omg am I actually back into posting on this bitch?
I'm not sure how all of my past posts are now private. I don't recall doing that. Oh well, does it matter? I showed some of these posts to Carley before and showed her just how crazy I was. But she never says I was crazy, I was a kid put into a terrible situation, and acted accordingly. Fuckin psychology and shit.
Legit the only reason I keep posting is for you to read it. I want you to know how much I've grown, even if you can't respond to me. Knowing you are reading...is more than we've had in a very long time.
I had Connor watch Harry Potter tonight. He's seen some of it before, but I always felt he was too little for it. A few weeks ago, it was time for his bedtime routine, and he flipped because he wanted to stay up late. He started sobbing and came up to me saying, "I wanna watch Harry Potter!" ...the little shit, tugging at my heart strings and shit. We watched about 30 minutes of it, right when Harry and Hagrid are done shopping, and he's like "Okay, that's enough movie. I wanna watch Ruff Ruff, Tweet, and Dave" so ... I was like shit, at least he watched 30 minutes of it.
By the by, I'm not asking for you to do anything you don't want to do. I'm not trying to force you into anything. I know you have someone, and I kind of do too (but my god that is such a shit show, I don't even want to talk about that) but there's always this niggling in the back of my brain. You're not the weak one, I am. I can't fucking shut up.
Legit the only reason I keep posting is for you to read it. I want you to know how much I've grown, even if you can't respond to me. Knowing you are reading...is more than we've had in a very long time.
I had Connor watch Harry Potter tonight. He's seen some of it before, but I always felt he was too little for it. A few weeks ago, it was time for his bedtime routine, and he flipped because he wanted to stay up late. He started sobbing and came up to me saying, "I wanna watch Harry Potter!" ...the little shit, tugging at my heart strings and shit. We watched about 30 minutes of it, right when Harry and Hagrid are done shopping, and he's like "Okay, that's enough movie. I wanna watch Ruff Ruff, Tweet, and Dave" so ... I was like shit, at least he watched 30 minutes of it.
By the by, I'm not asking for you to do anything you don't want to do. I'm not trying to force you into anything. I know you have someone, and I kind of do too (but my god that is such a shit show, I don't even want to talk about that) but there's always this niggling in the back of my brain. You're not the weak one, I am. I can't fucking shut up.
-
-
lonely
-
cold
cheerful