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I find myself feeling like if I don't Make Something, I'm gonna burst. It makes me especially determined to unpack all my framed art, because this living space is delightfully, delicately purple and sunny and not very much else, and that's rough on the ol' emotions factory. In theory, I could spend the next few days (slow at work and should remain so, fingers crossed) doing just that, because it's literally too hot to commute. My problem is I keep despairing at Bluesky (not a worthy use of my time!!!) because there is just rancid and depressing antisemitism all over that place and no one but other Jews seems willing to engage with it. Which, fine! A while back, I pledged that I was going to try and keep that mental space light. Unfortunately, the world follows us wherever we go.

It has been a good month, though! A month? It seems! adiva_calandia was here and it was RAD AS HELL to hang out all day! After two years of saying I should glut myself on it again, I am rewatching my beloved Buddhist rural horror show Bulgasal: Immortal Souls and finding new reasons to love it even harder. New kdramas that have been treating me exceedingly well, for those of you who have Netflix, are Phantom Lawyer (unemployed attorney is accidentally a shaman too, opening up a whole new realm of clients) and My Royal Nemesis (Joseon-era villain transmigrates into the present and loves everything about it, including her reincarnated but cantankerous-to-clingy crush).

Thursday/Friday/Saturday I got to be part of our on-air pledge drive team, which was super fun, even if it meant coming into the office two extra days, including over the weekend. My workplace softball team has lost every game but we're still having a great time. OH. The union came through in a huge way and I was able to zero out the horrible payment plans that were leaving me in debt just feeding myself each month, so now I can actually consider enjoying my summer! My birthday is in 10 days and I have the day off but no idea what I should do with it or what kind of get-together I should throw, but I'll get there. I just treated myself to some fabulous finds from my favorite fun shop that's online and that I also trust, but I'm strongly tempted by one of these babies in both the purple and the snakes print.

It's, you know????? My therapy slot got moved from Friday mornings when my schedule finally shucked off that horrid 2-10 shift, so now it's after work tonight and I am raring to talk about my depressing stuff there. I've been especially touch-hungry and hopeful, which I can definitely track throughout the month, but a hot guy was nice to me in the outfield on Monday night and that was all it took to get real up in my feelings about Being Alooooooone. Rather than write about that here, because I have more than 20 years of locked posts on the subject, I may start taking things out of boxes. For the metaphor, and also so I can live among my freaking excellent art again! ✶