one thing is for sure

I 've just recently discovered that I'm in love with Michael Cera.
Along with that discovery, youtube is addictive.

 "Almost" - Bowling for Soup
"Collide" -Howie Day

They make me think of my friend melissa and how we would sing them at the top of our lungs, and what an amazing friendship we had. I also remember that i was on my way to eigth grade moving up, and Almost came on the radio which was me and melissa's song in sixth grade, and I swear it was a sign of some sort. Because the next year she was going to a different high school and it just made me want to cry..

Edit: this is long, really long and probably not the way you're supposed to do it, I'm new at these writters block things so spare me.

"A Year From Now" - Across Five Aprils
This song reminds me of my two old best friends and how we used to plan what'd we be like when we get older, and now that we're there and you're not next to me anymore, ' you were a priority ? was i an option ?'

"Awkward Last Words/Slip Like Space" - Armor For Sleep
First Awkward Last Words, is because most of the time I get close to someone, as in second half talk to in the middle of the night crying guy friend, I push them away. "I never had the gift of holding on to you" And I regret it later on, "I wanna live again, I wanna start everything over again." While I wish everything would just go back to normal.
Second, so many times I've had my dreams shot down by people who've been lucky enough to hear them numerous times, or taken as a joke. And that's what this song gives off to me.

"Anything But Ordinary" - Avril Lavigne
Basically stated in the title.

"Mix Tape" Brand New
I love this band, and song, and it's my feelings about a lot of people. "Ive got a twenty dollar bill that no ones ever seen you without make up, you're always made up"

"Pin Your Wings" - Copeland
My take on this song is that the guy is singing about a self concious girl who needs to take a break and just let go and go for what you want. This is how I try to live my life, I see a lot of myself in it.

"Bend and Not Break" - Dashboard Confessional
I hide my emotions far too well. Times where I want to cry - "I can break and take it with a smile" - and i can cover it up so well and fake a smile until I'm alone and have thought things over, and then i might cry.

"Saying Sorry" - Hawthorne Heights
Whenever I've seen one of my friends freeze up and then just break down uncontrollably, I don't know what to do and it "makes me feel like saying sorry". Even if I don't know the person well, I just care too much. 

"Drive" - Incubus
Although I've lost many friends in my life, and some of them may hold grudges against me now but they don't know that the one time that everyone else leaves there side or they need a helping hand, I'd be there in a second. "Whatever tomorrow brings Ill be there, with open arms"

"Anthem For the Broken Hearted" - JamisonParker
This is the all time revenge song in my opinion, everytime somethings ended badly with a boy I turn to this song "I just cant wait to make you hate me a little more" This song has gotten me through so many tough times, I just feel some connection to it that I cant even explain.

"These Are The Nights" - Making April
With my old friends, we went to this concert and finally i felt accepted and loved by those girls, and even though we're not all close anymore this will always be our little anthem "these are the nights when you know when youre there"

"Just Say You're Not Into It" - Mayday Parade (and all their songs?)
One of my all time favorite songs, 'watch me spin circles as i disappear', again it just holds a special place in my heart.

"Here With Me" - Michelle Branch
I couldnt even explain to anyone on this planet what this song means to me, it got me through one of the hardest moments and weeks of my life. It helped me get the courage and to realize how much I missed my old friends, after listening I talked to them we all cried and promised to fix things, though we havent it still settles us all to know that we still love eachother even if we barely talk anymore.

"Take Me or Leave Me" - Rent
One of my favorite philosophies, take me for what I AM or LEAVE ME i dont need to waste my time with people who want me to change.

"Rise From the Ashes" - Quietdrive
Also, after that feud was settled with my friends, this helped me get on with my life, my rebirth persay (corny sorry) but it empowers me and moves me.

"Tell Me Something Good" - The Rocket Summer
My views on life. I've grown sick of hearing all the horrible things that happen in this world, and once in a while would like to see something good that happened on the front cover. I know it doesnt necessarily sell the most, but people need to know there are good things still to look for.

"Beauty in the Breakdown" - The Scene Aesthetic
So much of this song I relate to, certain lines at certain times, "take the time to let it go step away and watch me grow" reminds me of my family and how they never give me the time to bloom into who I want to be and instantly shoot down anything different.

