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ello, i am new. i always interpret my dreams by symbols, but sometimes it's more complicated than that. you see, i really don't know why but almost every night i dream about my ex. i went out with him like 2 years ago, and it really wasn't a big deal but last nights dream was the weirdest. what i don't get is the fact that i never really think about him unless i dream about him, and my DREAMs have been making me think about him a lot. for the past 6 months (maybe more) he has been in my dreams almost every night.
i have a boyfriend now who i have been dating for two years, and I love him to death! i wouldn't trade him for the world, we are two peas in a pod. he's a virgo and i'm a capricorn. our relationship is awesome and i never loved someone so much. but why am i dreaming about my ex so much? i have no desire, but i feel i'm predicting something. i don't know why.
now- in real life- my ex and i didn't have a good relationship. he was kinda a jerk, and really didn't care. i would see him about 2 times a week if i was lucky and he was always really distracted. he was a pisces. we dated only 5 months, he never met my parents (which made it worse) never came to my house. he really was my first boyfriend and because we didn't get to know eachother before we started to date, it made it very hard for me to be myself. i was always around him, usually with his friends, and i was super quiet. if you knew me, i am the total opposite. i really can't understand why i could not be myself. that was really the first time in my life that i could not be myself. thing is, i kept prolonging it because i felt it was worth it, and i was really really infatuated with him. i broke up with him one day because i realized that no matter how hard i tried, i couldn't get close with him because he wouldn't open up and he was just weird too so ii thought, ya know, i don't care if i'm so attracted to him, that's not everything and i want to be happy. the thing is, after that we never hung out again and we broke up over the phone so i really didn't get to tell him how much i really wanted to get close to him. i didn't get to tell him how much i admired his wittiness and the worse part is, i never got to show him who i really was. i feel like if i opened up, he really could see who i was and he could of fell for my easily, but something (gut feeling) just kept holding me back...anyway...
i always have dreams that i see my ex, and we are at a party and we connect then by the end of the party im trying to look for him but i can't find him anywhere.
last night, i had a dream that my present boyfriend, went away for a week to check out a college out west that he wanted to check out for grad school. (this dream was super long too, day and night). and i encountered my ex. for that whole week, we started hanging out. it was in the present time now, so i was myself. he just seemed to start falling for me. i was falling for him. i went over his house, slept over, we went to parties together and finally we kissed. it felt so real and i just felt relief. i invited him over, and i said you HAVE to see my room. you never saw my room before and it's really cool so maybe you will get an idea of who i am. he just looked around, looked through my doors and my stuff and he seemed so infatuated with me. it made me feel so good and i kept thinking about my real boyfriend and how deceiving i was being.( in real life, i never cheated before and i don't plain to) then finally, one day it was raining really hard and we wanted to go to this party. it was raining cats and dogs and we walked to the party in the rain. it was very liberating. i could feel the water in the dream too, and we were barefoot. it was warm rain too. by the time we got there, we were covered in mud. my friends were there and his friends were there. my friends knew what was going on and i remember feeling really nervous to approach them because they are friends with my present boyfriend. they just seemed happy for me. my ex also met my sister at the party and she came up to me and told me that i must be so much better off with my ex because he is so much more like me than my present boyfriend. but in real life all my friends that he was a shady jerk. not shady as in cheating, but shady as in he had some issues.
anyway in my dream i was so suprised. it ended though with me at the party, everyone was almost gone at this time and i was still looking for my ex. i couldn't find him anywhere. i was looking under the table in the kitchen, outside, everywhere. i felt stranded. i don't want to dream about him, but why if i'm so happy where i am, why do i keep having these dreams about him? the night before i had a dream that i redecorated my porch and he just randomly knocked on my door to see what i was doing. we had dinner together in the new room and he spent the night with me, but he slept next to one of my friends instead and i was pissed. i remember he told me when we broke up that if we encountered eachother someday again, then it would happen and everything happens for a reason. he told me i met him at a bad time in his life. i see him randomly sometimes because we go to the same local college. its usually from a distance, sometimes i stop into him. i don't really think much of it. i just really don't understand why he is in my dreams every night, then i wonder if he dreams about me this much or maybe i'm just weird.
