let me take you down

I can update, I can update! I swear I can! I'll write more later! I really will! Right now I've got a bed and a boyfriend calling my name and really now, who am I to deny them?



And I have the utmost of sympathy for the Helm's Deep crew because of trying to stay with Orli as much as possible through this time.

Orls had his birthday, we celebrated and I gave him a number of gifts. He deserved them all. I've got more little treats in store for him whenever he needs a pick-me-up.

I owe Billy ice cream and something nice, he owes me something nice too.

Lij's gift will be finished soon, I promise! I really do! I have like four more pages to it, but it'll be done soon. I'm doing the best I can but I hit a bit of writer's block and well, being as I'm writing the entire sodding thing, writers block definitely impeeded my progress upon it.

Things have been going along rather swimmingly lately though I will confess to having been rather out of it and a touch anti-social. I'm deeply sorry about it. I'm trying to amend it but I end up so tired or distracted at times! I'm working on it.

Liv... I apologize for any sights and/or sounds you may have witnessed in the past few weeks. Had to get that out there.

Chris, I cannot listen to Queen without thinking of you now. Curses.

And now this utterly scrumptious apple is stealing my attention, oh and Fran too, but the apple first.

Sometimes, like now, there are no words. And there's little consolation to make anything feel better once more. One can do naught else but try.

I swear, put the two of us together and it gets scary. Both of us are full of twitchy energy and just flat out goofy. Bills is my man-wife and Lij is my nerdy soul mate, but Orli and I, I swear... fun times always had. Even if we'd met at like some pub back in England I think we'd have ended up close friends, if not this way.

All I know is I've been laughing more than I have in a long time because of him. Granted, not always in situations meant for laughing, but hey, laughing is laughing and laughing is good. Yes.

We all need a proper surfing date, who's game? Need to have fun with Vig and Bloomy before PJ steals them off for Helm's Deep and tries to kill them. And Craig too, almost forgot he was going to be roped into that part of the film. Must use Craig too!

So, right then, who's game?


...has anyone seen my man-wife? I've seemed to have misplaced Billy. Alright, off to terrorise the masses. Mwaha!


OH! Chris, can I get a picture of you biting me a la Dracula one day? My mates back home would die to see something like that. I know Dracula, God that's wicked!

i was dreaming of a past
and my heart was beating fast
i began to lose control
i began to lose control
i didn't mean to hurt
i'm sorry that i made you cry
i didn't mean to hurt you
i'm just a jealous guy
i was shivering inside
i was shivering inside
i was trying to catch your eyes
thought that you was trying to
hide
i was swallowing my pain
i was swallowing my pain

Right, like the song says...well, that is pretty much everything that's been going on lately. Lij and I made amends, and he attacked me for teasing him on his age. Fourteen, right? Totally. And then been spending much of my time with Orlando when he's awake and my family's asleep. They're heading back in intervals. Matt's going to be the last to go, thankfully, but Mum and Dad'll leave the same day I go back to work. It works out there. They've fully understood why I've been spending so much time with Orlando and encouraged me to spend time there. They were going out and being tourists anyways, and there are some family friends over in Australia so hey, worked out on all fronts.

I got to spend New Years with Orli and it was amazing. Absolutely brilliant and just, oh my god amazing. I'm still grinning like an idiot because of it. Happy boy, let me tell ya.

Oh, and Lij, I'm still wearing the shell. I think I love it about as much as you seemed to.

What else... uhm, nothing really. I need to get some updates online about my lads and other than that, I think I'll go crawl back into a bed now and enjoy the rest of my evening. You have to love New Zealand, only place other than Scotland that sees the day after New Years as a holiday to celebrate. I think it's a hangover day, but ya know what? I'm not hung over (for once) and I'll just enjoy the time with dearly loved ones.

Hope everyone else has had a nice New Years so far!

I am sorry. Please, forgive me.

Happy bloody boxin' day and merry fuckin' christmas!

Sorry about everything. Pissed at me? I'm sorry. Problems resolved, drama over.

Orlando.

There.


if you don't see me for a couple of days or hear from me or something, start checking the morgues and tell PJ to CG merry the rest of the film or something. whatever.

matt's done puking and is cleaned up. we're off to drink wellington dry.

I honestly do keep forgetting that there is a digital diary. I've finished another leather bound one within the past week, to be honest. I've put about twenty pages or so into this new one. I don't think it will reach the New Year at this rate, not in the state that my mind has been. Not in the least.

I would rather not get into a whole mess of mental and emotional things, not right now. Spirits are too high around me and I am not going to do a sodding thing to mess those up. I'll keep my mouth shut, stick to my bottles and my pen and I'll be fine enough. It'll come to pass.

