Each morning I get up I die a little Can barely stand on my feet Take a look in the mirror and cry Lord what you're doing to me I have spent all my years in believing you But I just can't get no relief, Lord! Somebody, somebody Can anybody find me somebody to love?
I work hard every day of my life I work till I ache my bones At the end I take home my hard earned pay all on my own - I get down on my knees And I start to pray Till the tears run down from my eyes Lord - somebody - somebody Can anybody find me - somebody to love?
(He works hard)
Everyday - I try and I try and I try - But everybody wants to put me down They say I'm goin' crazy They say I got a lot of water in my brain Got no common sense I got nobody left to believe Yeah - yeah yeah yeah
Oh Lord Somebody - somebody Can anybody find me somebody to love?
Got no feel, I got no rhythm I just keep losing my beat I'm ok, I'm alright Ain't gonna face no defeat I just gotta get out of this prison cell Someday I'm gonna be free, Lord!
Find me somebody to love Can anybody find me somebody to love?
So today's my birthday. I had a deep conversation last night with my dad, most of which involved just getting older and girls.
An old friend, Junior, came over last night. Worked with him my last season of fire fighting. Kind of strange how you have a friend at first where you don't drink, but he does. Then, a couple years later, the tables are turned.
Still not sure what I'm going to do today. I also think my body's not liking all the alcohol I'm taking in each day because I wake up in the morning and have to crap so bad that I think I'm losing my innards.
So in another day, another year older. You never pay much thought to it unless you have some time on your hands and you start contemplating the long term effects... like when you're going to be 40 years old. The sad thing is that I see each day passing so fast and no signs of me changing my life in a dramatic way.
I think today I'm going to lounge around Dad's place some more and watch TV, then maybe later this afternoon or tonight I'll go to Klamath Falls and play some DDR. I'm hoping that the pads aren't all crapped out like they normally are. Because it gets so dirty and dusty up here the pad has to be cleaned out on a regular basis otherwise the arrows will start to stick.
So here I am in Tule after a 4 1/2 hour drive yesterday afternoon. I decided to take the scenic and more intriguing route up 299 from Redding. That drive was so much fun in the new car.
I'm finding myself kinda bored, but at the same time not since I don't have any work to do or obligations to keep for the time being. Sometime this week I'll get up to Klamath Falls and see about playing a little DDR. Last time I was here it was a whole lot cheaper... like 50 cents for 4 rounds.
Anyway, time to go make myself some breakfast, think some steak, eggs, and mashed potatoes are in order!
For whatever reason I'm compelled to post. Not sure why, but I am. Don't even have anything worth posting really.
I cleaned out my car last night. It was one of those cleanings where you just take a quick glance at what's in your hand and make a quick decision... garbage or box o' keepers. Regardless, it's cleaned out. Now I just need to hit a DMV to get some replacement papers so I can get rid of it. After that Heather went with me to Fry's to get a replacement cable that was broken on my computer... it was the sata cable that goes to the hard drive. The connector was broken and if my case got bumped the whole thing would restart and then go through a neverending boot cycle. So I bought a new one and an extension because the whole reason the first one broke is because it barely reached anyhow. So now the computer is happy. After that, Heather and I went to CCL to play DDR, where Jeremy met us later. We didn't play as much as I wanted, but Heather is out of shape from playing.
I also bought the other two discs of Midori Days. Funny series, but the ending could possibly make some cry. So when I got home at like 11:30 last night I popped in the 2nd disc and started watching... big mistake. I ended up staying up until like 3:00 am because I had to watch all of it. So I was a slug at work today and this whole week I've been out of the office/shop doing field work installing showers and commercial windows. I've been so beat because of constantly having to be to work at 6:45 am and then the fact I don't like to go to bed early. Oh well, it's my long awaited vacation time now. A whole week off, and still expecting decent weather for going north to see people.
So you know how sometimes when you're single you get those times that you wish you had someone? I had one of those last night and all day today. It was making me mad along with only furthering my sluggishness at work. Sad thing is that I don't really want a relationship... just too many problems that seem to arise when I'm in one, perhaps I just haven't met the right person yet. Blah blah blah... nonsense rambling again.
I'm so freakin' tired right now, but if I went to sleep I'd wake up in the middle of the night and screw up my day tomorrow.
Why's this hook in my head fool? It's attached to your rod you mother licker? Easy now fuzzy little man peach. I'm gonna hurt you, I like you, what do you think of me? Make an assessment. Don't lie to me boi. I know what you're thinking, here comes Ol' Greg, scaley man fish, I got something to show ya. Ya know what that is? It's Ol' Greg's vagina... I got a mangina!
So the forecast right now from weather.com says that right now they are expecting light showers come this weekend for when I'm travelling north. Hopefully it will stay that way as I can deal with some rain, but snow would put a damper on my goals. I highly doubt any snow as it never snowed much in early March up north, mostly rain and wind.
I can't wait to get away from work for a week. It'll be good for me.
So this is totally unexpected. I haven't been here in... well... a long time. But I'm having one of my anti-Myspace moments. Not to mention the only person that posts any bulletins is this kid that's my little brother's best friend. And they get kinda boring because he's like a emo-kid and has no life.
Well, um, what to say?
Had a girlfriend, didn't work out. Guess I need to start looking into girls my age and older, these younger ones just don't cut the mustard (as the old China man says.) She was cool to hang around sometimes, but for the most part she was pretty fucking immature and needy. Maybe the needy part wasn't so much because I'm kinda that way, but when you don't get home until 4:30 or later and in a span from 4:15 to 4:30 you get thirty bazillions messages that start out as "We need to talk..." into full blown "ZOMG WHY AREN'T YOU TALKING TO ME?!?! WHAT DID I DO?!?! PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE TALK TO ME!" shit, it was time to say enough's enough. For whatever reason she couldn't understand that I wanted a best friend (along with someone to have sex with). Her retort was that I didn't understand her enough and that I never took the time to get to know her. I think I figured out enough about her just from all the messages she sent me and the three months we went out together. Things were kinda cool with us after that, but then she got this new squeeze and even though she didn't want to admit it, she was using him to send me hate messages on Myspace. Oh well, cest la'vie (sp?).
I quit Everquest, for the most part. At least the raiding part, I was wasting my life away trying to make EST time raids on PST time schedule, not to mention it wasn't getting me anywhere. Funny thing is that the guild leader offered my $725 for my toon the day after I posted I was quitting. Sadly, I had to refuse. The character alone is worth more to me than that, so I declined. I'm still going to casually play once in a while since there are some old RP friends I still have.
No more piece of shit car. I finally bought a new car. And I mean a new one! Brand new 2007 Pontiac G5! It's hawt! (BTW, if you look up the car on the Pontiac website, it looks just like the one they have posted.) I would have to say though that I thank Heather and Jeremy immensely though for helping me out that day. Although, I would imagine that they were just as wore out as that saleman after it was all said and done. We spent so much time haggling at the dealership. But I was grateful that both of them were there to help me, not to mention picking me up from work to drive me there. It means the world to me that they could forgive me as much as they have with our past.
So this next week, I get to make my first trip in my new car back north to visit friends and family. The drive should be so much more enjoyable!
I got a girlfriend, after a long long time I finally have opened up. I never thought I'd actually recover enough from Heather enough to get back into a relationship, but I have. And it's good, really good. I'm not holding out hope for anything, but it feels good at the moment. We seem to click really well, we have the same goals (i.e. she's openly honest with me, and hates cheaters and liars too.) I've promised myself to do what I can to make this one work out the best that I can.
Anyway, that's about it. My little brothers are coming down Friday morning to hang out for the weekend.
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