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Saturday, September 1st, 2018 09:48 pm
I wanna let myself want you
But it’s dangerous for my mind
I wanna let myself believe
You and I’d have a good time
I wanna let myself be bold
I wanna let myself be cold
And I wanna let myself be free of your hold
Thursday, August 30th, 2018 03:03 am
 Well two odd things. 

A random young man man offered me a bottle of water. It was new, unopened and cool. When I asked why, he said 

“I was just buying one for myself and I saw you walk buy. It’s nothing,” 

then he said,

”I’m a black man, this is what we do for our black women” 

interesting indeed. I suppose it isss hot afff out here, and the train station is only slightly better.

then an almost odder thing happened, but just because it was directly after the last thing. 

This is all happened on the platform at 34 st while waiting for the E. The dude that bought me the water got on the A, and out of the A an old blind man came out with his walking stick. I asked if he was looking for the exit, but it didn’t appear that he had heard me. I touched his arm and he jumped and snapped at me

”Now I don’t need that miss!”

”Sorry” I said.

i guess it makes sense, if I were blind I wouldn’ Want random people touching me either. Even if they are trying to help.

but what an eventful 60 seconds of my life.
Wednesday, August 29th, 2018 05:18 pm
Didn’t expect to have as much fun as I did, only because I’ve never been to a concert before and didn’t know what to expect.

I got standing tickets, I was worried that my semi-short ass wouldn’t be able to see well, so I brought my glasses. It was actually quite fun. I was close enough to see the sweat dripping off this guys forhead, and omg is he much cuter in person.

I somehow ended up engaging with this tall, English doctor who was there on vacation with some of his friends.

Random indeed.

He turned out to be pretty cool; I can honestly say I dug his vibe. His friend, who was much more extroverted offered to buy me a drink, which I capitalized on. It gave me the opportunity to talk to this dude—lets all him Homy. I’d gone to the concert alone, and I was content with staying alone, until a free drink come into the picture. Left to talk to Homy, we spoke about music and then, somehow, the black spirit and it’s strength.

Heavy for a concert? I don’t think so. I like having deep conversation no matter where I am. I know most other people don’t though, so to be having it with some random, black British doctor at a Drake concert no less, had me pretty intrigued.

When Drake came on, I lost my mind.

Not really, I’ve got pretty great composure, but I was liiiiitttyyyy.

Wednesday, August 29th, 2018 05:09 pm
 Currently at work.

The place I empty enough, I’m thinking of posting my music on here.

Plotting
Plotting
Plotting

I SHALL FIGURE IT OUT


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Tuesday, August 28th, 2018 06:27 pm
 I'm going to my first big concert, I get all the way to the train station and I suddenly realize that I don’t have the ticket with me. 

My dumbass left it at home, tucked in between my passport in a top drawer.

Whats wrong with me? Or what’s wrong with the world?

Is fate real? Or am I doing this all to myself? If it’s in the middle somewhere, why can’t I change myself into what I want. I’m still a broke hoe living at home with my family. My social skills still suck, my emotional life is chaotic and I’m genuinely worried if I’m sane or not.

I wanna bang my head against a wall.
Thursday, August 23rd, 2018 11:59 pm

Perfection isn't real. Imperfection is why we exist, according to Stephen Hawking.


This may be true, but would he like me though???


Would he look at me, or would he look through me?


Would he see me, or would he see just another girl?



Fuck.

Thursday, August 23rd, 2018 11:50 pm
I don't wanna dress for business,
Or put on a smile
I don't wanna try and win,
Or race for a mile
I just wanna wear jeans,
Or sweatpants today
And put off my efforts
Until later, okay?
Like tomorrow
Or the next day
Or the next
'Cuz it hurts,
'Cuz it burns,
'Cuz it pains me to work
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