My Last Chance To Take Desire With Me Into Depression

Sorry to say but I am joining the bandwagon with the friends only because I'm sick of you nasty fucker anonymous assholes. Please just comment on this and I'll see what I can do.

::Mori::

okay, well yet another thing I lost interest in.. I'm leaving most of my communities because I really don't see much point in having so many
I'm sorry

if any of you want in them

_emo_glamour, asian_boiz, emo__kids, emo_is_love, emoholics_anon, hot___andretro, hot_emo_lovers, hotemokids, japanese_boys, patheticclub, wanton_kids, whatalooker, xxbeauty_unfold

enjoy

I got bored yesterday so I put mesh, make up, chick pants, and all on.. ^_^ attempted some bondage pictures

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As for today I went to Chris's for band practice for awhile and his little sis was annoying us and I'm going to go throught his very vaguly so yeah..

We went to sarah about 6:30 and decided to go to the mall...

just to do something we decided to see a movie and sarah spent 10 minutes trying to convince Adam to come... wooohooo

Man I felt like I was on acid today... bye

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so yes I have a little journal thing I kept while I was gone, but alas I am back and I have photos to go along with the journal so those will be added and posted later night night

Well I guess I've been pretty happy getting to spend time with my cousin that I never do, the only one that is actually my age ^_^ woooeeeett... Yesterday I blew fire in her face.. and today we ran from my little cousin's house to come over here so we wern't so damn bored... um...

My cousin is leaving tomorrow morning at 5:30am so she will be in colorado for a few days... and then I leave on Friday to go to the Rockies.. then back to Florida on the 20th, and I will be going to the Warped Tour so don't worry about that... and I guess I'm on the hunt for a new girlfriend now... I have a little journal thing I was writing while on the car ride up here so I'll post it up when I get back since it's on my laptop... ::hugs:: to everyone..and I hope I can call a few of you when I get back ::nudges:: heh...


so I must be going since blah..
Good night and sweet dreams everyone I miss ya

::Mori::

mType your name with your:

nose: (HOLY SHIT THAT m at the begining was my nose!!) mori yatsui

elbow: mori yatszui

tongue: mori yatsui

chin: mmmorii yatsuik

feet: mori yatrsuji

eyes closed and one finger: mori yatsui

back of my hand: mori yatsui

palm: mori yatsuoi

wrist: m, ori byqatzszuhij

butt: l.o'[;/;/
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p;/['.<?; I hate you all.... I just broke my nine key and this is a laptop...

You know something, I feel de-sexualized... A little 6 year old girl or something was so like "Mommy!! That girls has her hair dyed!!" ..........Enough said

Okay so yesterday around 4pm I left to go to the mall with Erika (The tanned tennis player that makes me run and hide) , Jessica (no making out in trees anymore), and Quinn (Which I finally met)...

Um... I was caught pissing on a dog sign that had little hydrants all over it.. and we all had very perverted minds that day ::hehe:: that was freagin weird. No more hand strokes or crossing legs. pwweeeaassee..

Let's see at 7pm my dad got pissed at me cause he had to go to martial arts and I wasn't waiting for him yet.

So he drove me over to Chris's and we waited for like 40 more minutes for Rachel's ass to get there cause she's slow..!! and Chris.. the dye didn't do shit to your hair at all!! I totally wanted to fuck it up but you can't even get a good dye.. PSH... His dad said he liked my hair ^_^ hehe... We played Soul Caliber 2... and got pissed at Rachel cause she kept winning..

Then I went home... and talked on the internet.. and then watched a movie until about 5am.. then I put on a concert video and watched that as well and then to bed around 7:45.. and woke up at 8:30 to go to martial arts...

I'm watching a commercial about softening your skin.. I think my skin is soft enough ^_^ heh

After martial arts we headed to Sam Club to get some drinks for our trip that we leave for tomorrow...

A little girl said the shit she did and my dad says "it's because she looks like a boy"....::shrug:: hehe...

um.. now I'm watching something about Usher and being completly bored before I go to guitar.. this is the last night I will be able to do anything... sooooo help me out won't ya?..

::Mori::

Well this is my second time typing this all up because livejournal hates me and I wrote some shit about not knowing about somethings and that Japanese Americans have the highest suicidal rate in American and that next year during school I am trying to achieve and Japanime appearence..

And that I'm a dip shit and no one cares...

I had a little lyric piece I wrote but I can't remember it and I really don't give a shit to try to remember all the fucking details..

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I'm sick of myself now.. I hate summer because all I do is sit around because no one else will talk to me. and I think... and I hate when I think because I spend too much time thinking and being alone... I'm always alone now, I have no one.. I wish I could... but there's always something blocking it... I've spent a few of my nights talking to Sarah and I enjoy our conversations... but I hate the fact that she lives in Texas... and the person I like isn't in the city...

I'm sorry... I'm depressed and I can't help believing in something that will kill me...
I wanted to attack my father today because he was telling me I shouldn't waste HIS ink on my poetry that might further advance into something that I use to support his unmannerful ass even though the only thing I'll pay for him is to put him down.. I don't give a shi.... I'm so sick of everything I do...

I've thrown up twice today but I don't know what it's from cause I havn't eaten anything today...

And I've been trying to point myself into fixing up my personal appearence to take my mind off of the rest of me for awhile... I'm starting to get abs (the top 4) for now, I've been running at night and around 5am each morning... and practicing driving everyday...

My brother's beginning to get happy again probably cause he found a girl that he likes and he's on a date with her right now at her house... whle I'm laying in his room using his computer charger...

I wonder if I had blood going through my hair, if you could tell it was blood if not just my hair... and I want a car right now..so I hate the age I'm in right now.. on the verge of cardom yet I havn't any.

And I've been thinking about my cousin's new baby was just discover to have "Progeria" which makes the childs skin not expand the way it's supposed to and they end up looking like they are in their 70s or 80s when they are actually just little children... and she will die by the time she is 14.... They have all the diseases that old people contract such as arthiritis as children as well...Progeria Look around on that site to see what they look like..

As well as that disease.. I've been thinking about my brother and I having cancer... parts of me are wishing that I had it, and other parts are saying no.. but I wish my brother won't have it... It'd be better if it went to me instead of him if it did one of us.. he's living and happy, he doesn't let things get him down like I do.. I can't stand the way I think

I think that's enough of my minds thoughts to hand over... good night...to everyone that can sleep



EH FUCK IT THE OTHER ONE DECIDED TO ACTUALLY GO THROUGH NOW... I hate livejournal...