For
lastvoyages: Thirty-Fourth Hex [video+spam]
Mar. 5th, 2013 11:30 am[Wanda spent the last few days mostly hiding in her room. She woke up from pleasant dreams of being truly free from the first time in her life to discover a week had passed, three people she had kind of liked had cooperated to unleash a horror onto the Barge just for the fuck of it, and most importantly--she is still trapped. The longer she is forced to stay, the more she suspects that she has long since proved worthy of "graduation" and that the Admiral is drawing things out, breaking his own rules to force her to stay longer. Suffer more. She's tired of it--tired of everything. Him, this place, how it is run, being forced to be a captive and subordinate to others who often do little, if anything, to exemplify the "greater good" they're supposed to be pushing people towards. It's all wrong, every bit of it. And she can't stand it anymore.]
[She appears onscreen in the midst of a room that has been completely disassembled, clothes and stacks of books laid out everywhere. The one chore she's assigning herself, outside of taking care of Fozzie and keeping up on practice, is deciding what to take with her when she goes. Planning to leave is the only thing keeping her halfway sane right now, but to those not clued in to that it looks like she randomly tore the place up.]
You know...I've been a model Inmate since the week I came here. I took a trustee job right away. I cooperated. I never hurt anyone regardless of whether they were trying to kill me at the time. I helped out when there were crises. The only thing "wrong" I ever did--and that only according to certain people with fragile, bloated egoes who think faked happiness should be mandatory--was refuse to pretend I wasn't miserable. In a normal prison, one that isn't staffed by so-called heroes, I would at least have gotten time reduced for good behavior. But here?
Here, I've watched mass murderers, megalomaniacs, psychotic perverts and other absolute scumbags graduate past me in a fraction of the time I have been here, often within days of doing something horrible to me or even to everyone. I've watched so-called "heroes" turn their backs on real problems, not only refusing to do anything about them but attacking me for bringing them up. Obviously needed reforms get ignored, and the people who point them out get shouted down. And people like me, who aren't that bad, or maybe just need a therapist instead of being fucking imprisoned, are forced to spend our days keeping company with ragingly evil psychos who could go off at any moment, and suffer the same Warden disdain and lack of privileges that they do.
All that being "good" has gotten me here, aside from rights that were granted to other Inmates just for showing up and having a buddy among the Wardens.... [She pauses. Yes, she's looking at you, Charles.] ...is exploited. Including by someone I thought was a friend.
[She leans back, folding her arms, a hard smirk on her lips.] In light of this mountain of bullshit...I quit.
Find someone else to feed half the Barge every lunch shift for months at a time. Find someone else to ward your doors and seal up the fucking hull when the next crazy bitch makes us crash. I've tried to contribute to the community here. I've done way more than my share. But now I realize is that all I've been doing is to help prop up a system that is royally screwed up and hurts more people than it helps. And yes, when Inmates work their asses off to save this place, and with a few exceptions most of what they get is the grudging admittance that "gee, maybe all Inmates aren't complete assholes"...there is something deeply wrong with the way this place is run.
As of now, and until that sociopathic piece of crap you guys work for lets me go, I'm taking a vacation. That means I will be spending my time as I damn well please, taking no orders and putting in no labor unless you're a personal friend and I feel like it. Any Warden whining can be directed to Laura, because she's the only one of you with any say in the damn matter, and one of the only ones who deserves respect.
[Inmates only, filtered away from Morgana, Junko, Toto and Ladd]
Yo, hey, whoever's in the pub, let me in, I need a drink. Anybody else need a drink?
[later pub spam]
[Wanda has taken over a largish table in the corner near the jukebox, which she is poking at with small blue flashes of magic to try and reprogram it. Meanwhile she has every bit of Stones, AC/DC and every pot and booze related song she could find queued up. Fozzie pants away happily under the table. She's never brought him in before.]
[She appears onscreen in the midst of a room that has been completely disassembled, clothes and stacks of books laid out everywhere. The one chore she's assigning herself, outside of taking care of Fozzie and keeping up on practice, is deciding what to take with her when she goes. Planning to leave is the only thing keeping her halfway sane right now, but to those not clued in to that it looks like she randomly tore the place up.]
You know...I've been a model Inmate since the week I came here. I took a trustee job right away. I cooperated. I never hurt anyone regardless of whether they were trying to kill me at the time. I helped out when there were crises. The only thing "wrong" I ever did--and that only according to certain people with fragile, bloated egoes who think faked happiness should be mandatory--was refuse to pretend I wasn't miserable. In a normal prison, one that isn't staffed by so-called heroes, I would at least have gotten time reduced for good behavior. But here?
