Running is like life, its a long journey, but well worth it

 I DID IT.

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I thought I'd never do this. oh well. I have my reasons. no biggie anyways.

man my hair is so soft right now...like one of those pantene commericals.

I'm drinking vanilla caramel truffle tea. and its in like this cutesy nice fabric bag. lipton is upgradin, yo!

i hate cankersores and this break is like offically retarded for one reason. well, one main reason. and that, my friends, is THE WEATHER. I hear the wind whistling and blowing right now. spicy. 

the kittens just started opening their wee lil eyes. 

HEY i went to steak and shake today with the boys. and steph. WOOT.

my head kinda hurts. so heres some pictures. bye.

>=O!! Its so ironic that I eat soo healthy and I get sick so easily. I got pneunomia and the flu in less than a 2 month span. I just got over the flu but now I have bad cold symptoms. & guess what, being sick = no running. this is the part where I shoot myself. 

I already took 3 days off (unfortunately) and I feel bad about it. this morning at practice, we were gunna do 8 400's, but I could barely do em! I cried like 3 times at pratice, I'm so dissappointed in myself. and I do this every single time. I beat myself up even though I shouldn't. Running is just my life...myself, my team, my coaches, and my parents want me to succeed and when sickness comes to halt everything, I panic. I hate this. 

I'm in some real need for LSD. not the drug, its a runner thing. 

my lungs feel like theyre bleeding. 

and honestly, I'm the only one who has homework over break. well me and the euro kids. but seriously sdjkshkajag/dfhda./

this break will suck.

oh, p.s. splenda had her kittens on friday. 


Teary-eyed, nose running, wipe the snot on my sleeve; 
I'm callin on my savior to be all that I need

sometimes I just feel like a big dumb jock. like one of those sterotypical football players who are obessed with sports but they suck in academics. even though I did get a 4.1 last semster, I don't think I can pull it off this semster. Its not like its easy for me. Sometimes I sit in school watching girls my age doing work and actually understanding things and acing tests like typical nerds. ugh.

well I'm glad the track meet got cancelled today. I was wearing HEELS the whole day! I seriously cannot comprehend how girls  can wear those things. Its like sucicde for your feet and calves! anyways I got my period today and my lower back pain is kicking in, like usual. ughhh. 

& for the record, I have NOT done anything with endrit. thanks for the rumors you idiots. 

so guess what my mom told me today after I told her I'm going to 2 proms...."Rachie!! you get around!!" hahah oh man. she is so excited for me. I'm not even excited...prom is too much effort and I'm too lazy. 

so, my one regret about my junior year is taking AP Euro. the work is immense and I BS my work, my tests, EVERYTHING. I can't believe I'm taking the AP test. I'd rather slit my wrists, literally. and I'm not the type of person to do that.

after Erik's MTV debut or whatever, theres newspaper articles about him. this is weird. 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DAVE and Dan's bday party is on fri I'M SO EXICTED! =D 

have you ever thought... like what if your future soulmate or whatever you wanna call it is like right in front of your eyes? or they go to a different school? or live in a different state? mann....I mean if its meant to happen, it will. 

I can't believe spring break is here?! dang. I'm not going anywhere except maybeee up north (gag). otherwise I'm just staying here, running. school's almost over... and then I will be a SENIOR. how weird. and college....AH. I don't wanna think about that because it stresses me out...esepcially the scholarship part. =/

OH YEAH my mom already signed me up for senior pictures! GSDHGJSGHDJGSAGHWEI she wanted to get this deal. typical mom. I'm getting them in June and I don't wanna do it. It will be awkward, and I have nothing to wear. I will have my annual sports bra tan and my hair will be gay. gosh. 

I guess I will post a few pictures since I know everyone enjoys those even though it takes too much effort. no one even looks at ljs anymore if they don't have pictures, because they don't care what people want to say or have to say. how selfish. 