The Spill Canvas, in general, just I don't want to continue making this longer with writing all of their songs with all their meanings. (as if i havent made this long enough) Same with The Starting Line

"My Beautiful Rescue" - This Providence
For my two best guy friends, who've rescued me numerous times. If I'm crying they'd know just what to say, if I'm annoyed they don't always listen the first time but once they get it they're there with loving words and a rescue.

"Breathe Again" - Too Sorry For Apologies
I've got my mind made up that all i need is love, which is the main theme of the song.


"I've Caught Fire" - The Used
The last time I was in that 'cant think of anyone else' stage was with someone whose eyes could break my heart, make me smile, and cause me to cave in within seconds, unfortunately the last one still occurs quite often.

I'm going to end this, I know I started doing it my own way and its long but if you read this far, thank you you now probably know me better than anyone I actually know.

You're a part time lover and a full time friend
The monkey on you're back is the latest trend
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Here is the church and here is the steeple
We sure are cute for two ugly people
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you 

We both have shiny happy fits of rage
I want more fans, you want more stage
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you 

You are always trying to keep it real
And now I'm in love with how you feel
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you 

I kiss you on the brain in the shadow of a train
I kiss you all starry eyed, my body's swinging from side to side
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you 

The pebbles forgive me, the trees forgive me
So why can't, you forgive me?
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you 

Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu
Du du du du du du dudu du 
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

- Anyone Else But You (remake by Michael Cera & Ellen Page)

I didn 't care that you left and abandoned me, what hurts more is i would still die for you.

 "All Hail The Heartbreaker"

I had the notion that you'd make me change my ways
My bad habits would be gone in a matter of days
I had the feeling that you'd open up my eyes
To a whole new world that had since been in disguise

But that day will most likely never come for me
And it's just my luck to end up getting stuck
To everything you are

So tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures
And overanalyze your words
But the truth is that I've never fallen so hard
It's taking everything in me
Just to forget your sweater so far

I had the notion that you'd make me forget the world
But your undecisive mind shows me that
You are "just another girl"
I had the feeling that those looks you gave me were real
What if I ripped your heart apart at the seams
Maybe then you'd know how I feel

But that day will most likely never come for me
And it's just my luck to end up getting stuck
To everything you are

So tonight I'll sit and pick apart your pictures
And overanalyze your words
But the truth is that I've never fallen so hard
It's taking everything in me
Just to forget your sweater so far

I can honestly say
That I never, ever, ever felt this way
Your lips, your eyelashes, your skin
These are the parts of your body
That cause my comatose to begin

I can honestly say
That I never, ever, ever felt this way
Your lips, your eyelashes, your skin
These are the parts of your body
That cause my comatose to begin

I will sleep another day
I don't really need to anyway
What's the point when my dreams are infected
With words you used to say
I will breathe in a moment
As long as I keep my distance
I wouldn't want to go messing anything up

So don't go worrying about me
It's not like I think about you constantly
So maybe I do, but that shouldn't affect
Your life anymore
I knew it the moment you walked into the door

So don't go worrying about me
It's not like I think about this constantly
So maybe I do, but that shouldn't affect
Your life anymore
I knew it the moment you walked into the door

I'll let you get the best of me
Because there's nothing else that I do well
I'll let you get the best of me
Because there's nothing else that I do well
I'll be the giver and you'll be the taker
I guess that's how this one's gonna go I'll be the giver and you'll be the taker
You've got me down on my knees and I proclaim
All hail the heartbreaker

Don't Stop Believin', hold on to that feeeeling.

"Do I have to spell it out for you, or scream it in your face? Oh, the chemistry between us could destroy this place."

"Oh did I mention when I see you it stings like hell, to the fact that we could have something, that'll never happen."

"Last but not least, I will repeat 'You are the sand beneath my feet'."

"We lie, we lie together just not too close, too close-how close is close enough? I just want to break you down so badly, when i trip over everything you say."

"I'm stubborn and wrong, but atleast I'm there.</b> I keep moving along and hope I can get through it..."

I hate the way you talk to me, and the way you cut your hair. I hate the way you drive my car. I hate it when you stare. I hate your big dumb combat boots, and the way you read my mind. I hate you so much it makes me sick; it even makes me rhyme. I hate it, I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. I hate it when you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call. But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.