Thank the bloody Heaven's my parents are here. I literally spent hours the other night curled up on the couch, propped up against my Mum and just let her play with my hair and talk about anything at all. I didn't care, I just wanted to hear her voice, I wanted to smell her perfume and shampoo, to know she was right there and not halfway across the fuckin' world from me. Dad took me on a proper pub crawl later that night, we were the knights of each pub as any Monaghan men should be and I've been worshipping the fact that I can wake up in the morning and go outback to play a round of footie with Matt while spouting off various facts and switching languages just because we can and want to. It's like a game, follow the language. It inevitably turns into follow the bug and/or reptile once we spot something.

I'm so glad they're here, but uhm, well...I miss her.

So, Merry Christmas and Happiest of Holidays, and I'll try to be a bit more social in the upcoming New Year. I promise.

Every once and a while, I do take the time when I'm just sitting around waiting, and waiting, and waiting, and waiting... to be made of good use to write down a proper update for this thing. Ask anyone, I'm either obsessed with the millions and millions of re-writes I have to memorize in fifteen minutes or I'm scribbling in one of my leather bound journals, that or I'm running around and trying to do twenty things at once. I'd much rather be doing twenty things at once but I have that nagging urge and compulsion to write at the moment.

Damn muse.

Let's see, it was my birthday this past week. Yay. Lonely compared to the others -- well, save maybe the last one since that last one was spent in Paris. Bloody French... sorry. Anyways, I'm used to having a celebration at the Dry Bar with a certain group of my friends back in Manchester and having the obscene amounts of Monaghans wish me well. This was different but it was enjoyable. Lij got me a mighty fine beer and I did get taken out for the evening by a good number of people. We went out to some club, honestly don't know the name, but Viggo nearly got me kicked out. Alright, you guys know me, I'm the guy who always looks like he's up to something even when I'm not. I'm just too cheeky for my own good. At least I'm well aware of this. Vig comes into the club, finds me, walks right up and headbutts the daylights out of me. I crumble and come up swearing and red faced and disoriented. What happens? Security tries to throw me out! And it was my birthday! So Vig explained, Sala backed us up and things calmed down and I played in the DJ booth for a while and the night was quite enjoyable.

I also spent a great deal of the week listening to the Beatles and Lennon, mourning his loss and whatnot. You do know he died on my birthday. Happy fourth birthday to me, yeah? At least I wasn't older to be fully crushed by such an event. If it'd happened before I was born, then I'd try to claim to be his reincarnation, but alas, I can't pull that one off either. At least my day will always be important for a reason though and I'm in good company, too.

Orli's back, I'm a very happy boy about that one.

Last night I was talking to Doodle and it struck me. We're making history. This is Lord of the Rings, I'm Merry, and I'm part of the Fellowship. I actually get to sit and talk with Treebeard, and I'm working with the likes of knighted actors of great respect and infamy. How awesome is it that I can walk on set and see both Sir Ian's and Christopher Lee? That's so amazing to me. I mean, this is absolutely huge and it was completely overwhelming to me last night to think that there was this whole story that I've been raised on and loved immensely since I was a teen, and now I'm a part of it. Future generations and even current ones, when they read the books once more, they'll be putting our faces to those names in their minds. Our voices for their voices and whatnot. It's just... wow. Then the nerd in me started to act up. Movies like this, well, they make action figures out of them. We're going to have action figures! That's amazing. And then, what if they make a video game? Elijah and I nerded out over the idea of being in video games. And since he's our beloved Frodo, that means we'll get to play as him and control his every action and movement. I wonder if it works the same if we shove a controller cord up his arse... get him drunk one night and I'll find out. ;)

So I've been absolutely blown away recently and then I'm once more back among fantastic company and back to planning revenge upon some people. Watch your backs, mate, there's a Monaghan on the prowl. None are safe, bwahah! I love you all and shall cause you no physical harm and you know it.

I'm in talks with my family, seeing who can come down here for the holiday season. I really, really want to see them all. Especially my parents, brother, neices and nephews. They're the main ones. I'm not going to ask my remaining grandparents to travel, they're in failing health and quite frankly, I'm not going to tempt the Reaper more than needs to be done.

And really, aside from that... I think I'm out of things to say for the most part. Oh, and Astin I think is plotting my death. Who would've guessed that he would not enjoy Finnish techno and rap music prior to the sunrise? Not my fault we were late getting the coffee to brew, honest! Lij, Bills and I are evil, what can we say? But you have to love the Hobbits, we're so adorable. I know the Elves love me at least, but who could ever resist my charms?

What does your handwriting say about YOU?

You fill every waking moment with activity.
You are a shy, idealistic person who does not find it easy to have relationships, especially intimate ones.
You are diplomatic, objective, and live in the present.
You are not very reserved, impatient, self-confident and fond of action.
You like standing out and making sure that people know your mind.



It's bloody hard to write inside of that box! Especially with a mouse... I love my sharpies so much more.