I miss you so much it physically aches. Hurts so bad it feels like I cant breathe. I fill mydays with so much activity I barely have time to breathe but the nights are so incredibly painful and lonely and they sem to go on forever. I just want so bad to pretend none of this happened and have u come home to me.to be in your arms and celebrate our anniversay but you don`t even care if we spend it together. All you care about is every conversation going your way. You were a jerk, a complete and utter asshole and you gave up on us.You were mercilous and calous and tossed me aside and gave us like n chance of being together. I begged you to talk to me and you were too busy avoiding reality,all responsibility and frankly being a grown up and dealing with reality. You were willing to lose me and our marriage because you were too busy being childish to work to save it. And now you want to work it out if theres any way we canÉAnd you barely even care about that like its no big deal that you get this unbelievably huge chance after you threw it away....And the messed up part is I stilll love you I still want you and unlike you I can`t be such a fucking child that I put my anger ahead of our marriage.Should I even consider taking you back somedayÉI dunno but i hate mysle ffor even thinking it because if there`s anything i know its that you don`t s
deserve it.