I got a chance to work out yesterday at the gym and for my birthday I want to do it again. I have a late class tonight because it happened to fall on my birthday, but I will not let that stop me. I am at 286 pounds and I want to keep going. I told myself last time that if I ever got back into the 290's that would be even more incentive to keep going. Other than that I yo-yo'ed between 308 and 317 pounds. I have to keep going because I am not getting any younger and I have to be at a better health stand point by the time I take my last class that I have to take before getting licensed. I won't be able to pay for my diabetic medications if I don't get better. I have also stated that I don't want to be like my parents. I've said it many times before, but this time as I am getting older I realized I really, really, really don't. I can't really explain.
I am thinking about a lot of things this year and I am thinking of my future, but I also have to remember that I can't think too much ahead or my anxiety will beat me up. When you get older you gain a little bit more perspective and wisdom. It may not be a big leap, but it's something that makes you think deeper each year. As usual my mind has been thinking about a lot of things, and some people (because of the holidays) are thinking about other stuff. For example, some people are calling it the "cuddle season" because cooler weather is coming and I know people get lonely. But, there are other ways to combat this without feeling the blues. If you've tried everything though you may want some professional help especially if that feeling gets too bad or too great for you to handle. I'm hoping all my friends are happy, healthy, and living a life that they love.
Aaaaand I think I just went off topic....
Getting older. Right...
Ah.... I got nothing. ^^;
Wish me luck on my gym birthday workout!
