sophs journal

Im at wrk at the mo less than 15 minutes to go and i don't feel like making any mre calls!!!!!!! Tonites bn ok tho not 2 tough!!!! Ive had 1 insult which has upset me tho wen i was wlkn in2 wrk but im ok wif it now well wen i thk bout it it upsets me but i will get ova it!!! i dnt thk we will repeat it here i'll jst try 2 improve!neway im goin hme in bout 8 minutes yay!

I went up to christchurch for the day yesterday and surprisingly spent very little! I went to watch a movie called skelton key with my cousins lucy and jackie it was quite good but i thought the ending was a bit weak! I wont b surprised if there is a sequel 2 tht movie co s they can't end it the way they did! Anyway its freezing here 2day im jst sittin here typing and mostly hugging my hot cup of black coffee rather than drinkin it lol as it's my only source of heat!

I'm da only girl up outa all my cousins my mum and aunty are sittn on da deck tlkn and they're all in the lounge still asleep but i was cold in my sleepin bag and jst had 2 get up! my feet r still freezingly numb!

Just mkn anotha coffee and sucking on a spearmint lollie! i dnt know wat i'll do 2day!
Once they leave i mite decide 2 go 4 a run or just stay home and rest hvnt dne tht 4 a while! well i shall go now and write in here again sn!

Im really bored rite now in comp just in my last period of the day computers!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and getting ratha hungry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yay i cn go eat soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and then go swimming well i mite not lol who knows yet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hey every1!!!!!!!!!!!!
Todays been quite a stressful mind boggling day!!!!!!!
Checked my $$$$$$$$$$$ b4 skool 2day ive only got $119 thats not much 4 a big massive shopping spree!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It shocked me!!!!!! i didnt realize id been missing so much time off work!!!!!!! Thankfully mum decided to buy me a $20 ph card and give me $10!!! I found out i passed my bio chiton project got acheived but almost merit!!!!! so that was good!!!!!!! then had interesting conversation with PE student teacher did absolutely no work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! In study period i didnt feel like doing skool work it was driving me crazy at this point of time so i cleaned up a bit instead!!!!!! Then decided to cheer myself up by buying myself subway 4 lunch all too soon it was time 2 go back to skool!!!!!!!!!

The afternon wasnt as bad as i thought well tourism was ok got lots done in computers i jst cudnt b fukd!!!!!!!!!! wif da stupid assessment and slowly got hungry and bored wif the work feeling weak and having no confidence in being able to get it done that period which i didnt!!!!!!

I'm having a betta nite than day!!!!!! just having a break from writing my english film review draft!!!!!!
getting lots done!!!!!!!! but at this rate im gonna be very poor nxt pay day too!!!!!!

hellooooooooo back frm my eventful cold,harsh,stressful weekend in dunedin!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I decided to have a day off skool 2dayso i cud relax and getova the stresses of the passed 4 days!!!!!
Bio camp was just awful really!!!!!!! carrying heavy bags around, waiting 4 the little boat 2 cme and pik 30 of us up and 30 - 60 heavy bags of luggage, bending ova duoble like old beggers picking up rocks and cobbles on north shore beach looking for bloody chitons!!!!!!!!!!1 not my idea of fun!!!!!!
Then staying in a cold cabin on sum scary island where years ago ppl were put on wen they had contracted severe infections and disease tht freaks me out!!!!!!!!!! and not being able 2 sleep because of the cold and sleepn on a matress on da floor dat was jst da shit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was soooo happy 2 get back to civilisation and hve a shower sum good decent food instead of soup and bread 4 3days in a row and warmth and comfort!!!!!! all i can say is if i dnt pass this stupid chiton investigation i may break down!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway 2days a good day so far!!!!!!! im jst relaxn watchn big brother chatting on msn and reading ova stuff 4 skool!!!!!!!!! at 3:45 im goin 2 da gym and then ive got wrk!!!!!!!!!!
I think this week is gna be quite stressful tho and im gna find it hard gettn everything done!!!!!!!!!!!!! so even tho 2day is gettn me behind in skool wrk i hve 2 thk of it as a great restful way 2 start wat is prolly gna be a hard out week!!!!!!!!

tonite at wrk we had a big massive supper i ate quite a bit lol now my jeans feel really tight!!!!! cnt wait 2 get in2 my comfortable pjs and in2 bed lol!!!!!!!!! i hate these supper nites at wrk!!!!!!!!!!

