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It makes no fuckin' sense!

SO many things are different.
I don't write in here anymore, I'm not even too sure why. I really like the fact that i've had this thing for some odd years now.. and.. not too long ago I went back a year or two and looked at what I was doing that exact day... a few years ago. It was actually really cool. I'm glad I have this. Everything is so different of course, but I seemed happier.

I'm just sitting here, its about 1:00 drinking tea & have a virginia slim(!?) haha (I'm trying to quit smoking, it's so disgusting.. but i love it so much. I don't know how many times i've tried). Just woke up - I have some really lame cold, it sucks. I've been having crazy dreams lately. Mostly about Nick... and my old friends. It's even weird to say that but... yeah, my old girls. Brianne went away to college? It's just weird. No goodbyes. I think being sick causes you to have even stranger dreams. Well, I always do but that's how it made me feel today.

Anyway, everything is pretty odd in my life at this point. I'm eighteen years old... my hair is no longer ass long. It's very short, still black but up to my chin? It's sick, I need long hair. Um, i've taken out some piercings... I just have my belly twice, new* weird industrial exp., tragus. I do have 3 tattoos though, now. A huge cross on my neck/back that means....alot. Also on my lower back (what marilyn msn has on his arm) bulls eye w/ tentacles. <3 & I just recently got some swirl thing on my foot with dots.. just drawn on my foot. OH...I no longer draw on my eyebrows.. ever since I started working at this hair salon.. they thought I would look so much better with real eyebrows. I think they look fucking awful. I'm giving it a little bit longer and then i'm probably going to take care of them and fix them how I like them.

I'm NOT with Nick anymore, he's a piece of..... I brake up with him and he goes onto a Paki girl? That's not what I expected but I really don't know.. everything and everyone are full of suprises. Just gotta shake it off no matter how much I cry. Stop being weak.

My mother got re-married. We are moving into Mark's house in a month or two. They are re-doing it. They got married in Hawaii. My father is no longer with Donna.. he lives on his own in a condo. Everything is just really weird. Oh, and I was going to beauty school but i've been having anxiety attacks and I guess i've just decided to put that off... and take some time or whatever. I don't know what i'm going to do. I don't like it. I wonder if anyone even looks at this thing ever?

I hope to write more... writing does make me feel better.
Time to go to work in a while.

Hmmm... i'm waiting to go to school, I was supposed to be there at 8 but going later. My mom told me that I look exotic/foriegn today. haha.... wow. I'm really fuckin tired I dont feel like doing anything today. I hate monday.

I kinda want a smoothie.. my tummy hurts tho. I guess it's supposed to be hott today. Hopefully not too hott.. ummm this weekend kinda sucked. plans-failed. "missions" too.

im gonna go

HAPPY 42o to my stoners... <3
smoke a b for me!

muAh.

Instructions.
1. copy this whole list into your journal.
2. bold the things that are true about you.
3. anything you don't bold is false

01. When I was younger I made some bad decisions.
02. I don't watch much TV these days.
03. I love psychodelic mushrooms. !!
04. I love sleeping.
05. I have loads of books.
06. I once slept in a toilet. *JULIE SLEEPS BY EM ALL THE TIME!*
07. I love playing video games. *sometimes*
08. I ADORE marijuana.
09. I watch porn movies. *sometimes*
10. I watch them with my father.
11. I like sharks.
12. I love spiders.
13. I was born without hair and I still have no hair.
14. I like George Bush.
15. People are cool.
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
17. I have jacuzzi and a Porsche.
18. I have a lot to learn.
19. I carry my knife everywhere with myself.
20. I'm really really smart.
21. I've never broken someone's bones.
22. I have a secret.
23. I hate snow.
24. I drink only milk.
25. Punk rock rules.
26. I hate Bill Gates!
27. I love Chinese food.
28. I would hate to be famous.
29. I am not a morning person.
30. I wear glasses. *sometimes*
31. I don't need glasses.
32. I have potential.
33. You only have one race.
34. My legs are two different sizes.
35. I have a twin.
36. I wear a padded bra. Otherwise I don't have boobs.
37. I can ramble on about absolutely nothing. ilove talking about nothing.
38. I'm left-handed.
39. I hate llamas, but I'm one of them.
40. I don't like horror movies.
41. I suck at climbing, but I love it anyway.
42. People hate me usually.
43. I like pop music.
45. I HATE parking fines.
46. I know the National Anthem of my country by heart.
47. I know more than two languages.
48. I spend too much time on my computer. *not enough anymore*
49. I often want to throw my computer out the window.
50. I live on the first floor.
51. I don't like chocolate.
52. I'd like to be more original.
53. I've lied before.
54. Cocks are my favorite birds. Erin.. cockkk.
55. I want to conquer the world.
56. I wonder what happens when you die.
57. I've read all books about Harry Potter.
58. I want to eat your dog.
59. I love to exercise.
60. I hate science with a passion. some COULD be interesting.
61. I like to write.
62. I like changes. love
63. I hate going to class.
64. I am afraid to die. *to an extent..
65. I hate dish washing.
66. My hair is long, brown, and curly.
67. My nails are nine inches long.
68. One of my favorite colors is black.
69. I like to sleep on the floor. *sometimes*
70. I am hopeless at cooking.
71. I sucked my thumb when I was little.
72. I should be doing something else rather than writing this.
73. I am online alot, but not on AOL.
74. I hate government.
75. I don't have a girlfriend.
76. I'm too nice for my own good.
77. I love to read, I read as much as I can.
78. I don't trust newspapers.
79. I sometimes like arguing. always...
80. I live in a lagoon.
81. I clean my room once a month.
82. I'm scared of american fast food.
83. I am prying open my third eye.
84. I love Mozambique.
85. I don't trust any religion.
86. I used to play with barbies.
87. I wanted to be a super hero when I was little.
88. I like listening to wind chimes.
89. I'm very disorganized.
90. My hair is long and straight.
91. I learn a lot.
92. I don't like spicy food.
93. I keep a diary.
94. I can't do cartwheels.
95. I am very lazy.
96. I'm sarcastic.
97. I think my hair is annoying.
98. I'm very emotional.

I dont really know what to say..
and i'm not happy.

punk rock. 1-10 scene points. way to go, you drink
outside of shows lots and make the rest of the
scene hate you.


how many scene points do you have?
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Whats up. never update.... not that I dont have the time I just don't really have much to say here AND no one comments! I'll post when I feel the need. hehe

I still feel like shit, i'm sick agggggggain. I quit smoking cigarettes. I hope I can do it.. it's disgusting. wish me luck. hehe... im tryn to get a job with *JACK*.. haha, hopefully it happenz.

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