sdlucly, posts by tag: real life - LiveJournal

I need to post this for future reference... men are assholes. Plain and simple. Holy shit. Will expand on it tomorrow.

Okay, so there's this story I've been meaning to post in a while. It's a work story (meaning, it's something that happened and keeps on happening to me at work) and I just, well, exorcising it works for me, always has.

There's this boy at work that has a crush on me.

Yes, you read that right. It's that. DUDE. WHAT THE HELL?

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It's like it doesn't even make sense. Its not even that I didnt study. I wish it was that because at least that would make sense you know? I didnt study ergo I deserve to flunk and never graduate. But its not that! I studied my fucking ass of. I have the god damn notebook filled with dozens of solved problems to prove it!! I passed my exam but for the grace of god. Or Ottazzi. Literally. Its bittersweet and I hate it. Must meditate on this.

Dude!!! I just found Teen Wolf and I gotta say that yes, it's very much a soap opera in MTV but I don't really care! There are wolves and boys and mostly a wolf that most definitely has a crush on a boy... or the other way around! It works!!! DUDE!!! (I, of course, I'm talking about Stiles and Derek! Derek! The wolf that's very very grumpy and moody and I love him!!!!)

*bounces* I'm so happy watching the new show. It has two whole seasons and right now I'm wondering what it is I'm doing here when I could be watching my new soap! *giggles*

Also, in more academic news... just this and next week left of classes, and then the first friday of July... I have my very last test! I WILL BE DONE!

What do you say when you friends ex (like not even a week since they broke up) tells you "you should know, I always had a crush on you". I mean. What the hell right????

 

How do you answer that!!!!

Okay, so remember how I was just four classes short of my graduation? And then college changed the curricula and then I was two subjects short of my degree. TWO. JUST FREAKING TWO! So I realized that was a sign from the God all mighty that I had to get off my butt (three years working and I had totally forgotten about, oh, yeah, getting my degree!) and get cracking. So I did (with the help of a friend of mine, Jessika, thank you so much!).

I took Seismic Resistance last semester and now Concrete. I think I studied more in the first two weeks of that semester than in my last year at school. No, really. Now I'm kinda having a hard time finding the groove again. I'm tired most of the time, but I have read almost enough. I have this week and then next week on friday my first test. Here is to actually passing all the concrete tests this semester, right?

Okay, so someone commented on Sullen today. SULLEN.

DO YOU ALL REMEMBER SULLEN?? DO YOU REMEMBER? God.

I wanted to finish that fic so much. I just... I really wanted to be done with it, as much as I wanted to be done with A shadow across and Shadowboxing. Just... what I wrote (in the last nano that I participated in, with this fic at least) wasn't good enough. It wasn't even close. The writing was kinda subpar, at least afterwards when I read it. Which I guess makes sense, because I was... what, 25 when I wrote that? God. And I wanted to change so much of the script but... I mean, I would have had to cut entire scenes and change stuff around... it was so much work! I'm sorry but if I end up posting more chapters, they have to be decent chapters! Not what I wrote back then but better. Not so mushy and not with Kirsten calling herself mommy so much. I guess it made sense back then, now? Not so much.

I do promise you one thing, when I get home... I'll open up the file. And the other two files that I have pending. And as soon as I'm done with this semester (just three more weeks!!) I'm sitting down on a weekend and writing. One way or the other. I swear.

I'm at class and I'm tires as hell. Even though I slept until 8 because my class is at 11 and if I go to work and then try to come back to school (which is like 3 minutes from my house) then I wouldn't make my class at all. I've been like this for the past three weeks. I think even though I'm sleeping quite a bit... its still not enough. God, studyong and working sure is hard as hell.

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So I'm in bed, liiterally. I really like this eljay android app. I tried to use the lj original one but it doesn't automatially use caps for start of sentences and stuff. Not cool. At all.

Even after all this time, sometimes, its not quite easy. It's been two ? A little under and... well, its weird. It doesnt make me sad anymore, just kinda angry and frustrated. I guess I can have a bit of leeway with it. We were together for almost nine years, right? Its not like I'm not dating or anything. I'm seeing this guy, George, from college. It was all kinds of easy to start a relationship with him, mostly because we'd been friends for so long. Almost too easy.... I don't know. Nevermind.

Anyway... rambling over here. Actually gonna slee now! Night!!

So it's been... what, five years? Maybe a bit more... Seven years? Since the last time I made a real big change in my layout. I have. I have changed it. Mostly because, well, as much as The OC still defines me, it kinda doesn't anymore. I mean, I will always love those boys, they are MY boys, you know? Sometimes it feels like they are my college friends, and I kinda miss them. I'm still trying to write, even if I'm not making much headway. But I am! I still owe 60schic one birthday fic (no matter that it's, what five years late?). I'm still writing that one. It's actually kinda of a good story. Ryan becomes friends with this girl that's taking two classes with him and starts liking her. It's Ryan/Seth (as if I could write anything else?) but, it kinda does a detour that I'm still very pleased with. I need, what, five more scenes in that fic? God.

Anyway. Coming back to the point I was going to make. I've changed my layout, because it was time for a change (it really, really was) considering this livejournal is more about me and whatever the hell might be going on in my life right now, than The OC anymore. I changed the default pic as well, to this one. A coat! I do wish the coat was more grey or brown, way more me. Really more me.

I'm glad, in a way, for the change. It was time for one. It has been for such a long time.

Also, I need to get myself a new zippo. I got myself a new zippo after the breakup, and then not even a year later stupid thing got lost in a work camp thing. God. Stupid thing. Gotta get myself a new one. Like, right now. Tomorrow right now. I feel like I'm not myself without one in hand. *shrugs* I'm weird like that.

That said, off to bed. Take care!