In The Jingle Jangle Morning

january totally sucks

i'm thinking about getting a used vw passat. does anyone have any experience with one or know anyone who has? i've been trying to research them online and it's hard to get a clear picture of how reliable they really are.

"To practice any art, no matter how well or badly, is a way to make your soul grow. So do it."

-Kurt Vonnegut

"Perfectionism is the highest order of self-abuse" - Unknown

"The unconscious psyche believes in life after death" - Carl Jung

i don't like anything right now.

I've come here every day these past few weeks, wanting to say something, wanting to put down my thoughts here...but, I always write a few things, think they look and sound all wrong and self-centered, and then just close the page out...

I don't know when I've been this depressed/self-hating...I just wish I could change things...If I didn't have my baby boy, I don't think I'd stay...

In a haze, a stormy haze,

I’ll be round, I’ll be loving you always,

always

Julian and I spent the day with my mother's side of the family in Marietta yesterday.  It was noisy and crowded as usual, but nice all in all.  My aunt has a new deck and one of those outdoor wood heaters, so I spent most of the evening out on her new deck, looking up at the stars.

I've been having bits of synchronicity lately.  Last night, on the drive home, I was in the backseat with a sleeping Julian, when I heard the radio announce the station's name and then there was a second of silence.  For some reason, I thought,  maybe they're going to play U2.  and then the first few lines of "Trying to Throw Your Arms Around the World" started playing.   I  love that song so much.


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