my best friend. she says that she loves me and that w'll be friends forever...but i somehow feel like im losing her. we've been friends since before kindergarten, we're in grade 8 now. we only went to the same school from kindergarten til grade 2, then she moved to another city, outside of where i live. we managed to stay friends through that. she finally moved back to victoria this year, and we've been hanging out a lot and stuff. we'll be going to the same school this year again. im worried that if i do end up in her class, we'll end up hating eachother from seeing eachother so much. she went camping this weekend while i was visiting my aunt in vancouver. she got a 15 year old boyfriend. shes 13. shes really happy. i should be really happy for her too, right? wrong. i cant be. i just dont see how its going to work between them. i mean, he lives in cowichan, about an hour drive from here. she cant tell her dad about it cause he wont allow it and she didnt get his phone number. its like he doesnt exist. she wont let me meet him. i feel like i have no one to talk to anymore. that steff is getting all caught up in this mess and cant get out. :(
I shouldn't be worried but I am. I am afraid that I am going to get fired from work. But I don't have a reason to be fired. I'm just not on the schedual for this week. I am looking to find a new job. I don't want to get fired, I just want to quit. I need to take my mind off it it. There is nothing to worry about. Right?
rawwwr. hello. i'm new to this community, but i think it's awesome. i tend to hide my emotions alot and it gets on my nerves, my best friend doesn't know ANYTHING about me, simply because i just don't tell her. i think it's great that this community is here for people like me. : ) thanks a bunch for making it! i'll be posting sometime soon. xoxo
Hello. I am new to this community so I just thought I would say hi to everyone. This is the first community I have joined, even though I've had my livejournal for like 3 years *laughs* oh well. I'll post more interesting things later, just thought id say hi :)
I just found this community and decide to join because sometimes I just feel I need to get stuff off my chest. Well I wrote a little something about how I feel. It's long and I dont want to bother anyone w/ a long entry so if you want to read it then click on the lj cut.
I don't know. Maybe I'm a joke to think that there's potential. Maybe I have no chance. I just know there had to be this mutal feeling whenever we hugged.It feels so right whenever we touch.Our bodys so close,they fit together perfectly.The feeling is almost unreal.It's like the world is spinning and it's just us, but it feels so right.It's always that way.It's almost unreal.He makes me feel special.I know there's something there.I'm too scared.It's like I dont want to know. I deny the fact that he could like me.Why would he? I've been told that he has to like me, just by the way we act towards eachother. Maybe there's more to just our friendship. I'm too scared to ever know.
its a waste to keep it in(it means little to you, but the world to me)
lost in my thoughts there are no other sounds just the screaming of my words and the tears flowing down i'm just so lost and even confused now that you know that i like you what will you do? what will you say, will those be true? cuz words can hurt me but i'd rather be hurt than ever be lied to...
marc and i were best friends. i liked him, he liked me too. i introduced mariana to marc. she started to like him. me being a dumbass said i didnt like him anymore and so he stopped liking me too. i still liked him a lot. heck, i was in love with him. she knew i was in love with him and the day b4 he left to vegas, she kissed him.
now a year later, we all became best friends. marc and i still had feelings for each. he's tried to kiss me a couple of times but i wouldnt kiss him. i still love him. i always have and i always will.
and now, mariana and marc are together. and i grew apart from both of them. its just too hard to be around them. what hurts is that i asked mariana if she had the chance to be with him, would she? she answered, no, i wouldnt do that cuz i dont want to hurt you again.
she hurt me again. 1st time, shame on them, 2nd time, shame on you.
they both lie to me constantly. and i'm stupid enough to believe what they say. it just hurts. a lot. and there's nothin i can do to take this pain away.
Boy and Girl meet. Love at first sight. They kiss and they love. Girl meets Mom. Mom and Dad disapproves. Heartbreak. Eyes look away and paths avoided. Two years later, "I miss when we use to be able to just talk." Friendship regained. They talk and they laugh. A kiss. And three more. Ooops. Don't forget about Mom and Dad. Too close. Too good. Too perfect. I wish I could say that this has a happy ending but it doesn't.
hey, this is my first time posting here. this is cool. i just finished playing the emo game & i happily already killed creed, courtney love, jimmy eat world & various other vicious things. im on level 3 in the dungeon. its kinda hard b/c you have to play this little name the emo band kinda game show. i missed 3 the first time i played it but then the 2nd time i beat it. mwahahaha! im so grand!
spring break ended yesterday at 12:00 AM. *sigh* GrR. i miss spring break, i wanna go back to staying home under the covers and staying alone by myself in my own room. i didnt wanna go to school the next day & feel like an outkast. but my parentals made me. can they even do that? what if their childs life was at stake? parents just dont understand....
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