I sip on dreams

I'm not really sure if I'm going to continuously update. I lost interest in livejournal 9 months ago and knowing me, I'll probably lose interest in the near future.

It feels really weird writing in this thing. Like I've travelled back in time. Really weird.

Since I last updated, my life has been the best it's ever been. School, friends, relationships, family, everything. I've had ups and downs just like everyone else, but when I sit back and take a look at what I've experienced this past year, I can't help but smile.

I've grown so much as an individual. So much. I've become more involved than ever with television production at school. I really didn't have much of a social life outside of production during last semester. And you know what? I couldn't have been happier. Production excites me so much, and when I finally had the chance to make every single day dedicated toward studio production, field production, or editing, I came home every night satisfied. No matter how stressed I became, I was so happy. So fucking happy.

As far as friendships, I grew apart from some people and grew closer to others. That's just life, man. I didn't let it get me down. We're in college. This is a time for people to discover themselves as individuals and live life how they want to live life. I backed away from all the friendship drama during my junior year and focused more on my production work, and to be honest, I couldn't have made a better decision. My friends mean the world to me, but when unnecessary drama enters the picture, I'm out. The new friendships I've gained mean so much to me, as well as the old friendships I've built upon. And as far as those friends whom I've grown apart from, I know that most of those friendships have an underlying sense of understanding...an understanding that even if we don't hang out all the time, that doesn't mean that we care any less. And I like that.

Matthew and I have been together for almost three months and I feel so lucky. So damn lucky. I've known him my whole life. You know, one of those people you went to grade school, middle school, and high school with but never really talked to. We randomly started talking a few months ago and hit it off right away. He treats me better than ANY guy has ever treated me, and for that I am eternally thankful. I've waited 21 years for him to come along, and it was well worth the wait. I can't believe we've only been together three months, because I feel like it's been so much longer than that. I've learned so much from him in the short time that we've been together, and I'm looking forward to learning so much more. He's just...incredible.

So, in a nutshell, that is why I felt like updating.

Well hello there.

Summer's winding down and I'm not so sure how I feel about that. While I'm excited to see my friends in Boston, I'm definitely NOT excited to start classes. And the thought of leaving my friends here...I dunno, it's weird. Summer's so short compared to the time I spend in Boston for school, and it sucks.

I spent last night in Chicago with Mike and his friends, Stacey and Kevin. We ate at The Melting Pot (my first fondue restaurant experience...so damn good), and we saw Wicked at the beautiful Oriental Theatre. I've only been to a handful of musicals in the past, but Wicked is definitely the best one I've seen. I highly recommend it for anyone who hasn't seen it yet. I sometimes think that if I had the money, I would do stuff like this all the time...but then I think about the fact that if I did do it all the time then it wouldn't be as special. It was definitely a special night, and I really didn't want it to end. It was a nice way to end the great summer I had with Mike.

Tonight I'm going to see Jacob and Evan's band, BenCarBen, play at The Pint in Chicago. It's always fun when they score these Chicago shows, so I'm really excited to see them. Tonight's probably going to be the last night I'll see my Northbrook friends before I leave. =( Bert left for NIU on Saturday, Craig left for California on Monday, and Molly and Jacob should be moving into their apartment downtown soon. We're all slowly dispersing. Leaving for the third year isn't as bad as leaving the first year...but it still isn't easy. I'm going to miss them.

By the way, I saw The Start and Garbage on Monday, and it was fucking awesome. I'm really happy they're touring together. I have a feeling that The Start will gain more fans because they're opening up for Garbage. The fans kind of overlap. It's about time that The Start gets some recognition. I'm happy for them.

Molly and Jacob bought me a lot of incense because they know how much I'm in love with it. My room smells orgasmic. Jes and Sarah, I hope you two like the smell of Nag Champa. I'm bringing this stuff to our apartment.

Well, off to get shit done. I hate packing. I really do.

I just realized that I've been spelling "hamster" wrong my whole life. I thought it was spelled with a p. Hampster. When I've said it outloud I've even pronounced it with a p. Whenever I saw people spell it "hamster" I just thought they accidentally spelled it wrong and forgot the p. I feel really stupid.

I realized that I took a lot of pictures recently, so I thought I'd show you what life has been like through my eyes over the past week.

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Cleaning my computer desktop gives me the same feeling as doing laundry. Clicking and dragging all those pictures and videos into their separate folders is just like folding my clothes and putting them in their separate drawers. It makes me feel rejuvenated. Satisfied. Accomplished. It's like a fresh new start in life. I like it.

Mike and I relaxed in Grant Park tonight. I could sit back and enjoy this view all night long. Cities are incredible. There's something about the buildings...and the lights...and the people...and the way everything just glows at night. Chicago has a special glow to it. I love this city.

I'm watching a live broadcast of the Discovery space shuttle launch. Fucking incredible. Space exploration amazes me so much. Today's technology makes all of this even more fun to watch - they put a freakin video camera on the external fuel tank, so as it was lifting off we could see the view of earth from the shuttle. They're in space right now, 4 minutes later, and the view of earth is incredible. I can't believe this is all live. I need to take a shower and go to work. I don't want to leave.

Have any of you seen the Allstate Insurance commercial where a couple gets in a car accident? The commercial tells you what to do if you're in that type of situation and that Allstate can take care of you. It scares the crap out of me every time I see it. The way they filmed it makes me feel like I'm actually in the car with these people. Just the image of the other car swerving toward the screen...ugh. I can't handle it. I hate car accidents so much. So so much. It's a damn good commercial, though.

I'm going to Lollapalooza this weekend and it's supposed to be two of the hottest days Chicago has had all summer.

Sweet.

Besides the fact that I'm going to be cooked alive, I'm pretty damn excited. More than 60 bands on 5 stages in 2 days in Chicago's beauuuuuuutiful Grant Park right along the Lake. Can it get any better than that? I think not.

Thank you, Lollapalooza people, for choosing Chicago as your home this year. Sorry if you die from heat exhaustion. Hopefully it'll be worth it.