Never forget the times we had

I use ColdFX and Echinacea/Goldenseal and it seems to shorten the length of the flu!

When I have a hot bubble bath, put on my nice warm PJ's and then crawl into a nice warm bed with my hubby. That is what makes me all warm and fuzzy!

I haven't had a comment on my journal since may. I haven't had anyone reply to me since may.

I feel as if there is a part which I will never be able to know about you. A part which I wont be apart of, never fully. It saddens me.

 We came, we saw, we conquered. Seriously. We've found a place to live and I've gotten a job. All we need to do now is move in and find Paige a job. It's amazing. The house is fantastic. Its not overly huge, but its not too tiny either. It has a woooonderful bathroom, which I am extatic about. The bedrooms are alright, they're not huge, but big enough I would say. The furnituxre is included, which means we have a BIG screen tv, leather couches, beds, dressers, etc. its crazy. It's 1000$ a month, plus 1/3 of the utilities, which seems to me, that it wont be that bad AT all! Its close to the hub store and close to the highway which means easiness to get to my school. It's in a beautiful area, so green and lovely. Its like a little suburb area for the rich... Very posh. :D I like it alot. I think we totally did the right thing renting this place. We went and drove by the other place we were gonna look at... and yeah.. NO thank you. We would have been soo dissapointed that we passed up the first place.

I met with Blair yesterday and he was very nice. I also met with Tatiana, the infamous Tatiana. She is very nice. I am really excited to work there. I can't wait to do huge copy jobs non stop!!! :D

School! I can't wait to start school either! Omg, our little lives are happening.

I can't wait!

Peace out! XOXO Stephanie 

9 days.

I can't wait to go! I really can't ,it's going to be so exciting.
There are some things we still need, like a coffee table, and some more lamps.
I'm a little bit scared cause... Well it's a whole new world out there.

I'm scared about going to parties, I don't want to be put into a situation where drugs come into play.
I don't want anything to do with them.
That scares me.
I also don't want to get drunk in some strange place. Have no one help me. I don't want that to happen.
I wont let that happen. I will be smart.

I don't want to quit my dream. I want to be an animator, create characters. I want to pursue this. I want that, and I don't want to end up working for Staples for like 12 years. No, that would just be stupid. I wont let that happen either. That scares me.

I also don't want to be stuck in Canada. I want to travel again. I want to go somewhere with Paige. It saddens me greatly still that I didn't get much out of London. It was my fault because I was so worried Dorita was going to steal Paige away. Those online people still threaten me...

I'm scared moving away with Paige will ruin our relationship. I don't want that to happen, because I love her more than anything, and I don't want to drive her away. I know it will be me, because I'm so clingy. But I will try very hard not to be. Space, I will give space.

I'm having my going away dinner tomorrow night. I don't think Tara is going to be there. I know David is. It will be sad to leave them, but at the same time, I don't want to stay there. I just hope Tara will be there... However I think she is still away in Edmonton. I dislike Victoria for not thinking it through. :( She is very silly.

I'm going to miss my Parents. At the same time though, it will be good to get away. I feel I need to leave, that I'm being stifled greatly. I need to spread my wings, broaden my horizon, learn some life skills. I feel I'm stuck here in Powell River, with no options. I feel like a Zombie repeating the same meticulous task over and over with no life. While Paige was gone, that was just a nightmare. I have no other friends, so life pretty much sucked.

I fear that if Paige ever does stop wanting to be my friend, I will struggle to find another friend. That saddens me. I really don't want to be hurt again by my best friend.

I hate thinking about this shit at night. I always end up crying. >< Goodnight.

In 21 days, we're going to Vancouver. In exactly 3 weeks we're leaving. Done. Fin. Powell River is over with and we am starting a new life in Vancouver.
I hope I am accepted to the freaking Animation Fundamental Course. I was declined acceptance to the Commercial Animation Program. :( Ahh well, try again next year, hope for the best. :D

Cant wait!
Vancouver here we come!

So i'm sure i've pinched something in my back. I know it sounds like i'm an old fogey of sorts, but its making my leg hurt, the pain in my back now. I can sometimes stretch a bit here and there and it will ease off a bit, but only for a bit.
I know what I did. I was helping my dad out, and he asked me to go grab the pressure washer. The motor thingy that comes with it is about 30 lbs, which i found pretty heavy. I picked it up the right way and everything, with your knee's and was doing pretty good.
My dad finished off washing with it and asked me to take it back downstairs for him. Without really thinking about it, i picked it up the wrong way. It was a step lower than I and there was a garbage bag separating us. I forgot about its weight. So i'm thinking that in picking up that little 30 lb unit must be the culprit to why my lower back is hurting, along with it making my leg hurt. ><

Stupid stupid stupid. Its like sharp little pains here and there, and then a throbbing pain all the rest of the time. LAME.
I need to exercise more. ><
Ibuprofen and tylenol haven't helped either... I'm out of pain killing ideas. When i go home, i think i'll try lying on the floor again. Please help ><