destiny is overrated....

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i'm considering a name change - i'd still keep this journal, but would not really be using it (because i don't have the money for the official LJ name change token) - i want to know who would follow me to my new screen name

PLEASE don't skip commenting on this - thanks much!

what the mother FUCK?!?

YOU make the mess - YOU stir the demons - YOU fuck with my center of awesome

and HE has to clean up after you EVERY FUCKING TIME

my dragon deserves better than to have to clean up after someone else's bullshit

You come from the mists intending simple friendship - and yet there is so much more - so much clicks, so much FITS, it's hard to imagine how I could have thought anyone else was worth my while - and now, at this late hour, I would normally find myself wishing for sleep to free me from my demons - instead, dreams of a future that could be dance in my mind - I am entranced & hope that the music never ceases - perhaps you have succeded after all

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i know it kinda seems crazy, but any of the male trolls from World of Warcraft (i know, how pathetic) - they all seem to know how to party, and i always seem to fall in with the guys more comfortably anyway - plus DAMN those arms are sexy =D

Sephiroth would be an acceptable back up though - i bet, if we were BFF's, he could really use having someone he could talk to and trust - and it seems to me that when you have at least ONE person you can trust to say anything to, you tend to be WAY more mentally stable

to my friend bewarethejabb, i signed onto an editing project for you because i wanted to help you and your awesome story - i didn't think about the level of work it would entail - i didn't think about the things that were going on that i would let distract me from it - i knew it was something that would mean a lot to you and i really wanted to help you out with it and then i just didn't do it anyway - i'm sorry that i failed you - forgive me?

my friend ucdshoelace  has made a commitment to post every day for the next thirty days - you should join in! - post "anything, no matter how insignificant, long, or short-- for 30 days" - i intended to start tomorrow, but that's just procrastination, so here's today - please pardon that it's a little inane and devoid of any important anything

today is a day that i shrug and go "well, i can only do better tomorrow" - today had it's ups and downs - i got to sleep in, which is good - happened because mom took my son to church - turns out he was great at church, which is also good - but then the rest of the day fell to pieces until i had to work - i was excited to work because now i'm being trained again for the entry-level management position i was in when i last left blockbuster - crazy news: blockbuster is still afloat - anyway - happy to be training but i felt so blah about my day that to get ANYTHING done felt good - everything that i had tried to get done today before i went to work failed with the singular exception of picking up my prescription - i can't even fathom how the day managed to succeed at foiling all of my plans, but i guess if you want to make god laugh. . . .

it seems that Fox has a strange track record with TV shows - it sometimes cranks out awesome ones like Buffy and the Simpsons - but then it fails other awesome ones like Firefly - i was talking with my awesome guy today and this topic came up - here's what i told him regarding their shows:

i felt particularly clever about it - so i figured i'd share it here

• finish black/red blanket (finished size will be roughly 72"x90" =D)
• make corners for will
• make dice bag for will (need to determine draw string)
• finish editing commitment
• begin outlining and building for mushiness love history
• MY WOLVES

okay - whew  - that doesn't seem so bad like this - there is a LOT to do for the blanket though - still have something like 200+ 9" squares to cut and then sew together - then i get to snip the seams so it frays and then wash it like crazy

so it seems i found out where my muse has been hiding for a long long time now - apparently she's been hanging out with my guy, eating him out of house and home =P

which is to say that i've never had so many writing ideas in such a short amount of time - since i met him, i've gotten ideas for no less than THREE new projects and additions to the ones i already have in progress - i think this means he's good for me - either way, i'm happy

but OMG it's hard to keep up with them all

i have the road trip prompt that i posted to lobo_luna - there's a cathartic release sort of thing i want to write that catalogs my past loves/losses (it's probably going to be mushy and mostly for his benefit anyway) - i'd like to do something with the first of the two badass dreams i posted just a bit ago - i sent my guy this mushy thing that was SO MUCH more powerful because it was raw and unedited - i have new ideas for my leopard story - i've got plans to expand and get back to my wolves - my high fantasy remains out of the loop, but likely because there's been so much already plotted for it that the bulk of the work to be done on it now is to just WRITE IT