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I really need something exciting to happen. Now. Please?
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Oh. My. God.
Blaaahhh.
I am nearly 800 miles away and I cannot escape it...
How am I going to last?
I can't put up with this anymore.
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I. HATE. EXAMS.
I hate my hair too. Which is why I just took a pair of scissors and trimmed off the ends of my hair. They were really bothering me. Luckily I can get away with that nonsense with my curls. At least it feels a little bit better....even if it may be uneven. Haha. Diana will fix it next week when I am home, hopefully.
I only have one more exam to go...unfortunately it is a BITCH. I am putting it off as we speak. But...I really need to get on it. We're going to see the Christmas lights tomorrow night, and I want to be done with it.
On that note I guess I'll quit stalling...
I can do this.
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It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas...
We've been listening to Christmas music since mid October...and now it is finally December and I don't feel very Christmasy. Hopefully once I can really focus on christmas stuff it will feel more like it.
Also, I want us to go to the dumb drive through and see the Christmas lights thing that is near my work. Thomas said he wanted to go, and Caitlin will come too because she loves me. (haha <3)
That will help I think.
Oh man...and once I get to Florida...to home. Being in Disney World will be so beautiful and great. I am so excited. I need my family.
I am sad though because I am so broke. I want to be able to get my family and friends nice christmas presents this year. I love doing it so much...but I just don't think it will happen and it makes me SAD. *sigh* Who knows...maybe I'll figure something out.
Lord knows this holiday will be much better than last year. Last Christmas was terrible. Not so much the holiday itself...but my frame of mind a year ago. What a mess...I am really thankful that this year will already be so much better. I am happy...and that is enough. <3
Also, I want us to go to the dumb drive through and see the Christmas lights thing that is near my work. Thomas said he wanted to go, and Caitlin will come too because she loves me. (haha <3)
That will help I think.
Oh man...and once I get to Florida...to home. Being in Disney World will be so beautiful and great. I am so excited. I need my family.
I am sad though because I am so broke. I want to be able to get my family and friends nice christmas presents this year. I love doing it so much...but I just don't think it will happen and it makes me SAD. *sigh* Who knows...maybe I'll figure something out.
Lord knows this holiday will be much better than last year. Last Christmas was terrible. Not so much the holiday itself...but my frame of mind a year ago. What a mess...I am really thankful that this year will already be so much better. I am happy...and that is enough. <3
Hurray America!
I am so happy about the election.
I think Obama is going to be really good for us. His speech was amazing.
I feel so proud!
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Sad.
I am so sad and upset.
I feel sick.
I can't sleep.
I am so so so tired and sad and lonely and lost.
Dramatic...yes, I know. But I feel it.
My heart hurts.
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Weird.
Just a few things I would like to point out...
1. Being deathly ill sucks. But it isn't so bad when you have best friends taking care of you.
2. Last Friday was the best night ever. There is nothing that cna compare to wearing tribal clothes and warpaint while playing Pokemon Snap.
3. My mom got engaged. I am happy for her, as long as she is happy. But it is just...weird...
I need inspiration
So...the past few days have been good.
Rent on Wednesday was good. It was weird to me though...obviously I felt really disconnected. I missed feeling it around me and being a part of it. But I am glad I got to see it. I cried like a little baby. It was ridiculous. It just really got to me. Like that is a big surprise. What really got me was at the end they had a picture of Jonathan Larson. And that just touched me. And I know it may be silly, but he is important to me. It is important to me.
Going to the beach with Caitlin on that night was amazing. We had the best time driving down there, listening to the playlist I made for us. Our MERMAID playlist. And then being at the beach...it was just what we needed.
It was so windy, and so cold. But it kind of added to being there. We walked on the beach of course. It was so hard not to just jump in. It was freezing outside, but the water was so warm. And the Caitlin (sea foam) all over the sand was so funny. (aka the alien whale sperm...gross)
I really was just so happy to be there. And to wake up and look out the window and see the ocean...no matter how windy and rainy it was. It just didn't matter.
It was just so great being there.
We're going back tonight and tomorrow. That makes me so terribly happy. It just makes my soul feel better.
I can't wait to be there.
Rent on Wednesday was good. It was weird to me though...obviously I felt really disconnected. I missed feeling it around me and being a part of it. But I am glad I got to see it. I cried like a little baby. It was ridiculous. It just really got to me. Like that is a big surprise. What really got me was at the end they had a picture of Jonathan Larson. And that just touched me. And I know it may be silly, but he is important to me. It is important to me.
Going to the beach with Caitlin on that night was amazing. We had the best time driving down there, listening to the playlist I made for us. Our MERMAID playlist. And then being at the beach...it was just what we needed.
It was so windy, and so cold. But it kind of added to being there. We walked on the beach of course. It was so hard not to just jump in. It was freezing outside, but the water was so warm. And the Caitlin (sea foam) all over the sand was so funny. (aka the alien whale sperm...gross)
I really was just so happy to be there. And to wake up and look out the window and see the ocean...no matter how windy and rainy it was. It just didn't matter.
It was just so great being there.
We're going back tonight and tomorrow. That makes me so terribly happy. It just makes my soul feel better.
I can't wait to be there.
By the sea, by the sea, by the beautiful sea...
Thank god. Tomorrow night I will be by the sea. In the ocean. Thank goodness. It is really what I need right now.
It makes me so happy knowing that tomorrow night I can just fall into the waves. I really cannot wait.
And on top of that...Rent tomorrow. I know it is going to be AMAZING. But at the same time, I know that it is going to be really hard for me. I am going to miss it so much. It is a part of me...
But no need to get into that again.
I am just excited I get to SOMEHOW be a part of the final show. Even in an extremely indirect way.
The rest of the week will be good too. I hope.
Rent tomorrow evening
Beach tomorrow night
Beach thursday morning
Swimming lessons with the kids thursday (*smile*)
Beach friday
Beach saturday
Swimming and park with the kids on Sunday
It will be good. Right?
Yes. Very much so.
How can it not be when I am doing my favorite things with my favorite people?
<3
It makes me so happy knowing that tomorrow night I can just fall into the waves. I really cannot wait.
And on top of that...Rent tomorrow. I know it is going to be AMAZING. But at the same time, I know that it is going to be really hard for me. I am going to miss it so much. It is a part of me...
But no need to get into that again.
I am just excited I get to SOMEHOW be a part of the final show. Even in an extremely indirect way.
The rest of the week will be good too. I hope.
Rent tomorrow evening
Beach tomorrow night
Beach thursday morning
Swimming lessons with the kids thursday (*smile*)
Beach friday
Beach saturday
Swimming and park with the kids on Sunday
It will be good. Right?
Yes. Very much so.
How can it not be when I am doing my favorite things with my favorite people?
<3
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I'll call...I hate the fall...
It is really beginning to depress me every day when it gets colder and colder.
I don't want winter to come. The idea really makes me so so so sad.
I am going to miss the ocean so badly. I need it.
Oh well...
I do like the fall...it's just sad...
I don't want winter to come. The idea really makes me so so so sad.
I am going to miss the ocean so badly. I need it.
Oh well...
I do like the fall...it's just sad...