Granholm, ha what a joke. women shouldn't run a state or a country *cough* hilary clinton*cough, unless theyre cool and know what theyre doing.

dang,. i can't wait till college....cause the guys will be different, mooreee mature and hootterrrrrrr. yessssss. i get excited everytime i think about it haha. 
soooo
i'm procrastinating on ap euro and ap english. nothing new. I'm still wondering whether to take the AP test for euro....I loathe the class and I am not lying by any means when I say I know nothing. seriously. 84 bucks for a test is mucho grando. annnnd idkkkk blah. I'm taking 2 AP history classes next year too...soo i dont know what to do. help/. 
half- day tommorow suckassss.
I can't wait till its warm CONSISTENTLY everyday and the sun is out so I can play :). 
OHHHHH YEAH my brother's MTV show airs TOMMOROW at 11:30 pm. He won't be on this first episode but he will be on the 2nd episode on March 23rd i think. please watch cause if a lot of people watch then that means the show will continue! 

sooo I had the worst weekend in the world. seriously I can't even remember when i had such a bad weekend. long story short= getting really aggravated at people on fri and wasting money, crying myself to sleep at 2 AM on sat, boy problems, waking up to a phone call at 4 AM sat and being dragged to Detroit to save someone's butt and homework. 

yeah.

track is pretty gay right now...maybe the meets will make things spicy. my nerves are the worst. time trials are on wednesday and I'm already frickin nervous. My blood pressure rises whenever ever ever I think of races or running or idk. its just boils my blood.

eh I'm gettin tieyurd and my glasses are makin my eyes hert.

oh yeah french sucks. theres no way madame's curriculum is persuading me to take AP french next year. no frickin way.  

I finally know what song I want to be played at my wedding.

so uh, I don't even know where to start. but all I can say is that this will be a rant... I guess. 
I get so annoyed/bothered by people. 
I hate money, and the fact that I have zero of it. zerrro. 
I hate owing people money. 
I hate it when people forget.
People always assume things. that quote, "if you assume, you make an ASS out of U and ME" should be a national quote or somethin. 
goshhh I really hate wasting or spending money. seriously. I could honestly say thats a pet peeve of mine. 
I'm so cheap and frugal. Theres pros and cons to that. 
I need space badly when people get on my nerves...but I just need one, just one, person to talk to. Mitchell is the only person keeping me calm tonight. 
I hate sister ordeals. I hate that people think I'm some mean sister. But its literally my older sibling instict to want whats best for my brothers and sisters and to protect them. I can't help it...I care a lot about my family. ughhhh with track... I just want Ruey to succeed, for herself. Something for her to take pride in. but when shes not motivated, it bothers me. or she just doesn't try enough. and she lets so many damn people manipulate her decisions. and then I get frustrated at her...and peopple are like WHATA BITCH. shutup seriously.
I hate when people brag. and when they complain. but we all do it, right? I guess its only natural. but some people take it to the extreme. 
I'm thinking about so much...I could fill this lil journal with thoughts. but I won't.
GOSH people are so strange. no one is real anymore. 
I hate quitters. 
don't be selfish. please.
track will be tough this year. after 2 days, I couldn't walk without limping because of soreness. and I had trouble going up and downstairs. but I'm willing to sacrifice anything for that 5:15. 
idkkkkkkk, i'm tired. 
bye.
=/

seriously. what the heck is up with thin mints.  why does EVERYONE like them? they taste like crunchy rat tail with mint speckles. 

despite the ACT, today was friggin SPLENDID! the weather=auhhhhhhhh YES.  I'm glad to have the ACT over with...even though I swear I BOMBED the math and sciene parts. ugh. they were death. I finished 10 min early on the english and writing parts though...

girls didnt have track practice today but linds & I ran with the guys. and oh my gosh am I sore. I was already sore from VBM but mannn oh man. but I am SO PUMPED. the new coaches are the shiz. Mr. Montgomery (one of the new coaches) says he GAURANTEES I will shave 15 seconds off my 5:30 PR! and that means a 5:15 mile! that definitley makes state!!!!!! YAY. 

hmmm. 2nd update in a week. ballin. 
I like updating I guess. plus I changed my layout...sorta? idk how to work this lj stuff so its pretty big to me that I changed it lol. 

i'm excited for western and centrals proms! yus. and meets. yussssssssss. 

i actually like macbeth. should I be ashamed? I just loathe the questions. 

OHYEAH i got SUNBURNT a lil today! thats what I'm talkin bout yo. p.s. happy birthday mark =D

HAH. shows whos more mature...
wellll lol I actually am. roofee.