Here, I've watched mass murderers, megalomaniacs, psychotic perverts and other absolute scumbags graduate past me in a fraction of the time I have been here, often within days of doing something horrible to me or even to everyone. I've watched so-called "heroes" turn their backs on real problems, not only refusing to do anything about them but attacking me for bringing them up. Obviously needed reforms get ignored, and the people who point them out get shouted down. And people like me, who aren't that bad, or maybe just need a therapist instead of being fucking imprisoned, are forced to spend our days keeping company with ragingly evil psychos who could go off at any moment, and suffer the same Warden disdain and lack of privileges that they do.
All that being "good" has gotten me here, aside from rights that were granted to other Inmates just for showing up and having a buddy among the Wardens.... [She pauses. Yes, she's looking at you, Charles.] ...is exploited. Including by someone I thought was a friend.
[She leans back, folding her arms, a hard smirk on her lips.] In light of this mountain of bullshit...I quit.
Find someone else to feed half the Barge every lunch shift for months at a time. Find someone else to ward your doors and seal up the fucking hull when the next crazy bitch makes us crash. I've tried to contribute to the community here. I've done way more than my share. But now I realize is that all I've been doing is to help prop up a system that is royally screwed up and hurts more people than it helps. And yes, when Inmates work their asses off to save this place, and with a few exceptions most of what they get is the grudging admittance that "gee, maybe all Inmates aren't complete assholes"...there is something deeply wrong with the way this place is run.
As of now, and until that sociopathic piece of crap you guys work for lets me go, I'm taking a vacation. That means I will be spending my time as I damn well please, taking no orders and putting in no labor unless you're a personal friend and I feel like it. Any Warden whining can be directed to Laura, because she's the only one of you with any say in the damn matter, and one of the only ones who deserves respect.
[Inmates only, filtered away from Morgana, Junko, Toto and Ladd]
Yo, hey, whoever's in the pub, let me in, I need a drink. Anybody else need a drink?
[later pub spam]
[Wanda has taken over a largish table in the corner near the jukebox, which she is poking at with small blue flashes of magic to try and reprogram it. Meanwhile she has every bit of Stones, AC/DC and every pot and booze related song she could find queued up. Fozzie pants away happily under the table. She's never brought him in before.]
[spam]
Date: 2013-03-05 08:53 pm (UTC)Mostly it's the Stones that draws him to her when he gets there.]
Jagger's good for the soul.
[spam]
Date: 2013-03-06 12:37 am (UTC)I'm Wanda.
[*Thoomp thoomp thoomp thoomp* There is a tail going under the table. Fozzie crawls out partway and snuffles at the new guy.]
And that is Fozzie Bear. He's harmless unless someone attacks me or you're smuggling bacon.
[spam]
From:[spam]
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:no subject
Date: 2013-03-05 08:54 pm (UTC)You tell them darlin' go have your fun and be free.
no subject
Date: 2013-03-06 12:42 am (UTC)(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:[spam]
From:[spam]
From:[spam]
From:[spam]
From:[spam]
From:private;
Date: 2013-03-05 08:55 pm (UTC)private
Date: 2013-03-06 12:43 am (UTC)[inmate filter]
Date: 2013-03-05 09:05 pm (UTC)[inmate filter]
Date: 2013-03-06 12:45 am (UTC)[inmate filter]
From:[inmate filter --->spam]
From:[inmate filter --->spam]
From:[spam]
From:[spam]
From:[spam]
From:[spam]
From:[spam]
From:[spam]
From:[spam]
From:[spam]
From:[spam]
From:[spam]
From:[spam]
From:[spam]
From:[spam]
From:[spam]
From:[spam]
From:[spam]
From:[spam]
From:Private;
Date: 2013-03-05 09:06 pm (UTC)Maybe she can still get Doyle to take that lunch shift. Regardless, Steph figures that Wanda probably needs this more than any of them can know. And, well, she's not Wanda's warden anymore. But she's still her friend. So she can be supportive. ]
Hey. You wanna hang out? We don't have to talk about anything warden-y, no strings attached.
Private
Date: 2013-03-06 12:54 am (UTC)Private
From:Private
From:Private
From:Private
From:Private
From:spam
From:spam
From:spam
From:spam
From:spam
From:spam
From:spam
From:spam
From:spam
From:spam
From:SPAM
From:SPAM
From:SPAM
From:SPAM
From:SPAM
From:SPAM
From:SPAM
From:SPAM
From:SPAM
From:SPAM
From:no subject
Date: 2013-03-05 09:09 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-03-06 12:57 am (UTC)U-uh...thanks. You comin' up to the pub?
(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:voice
Date: 2013-03-05 09:34 pm (UTC)Enjoy yourself. It's probably long overdue.
voice
Date: 2013-03-06 01:05 am (UTC)Thanks.
[Awkward. She's torn between DAMMIT WHY AM I NOT OUT TOO and a healthy helping of I KNEW YOU COULD DO IT, DUDE. But...]
Look. I uh...need to confer with you as an Awesome Science Dude. It's not for me.
voice
From:voice
From:voice; private
From:voice; private
From:[private]
Date: 2013-03-05 09:45 pm (UTC)What were you supposed to have done wrong to get here anyway?
