If tomorrow I don't pass the exam... I can't finish university in november, but I'll have to wait february... and so my possibilites to go few months in bruxelles will just go away, I already am 50% of going, but if I fail the exam tomorrow those become 0%
I'm in total panic right now... and what i'm doing: I'M WRITING A POST IN LJ????? I can't concentrate on the stuff I have in front of me and am looking all around searching for stuff to do, while I SHOULD STUDY because I know almost nothing =O=....... well I do know the basis... BUT IF HE FUCKING ASKS ME NAMES I'M SO GONA FAIL
1. I failed the history exam I had on 9th July, so I'll have to re-give it on 14th september 2. I passed the exam I did on 30th June 3. I got new thesis title: asterix and versailles no bara: france and japan confronting each other 4. I should be on vacation actualy....... but I have so much to do, that I don't feel being on vacation... 5. I had lot of fun helping with choirs on the seghizzi 2009, even if i didn't slept a lot (4 hours per day) 6. I can't wait next week when my real vacation will begin (for 10 days) at the sea side, unfortunatly without connection...
Then after what happened in the previous post, I did go there for the exam at 2pm. At 2:40pm there was no prof, we were all waiting, then I got this faboulous idea to call a friend ask her if she has the prof's cell number, and she did, we called, and the prof said that the exam started at 2pm but in another buliding.
I was WTF???? And run there. I was nervous, stressed and whatever, lost like 50 minutes of the exam, and it was NOT my fucking fault, but the diorganisation of the uni, because they wrote the wrong building for us of the second and third year....
AND IF I FAIL THE EXAM THEY ARE SO GONNA HEAR ME!!!!!
I SPOKE WITH GRANDMA ON THE PHONE TODAY, and she already is doing like she wasn't almost dead two days ago. She also wanted choccolate... she said that I have to pass the exams now, so I will defened the thesis in november and finish the university. So she'll live to see it, and I said that after this she defenetly will be at least another 10 years around.
The bad thing... I went yesterday to speak with my french prof.... and she commented that I actualy did enough for passing, but she didn't want me let pass with the lowest mark possible for passing, because if she did, i couldn't got the higest mark during the oral... i wanted to scream: WHO THE HELL WANTS A HIGH MARK IN FRENCH, i'm simply happy if I pass, I DO NOT LOOK AT HOW HIGH MY MARK IS... I have fucking 28 years, i need to finish this shit and find work, and maybe if I manage with all this work problems have childre... i don't have time to look at how high my mark is... I don't know, she must be stupid or wtf. =_ = to think I could have had only 3 exams to prepare... stupid prof...
My mom today will try to help me with my english assigment... because believe me... CAD and SFG are something.... I can't seem to catch quite well... actualy... I don't even know what are we talking about ==
...as I already knew... I failed the french 3 exam (because the bitch hates me, it's impossible for me however much I study to pass it the first time)... so people...
... ok I actualy failed the statistic exam... but i knew it, so I'm not really sad... I'll re-try it in the begining of the july! Now... tomorrw I would have english exam, and I have 1 day to preare it and it's already 5 pm... and I have it like tomorrow at 10 am - but I found out that the next time I can take it, it's actualy like in 13 days... on 26th... But tomorrow is my lucky day FRIDAY THE 13TH and I'm still gonna to try do it, because till today friday 13th always gave me great things (me and my bf got together on friday 13th and full moon) - so I'll still try it!
now I'm going back to study ._. still better do the exam before then later, nee?
...pessimistic
...bitchy
...sleepy
...anxious