hey
what's up?
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I have been taking care of my brother, going to school and working so I haven't had time to update any of my journals and I do apologize to those who enjoy glimpsing into my life. Spring break fast approaches and it looks like I will not be traveling to the homeland :'( I am very sad because I was looking forward to spending time with my traveling companion. I just can't see leaving my brother here alone since my sister is still in Europe becasue of her job and my mother isn't the best to take care of someone going through the treatments. He's being so strong through this and I can't wait until its over for him.
Pasha came up and we spent valentines together. He helped me with my brother too. I'm not sure why. I am not a big holiday person but he is. He made me dinner and we watched a movie and exchanged gifts. I am a joker so I got him a little desk top coffin with two stakes in the shape of a cross on the lid wrapped with black roses. I thought it was cute and so did he. I also got him a black rosery which was more money than I wanted to spend but he liked so it was nice. He got me new boots and a diamond bracelet which I think means we're getting serious. No one just buys a girl diamonds with out meaning something. Maybe it's time I got serious with someone. *choking back giggles* Yea I almost said that with a straight face.
I hope that this finds everyone in top health and flying spirits. My fanged kindred: drink and be merrier because change is coming soon.
The dancing shadow
Pasha came up and we spent valentines together. He helped me with my brother too. I'm not sure why. I am not a big holiday person but he is. He made me dinner and we watched a movie and exchanged gifts. I am a joker so I got him a little desk top coffin with two stakes in the shape of a cross on the lid wrapped with black roses. I thought it was cute and so did he. I also got him a black rosery which was more money than I wanted to spend but he liked so it was nice. He got me new boots and a diamond bracelet which I think means we're getting serious. No one just buys a girl diamonds with out meaning something. Maybe it's time I got serious with someone. *choking back giggles* Yea I almost said that with a straight face.
I hope that this finds everyone in top health and flying spirits. My fanged kindred: drink and be merrier because change is coming soon.
The dancing shadow
nothing
It's the silence in the darkness that's terrifying.
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kismet
Liz Fowler writes:
Whence comes the word "kismet," and what is its proper use?
The word kismet means 'fate' or 'destiny', and comes from Turkish, a language underrepresented on this page. In Turkish it means 'portion' or 'lot', and is a borrowing from Persian qismat, which itself is a borrowing from Arabic qismah, akin to qasama 'to divide'.
In English, kismet is used, for all intents and purposes, as a synonym for 'fate', albeit a rather cool-sounding one. From Rudyard Kipling: "It is my Kismet. No man can escape his Kismet" (Kim, 1901). From F. Scott Fitzgerald, as a heading: " KISMET Within two weeks Amory and Rosalind were deeply and passionately in love" (This Side of Paradise, 1920).
The best-known use of the word in English may be as the title of a 1953 Broadway musical, which featured "Stranger in Paradise," among other songs.
Liz Fowler writes:
Whence comes the word "kismet," and what is its proper use?
The word kismet means 'fate' or 'destiny', and comes from Turkish, a language underrepresented on this page. In Turkish it means 'portion' or 'lot', and is a borrowing from Persian qismat, which itself is a borrowing from Arabic qismah, akin to qasama 'to divide'.
In English, kismet is used, for all intents and purposes, as a synonym for 'fate', albeit a rather cool-sounding one. From Rudyard Kipling: "It is my Kismet. No man can escape his Kismet" (Kim, 1901). From F. Scott Fitzgerald, as a heading: " KISMET Within two weeks Amory and Rosalind were deeply and passionately in love" (This Side of Paradise, 1920).
The best-known use of the word in English may be as the title of a 1953 Broadway musical, which featured "Stranger in Paradise," among other songs.
The plane lands and I trip down the stairs
Hi there folks. I haven't been ignoring you I promise. I have just been busy. Those who know my other site and where I have been posting more of my thoughts and all know kind of what's going on in my life. I'll shorten the last few weeks for those who don't know that site.
I went to the homeland some weeks ago and just got back from my second trip. I wasn't planning on going this second time but I had the tickets and thought it would be good. You'll know why I didn't want to go in a bit. My dad did come here for Xmas. He left the wife behind so that was good. He stayed here with me. It was weird to say the least. Ok now so a little sad news. My brother-in-law who is one of my bestfriends was diagnosed with cancer. So he's here getting treatment. I have been spending a lot of time with him. He might end up living with me while he's here. I am ok with that since my sister has to go back to Europe because of work. It's speading and they think that they can control it all but we'll see. I start school again soon to go after yet another degree. I'll spending all my extra time there. I am tutoring for extra cash so I make my own schedule which makes life a lot easier.
