My degree is over
So uhhh lets have an update on that degree....
I officially finished on Monday, only not really, because my film still isn't finished.
Slept for maybe 15 mins at the most over the weekend, so I was pretty much awake from an ungodly hour on saturday morning til midday Monday and it was not fun. I broke down sometime in the early hours of Monday because there was no way I was finishing this film in time, my keyboard was not working, so I could not write up my 1500 word evaluation, and while I had a lot more stuff to put in my film, I couldn't even get it edited together in time for the deadline. So I was in tears by the time I got to uni to hand in. It was awful and I don't ever want to reapeat it. I think I pretty much stayed in tears for the entirety of Monday morning, which was awful in itself because I hate crying in front of people and I couldn't stop.... :l I never made it to the crit. It was at 2, and my friends made me go home and sleep so I did, which made me feel a little better.
But yeah, I was horribly disappointed in myself yesterday and it was not a good moment ofmy life, because even though everyone says that the grade doesn't matter, it's the finished film that willgetyou hired, it mattered to me and I felt like a failure for what I handed in.
However, we can make this post slightly happier because I woke up to an email this morning. If I can somehow finish by friday my film might be shortlisted, and you have no idea how much this means to me. If it's shortlisted it has the chance to win an award at our grad show, judged by industry professionals, and it will definitely be shown to industry people on the industry night. I kinda just stared in shock and shook for a while. Of course, now I have to somehow finish for Friday, which I don't know if I can do.... I'm going to ask if I can have until monday, on the grounds that I have horrific RSI in my hands... It would mean a lot to me if I got shortlisted though ;a;
Which brings me to the next point of call. I am not going to expo. It was a bad idea from the start, I think, and these past few weeks have been incredibly stressful, and my diet has suffered a lot. I really don't think that going to expo would be wise at this point because I would most likely take out all that stress on people and make people angry, which I also can't dealwith right now. Also, if I can get an extension i'll need to work on my film,which is more important ;a;
So I will miss everyone a lot,but hopefully I can see people soon ;a; maybe at the wales meet that is coming up (everyone should defintiely be coming)
Iam going to finish with a picture of my hands at this point:
Unfortunatley I have to keep going despite this. Have I managed to put people off animation as a career choice yet? I will not be able to draw once this degree is over....
I officially finished on Monday, only not really, because my film still isn't finished.
Slept for maybe 15 mins at the most over the weekend, so I was pretty much awake from an ungodly hour on saturday morning til midday Monday and it was not fun. I broke down sometime in the early hours of Monday because there was no way I was finishing this film in time, my keyboard was not working, so I could not write up my 1500 word evaluation, and while I had a lot more stuff to put in my film, I couldn't even get it edited together in time for the deadline. So I was in tears by the time I got to uni to hand in. It was awful and I don't ever want to reapeat it. I think I pretty much stayed in tears for the entirety of Monday morning, which was awful in itself because I hate crying in front of people and I couldn't stop.... :l I never made it to the crit. It was at 2, and my friends made me go home and sleep so I did, which made me feel a little better.
But yeah, I was horribly disappointed in myself yesterday and it was not a good moment ofmy life, because even though everyone says that the grade doesn't matter, it's the finished film that willgetyou hired, it mattered to me and I felt like a failure for what I handed in.
However, we can make this post slightly happier because I woke up to an email this morning. If I can somehow finish by friday my film might be shortlisted, and you have no idea how much this means to me. If it's shortlisted it has the chance to win an award at our grad show, judged by industry professionals, and it will definitely be shown to industry people on the industry night. I kinda just stared in shock and shook for a while. Of course, now I have to somehow finish for Friday, which I don't know if I can do.... I'm going to ask if I can have until monday, on the grounds that I have horrific RSI in my hands... It would mean a lot to me if I got shortlisted though ;a;
Which brings me to the next point of call. I am not going to expo. It was a bad idea from the start, I think, and these past few weeks have been incredibly stressful, and my diet has suffered a lot. I really don't think that going to expo would be wise at this point because I would most likely take out all that stress on people and make people angry, which I also can't dealwith right now. Also, if I can get an extension i'll need to work on my film,which is more important ;a;
So I will miss everyone a lot,but hopefully I can see people soon ;a; maybe at the wales meet that is coming up (everyone should defintiely be coming)
Iam going to finish with a picture of my hands at this point:
Unfortunatley I have to keep going despite this. Have I managed to put people off animation as a career choice yet? I will not be able to draw once this degree is over....