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Journal created:
on 1 February 2001 (#51233)
Updated:
on 5 February 2022
Name:
Shutterbug
Birthdate:
15 November 1979
Once upon a time, I made a good living being a chemical engineer. Many people considered it a "cool" job. Why? Because I set things on fire and created awesome explosions. And while that was, in fact, cool, it was not terribly satisfying for me. I spent seven unhappy years in that career and finally decided I'd had enough. In 2009, I quit my job and relocated to Springfield, MO, to pursue a Doctorate in Physical Therapy (DPT), which I completed in 2014!

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Sister Hazel - Work In Progress lyrics

Well I'm sick, I'm annoyed
And I'm nasty and I'm incomplete
I am angry, I am lost
Yeah I'm hard as stone
I am sore, well I am worried
And I'm disgusted
I am lonely and I'm scared
And it's crushing me

You said "what is worthy?"
Yeah, you say you belong, belong, belong, belong
Well you say if it matters
Well tell me I'm not dead because I'm going crazy

I'm a mess, such a mess
I'm a coward and a hypocritical sinner
Like a bitchin' politician
But my anger's true
I am tense and intentional
I'm passionate to a fault
I am old
But I'm a work in progress

Well, tell me that I'm worthy
Oh, tell me I belong, belong, belong, belong
Tell me that I matter
Well tell me I'm not dead, 'cause I'm going crazy!

Well I'm hung up on the past
Finished up in last
Idealistic in case you missed it
Later, self-mutilator
Killing time, procrastinator
Why worry about my health
Ripping on myself
Idealistic in case you missed it

Well you said "what is worthy?"
Oh, tell me I belong, belong, belong, belong
Well tell me that I matter
Well tell me I'm not dead 'cause I'm not that lazy

Well I'm a wreck, such a wreck
Well I'm a martyr and a perpetual loser
Not a sin-free Oprah Winfrey
But I do mean well
I am tense and intentional
I'm passionate to a fault
I am old
But I'm a work in progress


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More of a profile, as written for 100_words...incomplete, but a good start...

5'1, having never looked the stereotypical Asian, I am curvy and proud of it. I exercise and lift weights for the best of both worlds -- food orgasm, good health. Non-smoker of any kind and heavy social drinker, I have my health vices.

Career engineer, my real passion is for people and the arts. I'm everyone's calendar, address book, and shoulder to cry on. I'm an affection-addict. I photograph the details of the world and spend money on concerts, theater, and musicals.

Former perfectionist, overachiever, and good girl, I'm still working on me.

Goal: Everything in moderation.

Challenge: Acceptance of imperfection.

affection, alanis morissette, albuquerque, alton brown, animals, ansel adams, art, attention, barbeques, barenaked ladies, barnes & noble, beaches, belle & sebastian, billy joel, blue man group, board games, boston, bowling, california, cameras, card games, cardio fitness, chemistry, comedy, concerts, cooking, csi, cuddles, cycling, dennis leary, disney, drama, driving, eddie izzard, electronics, elton john, emotion, engineering, england, flirting, food, forensics, foxtrot, fresh air, friendships, gym, home improvement, hugs, humor, intimacy, introspection, john cusack, kevin smith, kevin spacey, kisses, landscapes, law & order, lightning, liquor, literature, lord of the rings, los angeles, love, lyrics, macro photography, matchbox twenty, meat, movies, museums, music, musicals, mysteries, nature, new mexico, old navy, outdoors, people, photography, piano, piercings, poetry, pool, psychology, public displays of affection, puzzles, questionable content, rachel ray, rain, reading, relationships, rivers, robert jordan, roller coasters, sailing, sandra bullock, sarcasm, scotland, self help, self improvement, sex, shakespeare, shopping, sinfest, sister hazel, soccer, spinning, stomp, storms, sushi, swimming, tae kwon do, tattoos, technology, teddy bears, thailand, the beatles, the eagles, the offspring, theater, theme parks, thrillers, thrills, thunderstorms, tim robbins, trans-siberian orchestra, travel, water, weight lifting, weird al yankovic, what not to wear, wit, writing, xkcd

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