and what I might want to focus on.
He said to me "oh, we could do it right now. Are you busy?" and then he looked at me as I hesitated or possibly had my face betray me and followed up a reasonable beat later with "say yes!", clearly giving me an out of "yes, I am busy".
It was just so earnest and kind, him noting that I didn't immediately assent to the meeting, and making it *much* easier for me to give the "disappointing" answer. Reminds me of one of my favourite ever consent quotes (which alas I no longer remember where I got the context for this, so sorry to unattribute words): "the easier it is to say no, the more a yes actually means".
*It's great to see and feel part of crew! And also great to see and feel part of other friendships! Gosh I am happy to be here!
*I spent about an hour hanging with Tuesday, working on unpacking my room real nice, and that was _lovely_. I am very pleased for it! We're gonna stay together after the pub night and I'm excited for thatttt!
Okay yay! Love you all, goodnight!
~Sor
MOOP!
The moment that it all really hit and crystalized and clarified was just before I rushed out of my cabin to the staff meeting, hanging up my flag outside Kitty Alone, and just feeling...home. It was real good! It was _real_ good, to have that moment of stillness, that song in my heart.
Here are some other moments I have liked!
*Last year when I arrived for ESCape, my cabin was utterly _covered_ in hangers, as a brilliantly executed practical joke from me-at-LCFD dropping a suggestion saying "more hangers in Kitty Alone plz". This year I didn't have anything quite so ridiculous, instead I had an orange light-up spiderweb, plus two giant spider decorations, carefully festooning the interior of the cabin. I am _so thrilled_ and immediately texted my crew-sweetie a thank you, only to later learn they weren't from her.
"It's a bit of an unexpected answer", she told me when I made some other faulty guesses who. I did later learn, and oh boy, it was unexpected but totally in character and very very lovely. I dearly love my spiders and will obviously be keeping them up for all of camp! (they will be easier to dodge than the hangers).
*A small bittersweet moment, at staff meeting I introduced myself with "my role at camp is this is my tenth, and final for a while, year of teaching the beginner SCD" and Chloe from the committee throwing her hands over her face in gentle despair that they're gonna need to find someone else. It was very flattering! I've had several people describe or talk about me to my face as "very good at SCD[/teaching]" and that's also extremely flattering.
(why am I stopping my favourite job I've ever had? Because it will be better for the community as a whole if ESCape has a rotation of _different_ excellent SCD basics teachers, and is not just "the thing Kat does only". I don't plan on doing anything else that week, ever, and I am of course immortal and going to live forever, but it is healthier for the community to not lock institutional knowledge away and instead spread it out. I am increasing the week's bus number, and ugh, I hate it so much and next year will be _so weird_ if I get in off the waitlist.)
*Oh, directly related to the above, a friend of mine from contra who is a beautiful dancer told me that I am the dancer they watch when they are looking at the SCD floor! Again, extremely flattering! That felt super nice to hear!
*I liked going down an ECD line and being able to say to each member of Torrent in turn "I like your outfit" and get back some variety of chipper "thanks, did you see my bandmates?!". The three of them matched, and it was extremely cute.
*I experienced a just _beautiful_ moment of consent practice today and I want to file it away and try and do this for other people in the future. After staff meeting, I was very briefly touching base with Arthur, who is MCing SCD this year, and I mentioned I'd love to get a quick check in with him at some point before I teach tomorrow afternoon, just to confirm his program and what I might want to focus on.
He said to me "oh, we could do it right now. Are you busy?" and then he looked at me as I hesitated or possibly had my face betray me and followed up a reasonable beat later with "say yes!", clearly giving me an out of "yes, I am busy".
It was just so earnest and kind, him noting that I didn't immediately assent to the meeting, and making it *much* easier for me to give the "disappointing" answer. Reminds me of one of my favourite ever consent quotes (which alas I no longer remember where I got the context for this, so sorry to unattribute words): "the easier it is to say no, the more a yes actually means".
*It's great to see and feel part of crew! And also great to see and feel part of other friendships! Gosh I am happy to be here!
*I spent about an hour hanging with Tuesday, working on unpacking my room real nice, and that was _lovely_. I am very pleased for it! We're gonna stay together after the pub night and I'm excited for thatttt!
Okay yay! Love you all, goodnight!
~Sor
MOOP!