There isn't much else to say. I haven't seen Pasha in weeks and we don't talk like we used to because we're both so busy. My dark lover, I still have contacted him since his break up with his girlfriend. I'm not sure if I will. Her and I got into a spat about the entire thing a month ago when they were still together adn we ended up working things out. It might not be a good idea to hook up with him if her and I are to remain friends. But there's something that just tells me I should try.....I don't know yet. Right now it isn't a priority. Well things are good in life I guess.
I went to the homeland some weeks ago and just got back from my second trip. I wasn't planning on going this second time but I had the tickets and thought it would be good. You'll know why I didn't want to go in a bit. My dad did come here for Xmas. He left the wife behind so that was good. He stayed here with me. It was weird to say the least. Ok now so a little sad news. My brother-in-law who is one of my bestfriends was diagnosed with cancer. So he's here getting treatment. I have been spending a lot of time with him. He might end up living with me while he's here. I am ok with that since my sister has to go back to Europe because of work. It's speading and they think that they can control it all but we'll see. I start school again soon to go after yet another degree. I'll spending all my extra time there. I am tutoring for extra cash so I make my own schedule which makes life a lot easier.
There isn't much else to say. I haven't seen Pasha in weeks and we don't talk like we used to because we're both so busy. My dark lover, I still have contacted him since his break up with his girlfriend. I'm not sure if I will. Her and I got into a spat about the entire thing a month ago when they were still together adn we ended up working things out. It might not be a good idea to hook up with him if her and I are to remain friends. But there's something that just tells me I should try.....I don't know yet. Right now it isn't a priority. Well things are good in life I guess.
Man, you remember when.....
If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, (even if we don't speak often) please post a comment with a COMPLETELY MADE UP AND FICTIONAL memory of you and me.
It can be anything you want - good or bad - BUT IT HAS TO BE FAKE.
When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people DON'T ACTUALLY remember about you.
It can be anything you want - good or bad - BUT IT HAS TO BE FAKE.
When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people DON'T ACTUALLY remember about you.
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I just found out one of the most interesting things. My dark lover is free!! I can't believe it! I could make my move while he is still fresh in a break up and looking to rebound. Or I could give him his time and then move in shortly thereafter.
Going to the homeland was fun and I met some interesing people. I learned a few things about my vampirism and was told I need to begin to train myself for an encounter. I was approached by a lovely older women who has been awakened to her own vampirism for about 25 years and she told me several interesting facts about myself and those around me. It was a good trip. I'll be going back in two weeks to spend the solstice with my family.
Going to the homeland was fun and I met some interesing people. I learned a few things about my vampirism and was told I need to begin to train myself for an encounter. I was approached by a lovely older women who has been awakened to her own vampirism for about 25 years and she told me several interesting facts about myself and those around me. It was a good trip. I'll be going back in two weeks to spend the solstice with my family.
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I am back. I've been back for a couple days. I'll post something of some interest later. Right now I am not really in the mood to spill thoughts or anything like that. Love you all. Bye.
Absent
I am packing right now because I am heading to Greece. I am going to see my grandparents and will be leaving for a while. So I will be quiet until the 25th or 26th. I will be having so much fun and dancing and singing and being yelled at to not speak english and cover up my cleveage. The sad thing is that almost all of my family knows italian and the greek dialect my grandparents speek except me. i've been trying to learn it but I live in America now we speak english here. Anyway I just wanted to let everyone know that I will be away for awhile.
Xposted everywhere
Thoughts remaining form the silence of the darkness.
Waking up with my t.v. watching me.
Sighing in realizations of lost sanity.
Kissing calamity.
Dancing with depression as a partner never forgotten.
Spacing
losing consciousness.
Dying to achieve but failing to believe.
Living to try again.
the past talks from the depth secured,
mind lies a heart of a chalice
shattered glistening beyond repair.
Cracking breaking tempered and saddened.
Tears stream and blood spilled.
Waking up with my t.v. watching me.
Sighing in realizations of lost sanity.
Kissing calamity.
Dancing with depression as a partner never forgotten.
Spacing
losing consciousness.
Dying to achieve but failing to believe.
Living to try again.
the past talks from the depth secured,
mind lies a heart of a chalice
shattered glistening beyond repair.
Cracking breaking tempered and saddened.
Tears stream and blood spilled.