Or so I have heard. And apparently Squall was...or is in Balamb. Not sure if he has left yet or what. *shrugs*
Quistis is alive and well. Which is always good. I miss her, Squall too. I haven't seen Selphie either. It seems everyone is going their seperate ways again.
I want to see Seifer. It's been awhile. Too long. And where the hell is Irvine and Zell! So many people leaving and distancing themselves. It's sad but I can't complain because I did the same thing before.
Not much has happened. I have been hanging out with Selphie a lot. I am not sure what is going on with that mission thing...Squall will keep me posted I'm sure.
I talked to him the other night. Things are going good for him which is wonderful to hear. And despite myself, I told him about my crush. Now Selphie and Squall know which is fine. I trust them both. It helped to talk about it ^_^.
Anyway, I am not sure about Dollet but it is looking better and better everyday. *shrugs* I'll just wait until I'm ready to leave.
I woke up today with a cough. Not good. I hate being sick.
I haven't seen anyone since the party. Whats up with you guys? *shrugs* Im still hoping for that girls night out! And I need to talk to you Zell. Its super important.
Anyway. Dollet is looking better and better. Not sure how much more of this room I can take. Even Angelo is getting restless.
I've been seriously thinking about moving these past few days. To Dollet.
I need to talk to Zell and Selphie about it first though. I won't leave if they don't want me to. I'm not sure if I will anyway.
The only reason is, I think this place holds to much of my past. I can't get over something if im reminded of it everyday. So I was thinking it would be nice to get out for awhile. The only thing is, I don't want to leave Selphie and Zell alone. Especially now that Quistis is gone.
Well the good news is that lately, I have been very happy. Smiling a lot and such.
There really is no bad news to tell so yea...ha ha. Selphie, Quistis and I are having a girls night out soon. That should be fun. We never really get to do things like that. I'd also like to talk to Zell about some things. But he'll be here in Balamb so that can wait. And I still wonder where Irvine is. No one has seen him in ages. I hope everything is ok.
Angelo has been rather quiet lately. Wonder what he's thinking.
I have always wondered why things happen. And usually I don't dwell on it but for some reason I have. I have sat in my room for months and wondered what I could have done wrong to make things change.
But the past few days have opened my eyes.
I never concentrated on moving on. I always made myself believe if I waited long enough he would come back with open arms. But than I had that break-down. Not only did I disappoint all of my friends, but also myself. This isn't me, not what I want. I don't want to dwell on this anymore. So I won't. If I try, I can and will move on.
We can be friends. After all I love him for him. So its fair to love him as a friend. I will be there for him always. I need him to know that.
Anyway, I look forward to getting back into my old routine. Hanging out with Selphie and Zell. And where is Irvine?
Im sitting in my dorm alone right now. While everyone is at the Quad having a ball. And as I sit here I realize that this is a waste of time. I saw it in his eyes. He is over me, over this. And maybe I will never be...but I can still try. I haven't wanted to try until now.
I think I will get dressed and find them. I think I can do this. I want to do this.
Gosh. This is exactly how I feel. </3> Now I'm sitting here Thinking about you And the days we used to share It's driving me crazy I don't know what to do I'm just wondering if you still care I don't wanna let you know That it's killing me I know you got another life you gotta concentrate baby Come back... to me Can you... hear me calling Hear me... calling for you For you...
It's been too long and I'm lost without you What am I gonna do Said I been needin' you, wantin' you Wonderin' if ur the same and who's been with you Is your heart still mine I wanna cry sometimes I miss you
I... can't... breathe... no... more Since you went away I Don't really feel like talkin' Don't wanna hear you don't love me Baby do you understand me I can't do a thing without you
It's been too long and I'm lost without you Tell me what I'm gonna do Said I been needin' you, wantin' you Wonderin' if ur the same and who's been with you Is ur heart still mine I wanna cry sometimes I miss you