Since 10am ive been bk at skool ,watched an interesting video in PE about fat people and u know wat the more i know about obesity the more i wna loose weight!!!!!! i mean i know im not obese but it mkes me aware of the horrible things dat happen 2 obese ppl!!!!Then i had Tourism got lots done!!!!! it was good cos since i cant tlk i hve an excuse to concentrate and get on wif wrk!!!!but its also really frustrating not being able 2 tlk i found there was so many things i wanted 2 say 2day which i cudnt it was horrible!!!!!!! so i came home at lunch time not going bk now which is after lunch!!!!!!
I dont think i'll miss out on 2 much wrk its on bio and eng!!!!!!

Yay i woke up not being able to tlk 2day its soooooooo anoying and shameful!!!!!! really i think ya tend to take ya voice 4 granted wen u hve it but once its gone u really miss it!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm trying to stay positive 2day even tho ive got this feeling deep down dat every things gonna turn shit!!!!!!
I bet i'll b bored at home 2nite that wouldnt be so bad if i could jst b at home, relaxing in a quiet room wif a nice warm heater and get sum study done or sumthing!!!! but tht wont happen!!!!!!!!!
Those 2 idiots will come piss me off again trapping me frm having ne peace and quiet at all till bout 11:30pm !!!!!!!! and if i totally decide to ignore them and i'd feel bad like im snobbing sum1 whose meant 2 b a best m8 but is slowly slipping away frm me!!!!!!!!!!

Ya know how u just have tht feeling sumtimes how u shouldnt get 2 excited because what seems like is gonna be a good night will act turn out 2 be the boringist nite eva!!!! well thts how i feel now!!!!!!
so im not gonna get my hopes up lol. and i wudnt act mind hvn a quiet nite 2 my self if 2nites plans dnt turn out accordingly but in this house thts not really possible cos of da 3 otha mad ppl who live here!!!!! and the ppl they bring in here!!!!!!!!!

It wud b ok if my heater didnt br8 4 my room then i cud jst sit dwn there quietly but i dnt wna b shut doown in da cold eitha!!!!!!! so i cnt win there noway 2 get outa the house and away frm these mad ppl!!!
we are meant to be best friends!!!!!!!!!! well she said im her best friend but now i kinda wish shed stop coming round here wen im busy!!!!!!!!! and not coming round 2 see me eitha i jst feel bad wen she cmes round cos i cnt hang round wif them cos im busy!!!!!!and its not my fault i have study and otha friends 2!!!!! Im starting 2 h8 both of them they both have o respect 4 me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and just wna get away or want them to go away!!!!!!!!!

Anyways ther is a possibility 2nite cud b a gd nite!!!! if she comes round annd we drink!!!!! but who knows!!!!! well g2g

hey ppl!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Just home from school for lunch so far today hasnt been to bad!!!!!!!!! actually i should say its been good!!!!!!!!!! I had Tourism first and finally was able to concentrate and get things done!!!!! so now im all up 2 date!!!! I also got told i look like im getting thinner and that made me feel good!!!!!!!! since i have been trying to 4 who knows how long!!!!!!!!!!
In english i finally got a reading log done so hopefully it'll passs and then thats 1 done 7 2 go!!!! so so far wednesday is the day of getting things in and complete!!!! and full of nice compliments im loving it hehe.
After lunch i have aerobics and tertiary study so thats a good afternoon to look forward to 2! i luv aerobics!!!!! and i dnt hve pippins after skool 2day so i can relax!!!!!!!!!Well dats all i hve 2 say 4 now bubi!!!!!!!

hey 2day was ok i stayed in my pjs all day!!!!!!!!! Amber came ova bout 2pm and me suz and her watched the rose red it went for 4 hrs lol.I hve 2 say i felt a lil left out 2day tho i thk its cos im so busy l8ly wif wrk and hwk and otha commitments tht my friends are forgetting about me!!!! They prolly think im really boring to hang round wif now cos im studying quite a bit but i hve 2!!!!but it's like theyv'e 4gottin bout me sumtimes like 2day!!!!!!!

I felt sad afta da movie and went and did english hwk tht was boring!!!!!! but gd 2 finally get an eng essay done well reading log!!!! I had honey bumbles 4 tea lol and finishd the reading log bout 8pm then ate icecream,small packet of chips and a health bar bit of a binge!!!!!! Then i came on here cos i feel anxious and all alone at da mo and isolated frm my beloved David in dunedin and good friends who have suddenly disappeared around me!!!!!!

I cnt sleep very well l8ly eitha wen i do slp i hve strange dreams tht i dnt like!!!!! I hate nite at da mo and i tke ages 2 drift off but luv 2 wke up the nxt morn still alive lol!!!!! i know tht sounds weird and i need 2 really sort this issue out its quite pathetic 4 a 17yr old girl!!!! ud exspect this kinda behaviour frm a 7 yr old!!!!!!! well neway gd nite i'll prolly write in here again sn it helps me more than nething