no room for heroes

such a lazy day. i should be taking this time and doing some work but i work best under pressure i guess. instead i woke up around 1pm and proceeded to the cafeteria where i stuffed my face with enough food for ten people. then i came back to my dorm intending to do some work, but sat down and starting making a birthday list and talking to tara on the webcam. it's been so long since i've been able to sit here and do that. not that i have the time or anything, i'm just perpetually lazy. wooohooo. i rule.

five days until my birthday! hip hip hoorah!

it's going to be so much fun. my roommate is going home from tuesday until sunday. oh my gosh. that rules so much. if you have time, you must come and stay with me for my birthday. that would be awesome.

i should start getting ready. i'm walking my friend, Shulie, to the bus stop to go see her boyfriend. i need to pick up a razor. then i need to come back and do work so i can see my boyy tomorrow. =D woooo. adios.

I kill the band: ARMOR FOR SLEEP. 10$. @ CRANNELL ST. IN POUGHKEEPSIE. 730PM TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!







also known as THE CHANCE
dorks for sale: or not!
I kill the band: and yeah that place is great, go
I kill the band: um yeah it is but whatever
dorks for sale: it's not the chanceE!!!!!!
I kill the band: YES IT IS
I kill the band: ITS LIKE THE SAME PLACE
dorks for sale: I TALKED TO SOMEONE FROM MY SCHOOL!!!!!!!11
I kill the band: I WAS THERE I SAW THE SIGN
dorks for sale: ITS LIKE NEAR IT!!!
dorks for sale: i'm going to bite you
dorks for sale: dude
I kill the band: NO ITS LIKE RIGHT THERE IN THE SAME BUILDING, just diff entrances
dorks for sale: the thing said CLUB CRANNELL!!!!!!!!!
dorks for sale: oh
dorks for sale: well
dorks for sale: WHATEVER
dorks for sale: :-D
I kill the band: club crannell... @ the chance
dorks for sale: then i can peak inside too
dorks for sale: fine fine fine finefinfineifninienineine
dorks for sale: you win
I kill the band: of course ;D
dorks for sale: wtf!? i JUST updated that
dorks for sale: LIKE TWO SECONDS AGO
dorks for sale: !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I kill the band: the new thursday is good
dorks for sale: freak
I kill the band: HA I RULE

ARMOR FOR SLEEP. 10$. @ CRANNELL ST. IN POUGHKEEPSIE. 730PM TOMORROW!!!!!!!!!!!


i really hope i can find a way to go.

being here in college, i come to realize, is definitely a good change for me. i've met some really great people and i'm in the midst of developing some really wonderful friendships. just in what is almost just four weeks worth of living here, i think i've already calmed down a bit in my personality. i'm not so edgy all the time. my trust issue with people isn't at its all time high anymore after acquiring some really great friends. i think this might all be relative to the fact that i'm on the patch also. nevertheless, it feels good to not be so rambunctious all the time. i like that i can take things in, even things that bother me, and not have a nervous breakdown or throw it out in the open at the most awkward of moments. i feel like i can just sit back and think now. not always though. i think i have a fear of silence, of solitude even, although i have been able to just chill on my own more often than usual. i haven't even the time to sit back and relax. it's so odd to be busy constantly. i'm used to sitting on my big bum all day at the computer and wasting away time. now i actually have to do work and study. for the most part, i like that better. for example, in my cheap, shitty high school we were required to write just two papers a year. that was it. i never had a chance to develop my writing even though i always wanted to. everything i ever wrote i hated and if it was good i was shocked and it was coincidental. i think i'm already up to my fourth paper in four weeks and i already notice a slight improvement in what i have to say and expressing it clearly. i definitley have been a little lazy, but i think the more i get into school, the more i've realize that this is a lot more serious than how things used to be. i won't be walking away with a 99.l average (whatever gpa that makes) and not doing any work to prove it. i'm up for this challenge. i'm up for learning more about myself. i'm up for anything.

now my heart feels all tingly and excited. mmmm. lunch time.

i hate not knowing what's going on behind your eyes.

highlight of the day: found a free christian rock for the soul cd. GO ME.

i always seem to find the religious cassettes lying around. maybe someone's trying to tell me something. meh. agnostic fo' life.