O.k i've joined the cult of facebook. so it's been a while since I've made a post. Since I'm not allowed to move around to much I thought now would be a good time to update. Pallas ,aka captain cuteness, is getting super smart he can now open drawers. Not being able to walk sucks but I'm glad that it wasn't anything life threatening, or blinding. We've made no new progress on the house, making being unable to walk even more frustrating. So many things I want to get done. I suck at just sitting around.
New cute cat Icon. Guess that's it everything else is just too much to post right now. There's a lot going on right now. I'm just hoping for a good out come. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger right?
So I'm trapped in the house today with a crucial cold, and the weather is not helping things. So I'm sitting here working on homework on my old as dirt Compaq ARMADA 7400 notebook I've had since well...I'm pretty sure since 2001! Yikes! I was cleaning out all of the out dated software since i needed some hardware space for my accounting software. which thank god I can run on this thing. And I discovered my old collection of high school music. which i forgot that i had downloaded on to this thing when we got rid of my old pc. How cool is that.
I've been feeling pretty stressed all month (whine whine I know) but between work and school,graduate school apps, and an ever growing mound of due dates I'm feeling a little frustrated, Plus the whole lack of sleep thing is really taking it's toll on my body. My blood pressure keeps bottoming out which is weird (ie; fainting and losing circulation in hands and feet even while standing), and I've been having a lot of sharp chest pain, which I'm pretty sure are just panic attacks. So in an effort to make things "better" I'm trimming the fat...
1. no warhammer for november, sorry guys, but me showing up and then falling asleep isn't fun for anyone. 2. I'm officially saying no to any obligations (ie:clubing, parties, projects, help with school work, problems..etc.) I'm sorry I love you guys and i want to help every one out with stuff, but, i have this problem with saying no, and i stretch my self way to thin often to the detriment of school and my health. so I'm just saying no to everything this month. 3. Going to eat better and get more exercise to try to over come this whole blood pressure/ heart thing.
sorry, I'm not trying to be an ass i just need to be selfish right now to get my shit together so I can be a happier healthier nicole.
I need to stop comparing my self to other people, and letting what other people think/say about me get to me. I've done a good both physically and mentally these past couple of months. I'm pretty proud of myself. I can't make my mistakes go away, I need to just accept them and move on. I refuse to feel guilty any more. If i want to eat chocolate i'm gonna eat chocolate, i'll go anywhere i damn well please regardless of who might be there, I will work harder, study harder, and kick butt in the gym.
Yesterday was interesting. Just kinda drove around virginia with conrad, with no real plan. I have to admit it was pretty fun. After work today gonna stop by Brian and Dave's place to sit in on a game of Mage. I'm both excited and scared, not really sure what to expect for the character, just gonna play it by ear suppose.
So Organic chem class is making me crazy. I wake up early so I can read and do practice problems, I do them on my lunch break at work, and I read my text book before I go to bed. Yet I still have sooo much that I don't really know that well. Yikes! I feel like my I'm neglecting my other classes as well. So Yeah doesn't look like I will be able to do much of anything this week... at least untill friday. By then I'll soo need a break.
It's windy and Cold"ish" out side, and it's supposed to be "cold" ie: 20 something degrees tonight. I for one am glad. Don't get me wrong folks I was enjoying the nice weather just like everyone else, but It's nice when winter feels like winter, as long as it doesn't snow when i have to be at work.
Had a migraine last night which made math class that much funner. Troopered through though. Then I got home and took my migraine medicine, and slept for 9 hours sooo nice. :) feeling great today! Also made a really great tofu and mushroom stir-fry can't wait to eat it for lunch today. Right now my kitchen is brimming full of produce sooo happy! I LOVE VEGGIES!
Romantic, hopeful, and composed. You are the Sonnet. Get it? Composed?
Sonnets want Love and have high ideals about it. They're conscientious people, caring & careful. You yourself have deep convictions, and you devote a lot of thought to romance and what it should be. This will frighten away most potential mates, but that's okay, because you're very choosy with your affections anyway. You'd absolutely refuse to date someone dumber than you, for instance.
Your exact opposite: Genghis Khunt Random Brutal Sex Master
Lovers who share your idealized perspective, or who are at least willing to totally throw themselves into a relationship, will be very, very happy with you. And you with them. You're already selfless and compassionate, and with the right partner, there's no doubt you can be sensual, even adventurously so.
You probably have lots of female friends, and they have a special soft spot for you. Babies do, too, at the tippy-top of their baby skulls.
ALWAYS AVOID: The 5-Night Stand, The False Messiah, The Hornivore, The Last Man on Earth
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