On LiveJournal again

I mainly wished to do video journaling, searched on the internet, this website appeared on a blog, where the blog said it has a video option, but it's not free.  Right now, I am looking around my page trying to see where I can find what I am looking for.  


Random Thoughts

Got up at 11:30 ish.  While still in bed, I thought I heard Mom in the bathroom flushing the toilet, so I thought someone is home, but no, no one has been home.  They both went to Flushing.  Saw a movie actress named Kelly Marie Tran closely assembling Connie.  I know it is Connie.  I thought I could give the acting career another try, (thought it was some hint from Boss), I know it's just another joke.  12:50PM

Had ramens for lunch.  Logged back on LiveJournal, gonna type these to that site.  Swept, but did not mop, as usual, and have not taken out and cleared the trash can in my bedroom.  Sent Joshlyn a text message this morning, asked her to check with SPOA if I need information updated.  3:19PM

I am watching people on Opentopia again.  It's fun, security cameras & webcams anywhere I can find.  4:20PM

Had soup and two pieces of white bread for dinner.  Mom is home, father probably went to work.  6:29PM

Broke up with boyfriend again.

Just broke up.  Strange that I always thought THAT would be the man.  And it's like that every time.  No man no cry.  I knew I should have stayed away.  I just hope I will be strong on my own, and just finish up with school, and be good.  Calmer now.  Vented it out already.
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    pensive pensive

A new life


I got a new life.  I found a boyfriend, sort of.  I got kick out of the house though.  I have found my own place.  I actually lived at a ground home for a couples of months, then I found my own place.  I got a job at Starbucks.  Life is good.
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    determined determined

New thought


Last night I dreamt my mother was killed.  Everyone at home ran after her.  I did try stab her with a knife once.  And her voice is so ear piercing.  I tried to get her killed couple of time.  I put dish detergent in her water.  Then I wanted to get cyan, that should sure do the job.  I was too lazy to get it done though.   

Death messenger waited outside my bedroom door, I was so scared. 
  • Current Mood
    lazy lazy

new ringtone

I am so happy, bought a new cell phone, and downloaded a new ringtone, waltz of flowers from Nutcracker suite.  I feel like having a change of music preference, so I downloaded that ring tone.  I wish everyone will call me, so I can hear that piece of music.

My four leaf clover is growing.  I sowed five seeds, they all germinated, but none of them are four leafed.  They are three leafed, but that's okay, they look pretty anyway.
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    happy happy

A dead cat

My cat died today.  How?  Constipation.  

I removed her litter box.  Thus, she had no place to defecate.  I was very upset.  I removed her box to annoy Mother.  I thought the cat would do it all over the house.  She did not.  I could tell she was dying a few days earlier.  Her eyes were all cloudy.  It looked really painful too.  I wished I could help her, but couldn't.  I knew it was too late to take her to the vet, so I did nothing.

She collapsed before she finally died.  I stroked her.  She couldn't walk on that final day.  It was too painful to walk.

I loved her.  She has been a good companion.  And all witches have a cat anyway.

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    sad sad

Dreamcatcher and four leaf clover

 I bought a dreamcatcher and a four leaf clover kit, hoping to change my luck.  Not that at this time I am suffering mishaps, but I would like better luck.  I wish for a lot of things.  I think if my luck change then I would get what I wish for.  It's so unlucky to be me, born into this family, to that mother.  

Dreamcatcher would catches one's bad dream at night, when dawn comes, the bad dream evaporates into air.  

I wish I am real pretty, then boys would adore me, and give me all that I wish for.  And pretty girls are so much smarter too.  They must be very happy growing up and all through their childhood.  They have never suffered, that's why they have a pretty face.  My face is like totally distorted and wry, from withering.

I have a pretty aunt, and she is very smart too.  I heard her wisdom tooth grew way before she was mature.,  When I was younger, she would always take me to her house, to do arts and crafts works.  She taught me a lot of things that my Mother would never teach me,  therefore I like her more.  I like my aunt more.  

Keep living

I feel so dead!  Everyday is a drag.  So I thought of a way to keep me going, and that is playing.  I signed online, and surfed the web all day.  I went crazy, I screamed and yelled, for no apparent reason.  I watched MTV, and played and played.  I went shopping, and played and played some more.  

I am still depressed over that imposter guy.  You know, the one I told you about, the guy these girls made up.  I still look all over the place, hoping to see him.  These girls showed me a picture of this guy in suit.   

I love candles.  I like watching it melt.  I like the ones inside the glass.  The wax is trapped inside the glass, the fire either burns out or it burns the wax.  The wax doesn't drip, it burns inside the glass.  I usually spend a lot of money on candles.  I love candles.  Aromatic too.  I look for pretty ones, for instance, pretty glass, pretty color.

  • Current Mood
    depressed depressed

Disguise

I haven't written for a while.  What have I been doing?  Nothing much.  

I wished someone could shoot me last night, my mother forced me to take my medicine .  So this morning I got up all tired.  My all four limbs are weak. 

I casted a curse on myself that if I find my true love, I will die a brutal death.  

I met this guy over the web.   He is all the good things.  Later I discovered it was a joke from these girls.  They used some good looking guy's picture.  We even have a song.  I wish he could be my husband.  He is rich and intelligent.  I won't die because he wasn't my true love.

I looked for pen pal over the web all day.  That was how I found that guy.

I spent whole hundreds dollars on computer games, Sims, Lords of the Rings, etc.  They are brand new games, but I can't find instruction manuals, so it was impossible to win.

I didn't step out the door a whole month again.  And I didn't take shower or brush my teeth, a whole month.
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    weird weird