i have a boyfriend now who i have been dating for two years, and I love him to death! i wouldn't trade him for the world, we are two peas in a pod. he's a virgo and i'm a capricorn. our relationship is awesome and i never loved someone so much. but why am i dreaming about my ex so much? i have no desire, but i feel i'm predicting something. i don't know why.
now- in real life- my ex and i didn't have a good relationship. he was kinda a jerk, and really didn't care. i would see him about 2 times a week if i was lucky and he was always really distracted. he was a pisces. we dated only 5 months, he never met my parents (which made it worse) never came to my house. he really was my first boyfriend and because we didn't get to know eachother before we started to date, it made it very hard for me to be myself. i was always around him, usually with his friends, and i was super quiet. if you knew me, i am the total opposite. i really can't understand why i could not be myself. that was really the first time in my life that i could not be myself. thing is, i kept prolonging it because i felt it was worth it, and i was really really infatuated with him. i broke up with him one day because i realized that no matter how hard i tried, i couldn't get close with him because he wouldn't open up and he was just weird too so ii thought, ya know, i don't care if i'm so attracted to him, that's not everything and i want to be happy. the thing is, after that we never hung out again and we broke up over the phone so i really didn't get to tell him how much i really wanted to get close to him. i didn't get to tell him how much i admired his wittiness and the worse part is, i never got to show him who i really was. i feel like if i opened up, he really could see who i was and he could of fell for my easily, but something (gut feeling) just kept holding me back...anyway...
i always have dreams that i see my ex, and we are at a party and we connect then by the end of the party im trying to look for him but i can't find him anywhere.
last night, i had a dream that my present boyfriend, went away for a week to check out a college out west that he wanted to check out for grad school. (this dream was super long too, day and night). and i encountered my ex. for that whole week, we started hanging out. it was in the present time now, so i was myself. he just seemed to start falling for me. i was falling for him. i went over his house, slept over, we went to parties together and finally we kissed. it felt so real and i just felt relief. i invited him over, and i said you HAVE to see my room. you never saw my room before and it's really cool so maybe you will get an idea of who i am. he just looked around, looked through my doors and my stuff and he seemed so infatuated with me. it made me feel so good and i kept thinking about my real boyfriend and how deceiving i was being.( in real life, i never cheated before and i don't plain to) then finally, one day it was raining really hard and we wanted to go to this party. it was raining cats and dogs and we walked to the party in the rain. it was very liberating. i could feel the water in the dream too, and we were barefoot. it was warm rain too. by the time we got there, we were covered in mud. my friends were there and his friends were there. my friends knew what was going on and i remember feeling really nervous to approach them because they are friends with my present boyfriend. they just seemed happy for me. my ex also met my sister at the party and she came up to me and told me that i must be so much better off with my ex because he is so much more like me than my present boyfriend. but in real life all my friends that he was a shady jerk. not shady as in cheating, but shady as in he had some issues.
anyway in my dream i was so suprised. it ended though with me at the party, everyone was almost gone at this time and i was still looking for my ex. i couldn't find him anywhere. i was looking under the table in the kitchen, outside, everywhere. i felt stranded. i don't want to dream about him, but why if i'm so happy where i am, why do i keep having these dreams about him? the night before i had a dream that i redecorated my porch and he just randomly knocked on my door to see what i was doing. we had dinner together in the new room and he spent the night with me, but he slept next to one of my friends instead and i was pissed. i remember he told me when we broke up that if we encountered eachother someday again, then it would happen and everything happens for a reason. he told me i met him at a bad time in his life. i see him randomly sometimes because we go to the same local college. its usually from a distance, sometimes i stop into him. i don't really think much of it. i just really don't understand why he is in my dreams every night, then i wonder if he dreams about me this much or maybe i'm just weird.