[private]
Date: 2013-03-06 01:11 am (UTC)There are things that need to be reformed here. Like, what happens when an Inmate gets dumped someplace alone with no resources? Or needs help and has a bad relationship with their Wardens? Or what about those Wardens who work and work and work with different inmates for years, graduate no one and thus never get paid?
[private]
From:[private]
From:[private]
From:[private]
From:[private]
From:[private]
From:[private]
From:[private]
From:[private]
From:no subject
Date: 2013-03-05 10:05 pm (UTC)So I have to ask: what more did you expect? The universe is amoral. Nobody cares. Splitting a ship full of people into two arbitrary groups doesn't change that. And martyrdom only really works when the all-powerful being looking over your shoulder wants nothing more from you than your self-sacrifice.
no subject
Date: 2013-03-06 01:17 am (UTC)Wait. Why in the hell would I even respond to some crazy, murdering bitch who can't handle friendly overtures without developing a raging case of twat-icicles, and is currently acting like a vicious thirteen year old looking for a reaction?
Yyyyyeah, sorry, I've outgrown wasting time on people like you. But have a nice life.
*click*
no subject
Date: 2013-03-05 10:35 pm (UTC)I hope you don't completely give up on the idea of goodness, though. Being good sometimes really sucks and, yeah, people sometimes take advantage because they think they can get away with it, but then sometimes you have these moments when you realize you made someone's life better or saved something precious, and it makes the pain you went through to get there feel like it was worth it.
no subject
Date: 2013-03-06 01:21 am (UTC)[Private]
Date: 2013-03-05 10:50 pm (UTC)A magic user?
[Private]
Date: 2013-03-06 01:22 am (UTC)Fairly user-friendly witch too.
[Private]
From:[Private]
From:[Inmate Filter]
Date: 2013-03-05 11:10 pm (UTC)If you still want company, luv, I'm available.
[Inmate Filter]
Date: 2013-03-06 01:26 am (UTC)[Inmate Filter] -> [Spam]
From:[Spam]
From:Private
Date: 2013-03-06 12:18 am (UTC)Don't let anyone tell you they're starving.
[It's a blunt statement of fact: he didn't come to his decision easily, but he's made it and he's not really capable of shame about something this pragmatic. Still she should hear it from him.]
Private
Date: 2013-03-06 01:27 am (UTC)Private
From:PRIVATE
Date: 2013-03-06 01:09 am (UTC)[Even if you're not, Wanda, she's gonna find you. :| She just wants to be nice about it.]
PRIVATE
Date: 2013-03-06 01:27 am (UTC)PRIVATE --> SPAM
From:SPAM
From:Re: SPAM
From:SPAM
From:Re: SPAM
From:SPAM
From:Re: SPAM
From:SPAM
From:Re: SPAM
From:SPAM
From:Re: SPAM
From:SPAM
From:Re: SPAM
From:SPAM
From:no subject
Date: 2013-03-06 08:44 am (UTC)...Well said.
no subject
Date: 2013-03-07 06:47 am (UTC)(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:no subject
Date: 2013-03-06 09:19 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2013-03-07 06:52 am (UTC)(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:[Private]
Date: 2013-03-06 11:49 am (UTC)It also sounds vaguely like something Shego would punch me for.
You going to be all right?
[Private]
Date: 2013-03-07 07:00 am (UTC)And I'm glad you like my sammiches either way.
[She sighs.]
Truth is....You're one of the people here that I wish I could just meet again when I've gone and sorted all my crap.
video;
Date: 2013-03-07 03:47 am (UTC)video;
Date: 2013-03-07 07:53 am (UTC)Re: video;
From:video
From:Re: video
From:video
From:no subject
Date: 2013-03-07 03:48 pm (UTC)Quite a speech.
no subject
Date: 2013-03-09 03:13 am (UTC)[Wanda looks up from the jukebox and smiles sadly.] Yeah, well, I've stood up for everyone but me, and I'm sick of it. If this place really is for redemption and the greater good, then...how did I end up trapped here for two years and left with God knows how many years of therapy and recovery ahead of me just to get over it? There are a lot of things that shouldn't have happened here. To me, to other people...it has to stop. But the Wardens won't listen. Oh, Laura will, but even friends of mine just don't care enough to change things here.
[She quickly grabs a swallow of whatever frothy lemony-smelling drink she has in hand to try and calm her nerves.]
Most of it has been a nightmare, and I didn't deserve it.
(no subject)
From:(no subject)
From:[Private]
Date: 2013-03-07 11:00 pm (UTC)[Private]
Date: 2013-03-09 03:17 am (UTC)Also the whole "feeding half the Barge each lunch shift without a break, adequate help or any pay" thing. Not the last straw--more like the last anvil.
[Private]
From:[Private]
From:[Private]
From:[Private]
From:[Private]
From:[Private]
From: